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hey everyone welcome to the ufo hub live

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stream today is open lines where i

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basically just hang out with you online

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in hopes that some of you might have the

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courage to call in and share some of

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your craziest ufo et

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metaphysical or whatever other stories

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you might have so uh for some of you

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who've been watching for quite a while

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know that we're not limited uh there's

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no

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really

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i haven't had a subject yet where i

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would where i would be asking a person

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to please not talk about it but um and

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uh i don't know i don't know what what

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it would be uh but generally um

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yeah i try not to censor myself on here

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either as much as uh youtube always

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sends these reminders and um you know

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always sends out to let all the creators

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know of how what um you know how perfect

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you have to be in in order to

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i guess be more advertiser friendly i'm

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like well you guys haven't been really

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giving me much money over the close to

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decade now it's like i don't know what

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i'm really working for here but um

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anyway so for those of you who would

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like to share some stories today and um

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i included your stories um

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no i can't see uh et contact and earth

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changes as well so whatever topics might

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come up um or you're open to talk about

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right now i have the the stream or the

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voice chat going on in telegram so in

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the description below the video whether

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you're on youtube should be uh below the

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video facebook above it and twitch i

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stream has done it over with but anyway

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there's a link to

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go to the ufo hub telegram page

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unfortunately you have to download

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telegram either on your phone or on the

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computer and

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can listen use it to just simply uh

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listen to what we're discussing today

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and if you would like to talk there's a

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fellow underneath as a button with like

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a little raised hand you can just click

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on that and it'll tell me that you would

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like to talk to me

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yeah usually i just go into

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that somebody might have and then we'll

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if if somebody basically feels more

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a question that maybe somebody in chat

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they uh joined but anyway the bottom

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what is basically discussed at these

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curiosity without being labeled or being

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seen to be going to a ufo meeting or

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anjali and so i've reached out uh to

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interview and um so i have not heard

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if some of you have better connections

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talk more but um yeah and and usually

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invitations or sometimes answer to

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people that have sent invitations to me

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so to tell them okay sorry it's been

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kind of late that i'm getting back to

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you but you know this friday there's an

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show or we'll work out for some other

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guys specifically have somebody that you

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reach out to them and just have them

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their case because i'm still

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of subject matter it is and

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uh make sure that sometimes it's not a

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joke whenever some people send to me and

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to make sure it's an actual

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before it just helps me out but it's not

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talk to somebody with a book you know

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crazy things to share don't always want

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to write about it the only reason why as

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because they spent the time to gather

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their thoughts put them down on paper to

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convey to you in the most

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it's basically just more organizing it's

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a lot easier to do an interview but

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obviously that that it's not always the

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case you know the few that i did have um

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over open lines

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um oh shoot don't don't tell him i

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forgot his name i've speak to so many

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escapes my mind anyway um he doesn't

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have a book but basically it has a cool

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story to tell and it's very interesting

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anyway it's not a requirement just for

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the sake of a structure and interview if

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somebody already has their thoughts uh

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well put together and can easily convey

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so let's see here here we have uh hazel

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hazel awesome you made it um she always

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tells me that she keeps not getting the

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notifications or missing

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missing it or coming in halfway through

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when uh as we already discovered last

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week two hours into it when my butts get

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uh bradley welcomes as well

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sheldon welcome fab 22

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mr love crypto

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crypto uh i didn't get to talk to you

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earlier uh sometimes i open the chat or

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the voice chat up and telegram a half

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hour early and we just chit chat about

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everything anything you know family

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things current events just um you know

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just to kind of get things rolling

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before it officially goes live at 7. so

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anyway so i didn't get to talk to you

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then but you've been asking about uh the

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blue logo circle to be available so if

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there and available and i know you've

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been asking for it so i'm just letting

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for your support i really appreciate

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it so mr love welcome

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jb jordan nick welcome as well

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creating our own reality

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wait for him well thank you thank you

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hazel is asking ednan do you believe in

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asking the cosmos for help or in general

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motivated it wouldn't

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to have that kind of approach but just

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because everything is a reflection back

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frustrations for example and i stop and

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on a minute this is a scenario that

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these experiences i've had that it was

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created and created by me and so i have

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to then sit back and more wonder about

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like why

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and then take a different approach

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instead of you know being oh my god it's

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everything it's not going the way i need

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it why is it not going the way you need

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it just simply stop take a break

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understand i chose to have this

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experience okay i'm angry

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why frustrated why and so when it comes

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it's asking for you know for for help

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not surrendering in the sense of you've

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given up but you basically it's

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important to just

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um when you have an excitement or to

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follow up on an idea you just have to

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let it be and not be so controlling to

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see how it's going to happen so for

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telegram a little bit and just the very

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studio i'm sitting in now

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for the longest time i wanted to start

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the ufo hub lecture series so that i

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could have more people brought in and

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that way assure myself constantly having

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guests coming in doing interviews and

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putting them out for ufo hub well

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i did everything humanly possible

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i

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a lot of you out there that have donated

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and especially

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i got a

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fairly large bitcoin donation about 10

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grand i needed about 35 at that time but

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basically

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through that donation i've

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[Music]

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basically managed to it cut down a third

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of what i usually would have put up

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because what i did i did more like a

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did more editing on the side which then

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whatever i was bringing in through that

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while also working how we would just

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save and save and save and we had all

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that full amount basically got

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um

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give me one quick second

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i want to see

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today even i mentioned earlier for some

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reason i keep drawing blanks on people's

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names

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eric von velzen i know he's probably

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going to watch this and and i talk to

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him often too but sometimes i can't even

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remember my own mother's name when

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something happens like i keep getting

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these blocks and i just

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just have the most difficult times

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recalling things and and facts but

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anyway

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uh it was through

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eric from falzon that basically gave

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gave that large donation i was very

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grateful for it and we still talk to

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this day

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anyway what i'm trying to get at is that

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i worked towards it i was not lazy about

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it i've recorded videos of it building

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this table it took me three months

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uh

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setting up and talking to vendors and

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trying to get people and every step of

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the way things were just not happening

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you know and so finally i just

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kind of uh you know just put that idea

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on hold and it was the idea of having a

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separate building to where it can be

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more quiet and the kids are not going to

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distract or anything like that

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and

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basically just through

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um

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when i just put my mind to it and my

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wife and i talked about and we're like

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okay let's do it it's going to benefit

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the family in so many ways

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everything came together

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help

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money people whatever i needed the

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knowledge

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a lot of it i knew how to do myself but

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when it actually came to the

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construction i didn't so i asked my um

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father-in-law kelly vernon and i asked

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him i said for help and he graciously

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helped and you see him in in that video

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as well you know and i'm very grateful

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you know for for him being available and

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and doing that for me and um you know

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nancy vernon as well

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you know for all the help that i could

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get but the point was

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it was

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simply just being

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open to allow to whatever could happen

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happen here i was forcing one idea with

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all my energy all my know-how and you

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just would not go but then

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you know only to realize that there was

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a more urgent need for what

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what i was what was you know for what i

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was going to do which ended up uh being

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so anyway you might have heard this

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version i'm telling you might have heard

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this you know in the new age circles or

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talked about this

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in these very airy fairy ways but

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there's a

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uh practical

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there's a very practical steps you can

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take

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that

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then lead you to the next thing you

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don't always have to know 100

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what it is that you that you uh need

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sometimes it sometimes it's better than

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what you were asking for but the point

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is take the first action like i did i

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didn't have everything i didn't work out

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all the things but i just started

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digging around which was digging the the

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holes for the foundation

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the next thing i know

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was setting up the the reinforcement for

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it

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next thing and the next thing and

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at the end of the day here i have an

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entire studio that's benefited me and

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obviously all of you in a in a very big

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way and i

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wouldn't have never really guessed that

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i would have if i was stubborn about it

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i would have still tried in the hardest

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most difficult way to push the

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conference and at the time this was

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really unbeknownst to me at this these

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things that were not working out

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obviously for a reason because then

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kovit and the restrictions and the

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lockdowns happen well not not so much

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where i i'm at but there were

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restrictions so you know that some more

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i guess i should say liberal areas were

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following um and so um eureka springs

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you know they were putting all the

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restrictions so uh it wouldn't have been

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possible for me to to do the conference

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because that there was the place where i

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was thinking about having it and so not

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knowing that

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and already acting on my ass excitement

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months even half a year before that

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basically helped me divert a huge

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um huge dilemma because then i would

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have spent all my time trying to stick

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to

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uh figuring out how the conference or

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the lecture series was going to happen

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and it not happening and me sitting

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there wondering like why in the world is

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this not working out or just putting it

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on hold you know for a little bit i

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still have all the equipment here

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nothing is lost and um just kind of

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slightly shifting over my direction so

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anyway hazel i hope that kind of answers

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all right let's see

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uh

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what was it again lottie we'll i will

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promise we'll we'll get back to your

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question let me just get to phoenix

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phoenix is on telegram

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and so phoenix you are i muted on my end

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i mute yourself one year so you should

444
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hi how are you sorry that's all right

445
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how are you

446
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thanks for being on i'm great i just i

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just want to say thank you so much for

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uh

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for this platform there's not a lot of

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really um decent people out there a lot

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of shysters you know so

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it's really important that i think

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people that have

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had otherworldly experiences have a

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place to come

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where we feel

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what we're not going to be completely

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judged for the things that we know to be

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real so i i appreciate it and i listened

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to

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uh

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to penny today to your interview with

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her and

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wow she's just

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she's such an amazing woman and

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i have to tell you i resonated with her

467
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on such a deep level because i myself

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really want to become

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a doctor of naturopathic medicine and i

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think that's the way we're going and a

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lot of the things

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you know that she said

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occurred to her

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many many years ago in the 80s when she

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had her kundalini awakening

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i

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have been allowed and honored to have

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experienced myself just recently um

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i i had blocked my

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abilities my whole life

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i was always very intuitive always very

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in tune with other things that most

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people didn't see

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and at a young age i was put on

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antidepressants you know told that i was

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crazy when all along i really think that

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it was a symptom of what you know a lot

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of people don't consider as like being

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on the realm of autism but as a young

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girl i was vaccinated as a baby and i

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had all these vaccines but i had a lot

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of problems with attention deficit and

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in girls it shows up in teenage years as

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depression

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and bipolar i believe in other girls but

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for me it was depression i was put on

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antidepressants and it blocked me in a

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lot of ways and then

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um through various life circumstances i

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started drinking and it was really bad

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but i got sober a couple of years ago

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now and

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um ever since then

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i mean before that occurred before i got

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sober i i started to have flashbacks

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of my experiences phoenix abby before

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you continue i'm sorry to interrupt just

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just real quick um is there is there any

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way you can maybe are you outdoors right

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i am outdoors yep okay the only reason

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i'm asking the the chirping of the the

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crickets coming through strong and it

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deflects a little bit from hearing you

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well really okay well i might actually i

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might actually lose you if i go back

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inside is it very it's you know what

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what if i take you off of my bluetooth i

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don't know hang on

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well anyway uh all right you know but

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other than that please continue i do

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want you to to tell us whatever is on

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your mind i might lose you because the

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reception indoors that's why it came out

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is because the reception inside we'll

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make it work we'll make it work then

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okay

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anyway long story short i started having

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flashbacks of my experiences as an

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abductee as a child and

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i thought about writing a book like you

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had mentioned earlier and i started to

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and then i'm like i see all these other

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people coming out with books and it's

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just

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it

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i didn't want to jump on that train you

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know right away i i really felt like i

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needed to explore

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my spirituality a little more and do a

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lot more digging into why i have these

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experiences so i've been taking time

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doing a lot of research but

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you know

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one real experience that i can say

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um

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is that is it all right that i've

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this is it this is the reason why i'm on

548
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today so anyone that would like to speak

549
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to me and you came on first uh just you

550
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know talk away

551
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sure okay

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well i mean it started to happen when i

553
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was a young child i recalled

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you know i always had a problem sleeping

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um

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but they would come to me in the moments

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of uh i was like partially awake and

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partially sleep and i recall seeing

559
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cartoon figures in my room there was

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always three of them

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and um

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they never like they would always scare

563
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me at first but they would just inject

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you with this feeling of

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you know this is okay we've done this

566
00:24:36,950 --> 00:24:35,039
before and you know you're okay and and

567
00:24:39,269 --> 00:24:36,960
i would not remember anything i was a

568
00:24:40,870 --> 00:24:39,279
child and i really didn't i thought it

569
00:24:42,310 --> 00:24:40,880
was a dream you know you think their

570
00:24:44,470 --> 00:24:42,320
dreams

571
00:24:46,470 --> 00:24:44,480
and um

572
00:24:47,750 --> 00:24:46,480
but something occurred in public

573
00:24:51,430 --> 00:24:47,760
actually it was

574
00:24:53,510 --> 00:24:51,440
it was strange it occurred in 1985 i i

575
00:24:55,510 --> 00:24:53,520
don't know if anybody was up in new

576
00:24:57,269 --> 00:24:55,520
england at that time but i

577
00:24:59,190 --> 00:24:57,279
well i know a lot of people were but i

578
00:25:02,789 --> 00:24:59,200
happened to live in connecticut

579
00:25:05,029 --> 00:25:02,799
and um hurricane gloria came through

580
00:25:06,710 --> 00:25:05,039
and um

581
00:25:09,590 --> 00:25:06,720
that year it was like later i can't

582
00:25:12,630 --> 00:25:09,600
recall the exact dates but it was it was

583
00:25:13,590 --> 00:25:12,640
september 1985 and i was just six years

584
00:25:16,470 --> 00:25:13,600
old

585
00:25:18,710 --> 00:25:16,480
i i remember it was close to sunset i

586
00:25:21,669 --> 00:25:18,720
was down the street playing at a little

587
00:25:23,510 --> 00:25:21,679
friend's house in norwalk connecticut

588
00:25:25,110 --> 00:25:23,520
and um

589
00:25:28,470 --> 00:25:25,120
and we were

590
00:25:30,390 --> 00:25:28,480
i all i remember is really looking up at

591
00:25:32,950 --> 00:25:30,400
the sky and there was just this

592
00:25:35,029 --> 00:25:32,960
brightness that i i recall having to

593
00:25:36,870 --> 00:25:35,039
cover my eyes and when i could actually

594
00:25:39,590 --> 00:25:36,880
make out what it looked like

595
00:25:41,430 --> 00:25:39,600
it was just three bright lights in the

596
00:25:44,310 --> 00:25:41,440
shape of a triangle

597
00:25:45,830 --> 00:25:44,320
and what i realized i you know i didn't

598
00:25:47,510 --> 00:25:45,840
you don't really make sense of it you

599
00:25:48,710 --> 00:25:47,520
think is this military you think it's a

600
00:25:50,070 --> 00:25:48,720
helicopter

601
00:25:51,909 --> 00:25:50,080
you know all these thoughts are going

602
00:25:54,390 --> 00:25:51,919
through your head

603
00:25:56,549 --> 00:25:54,400
and then the things split like the it so

604
00:25:58,950 --> 00:25:56,559
it was a triangle but all three lights

605
00:26:01,110 --> 00:25:58,960
kind of split off into their own light

606
00:26:03,190 --> 00:26:01,120
so it was like so i kind of knew it

607
00:26:04,710 --> 00:26:03,200
wasn't military because it went from

608
00:26:06,870 --> 00:26:04,720
being one craft

609
00:26:09,190 --> 00:26:06,880
to three separate crafts

610
00:26:12,870 --> 00:26:09,200
and then all i recall is just this

611
00:26:15,430 --> 00:26:12,880
feeling of paralysis and um

612
00:26:16,230 --> 00:26:15,440
i remember feeling

613
00:26:19,029 --> 00:26:16,240
uh

614
00:26:22,149 --> 00:26:19,039
the wind on my face and the tears in my

615
00:26:25,510 --> 00:26:22,159
eyes as i was being pulled up

616
00:26:27,510 --> 00:26:25,520
and i recall um them touching my skin

617
00:26:29,990 --> 00:26:27,520
and the feel of their skin on my skin

618
00:26:31,750 --> 00:26:30,000
and that that same feeling that they

619
00:26:34,230 --> 00:26:31,760
inject you with like

620
00:26:37,110 --> 00:26:34,240
you know uh the emotion like your home

621
00:26:39,190 --> 00:26:37,120
it is almost this strange sensation that

622
00:26:41,029 --> 00:26:39,200
you've been here before and

623
00:26:43,990 --> 00:26:41,039
these people are your family these

624
00:26:45,590 --> 00:26:44,000
beings are your family at least to me

625
00:26:48,070 --> 00:26:45,600
that's how they felt

626
00:26:49,750 --> 00:26:48,080
like i've heard a lot of other abductees

627
00:26:51,269 --> 00:26:49,760
talk about their experiences being

628
00:26:53,029 --> 00:26:51,279
really negative

629
00:26:55,190 --> 00:26:53,039
and perhaps i need to do

630
00:26:58,149 --> 00:26:55,200
a little bit more

631
00:27:00,470 --> 00:26:58,159
hypnosis like regression therapy

632
00:27:01,909 --> 00:27:00,480
to go into a little bit more detail

633
00:27:03,750 --> 00:27:01,919
about it because i really kind of

634
00:27:05,669 --> 00:27:03,760
haven't but

635
00:27:08,870 --> 00:27:05,679
um

636
00:27:11,430 --> 00:27:08,880
i lost time that night and what i recall

637
00:27:12,710 --> 00:27:11,440
all i recall after being pulled in was

638
00:27:15,029 --> 00:27:12,720
um

639
00:27:17,029 --> 00:27:15,039
waking up down the street several hours

640
00:27:20,870 --> 00:27:17,039
later at my grandparents house and i was

641
00:27:23,110 --> 00:27:20,880
literally like plopped in front of this

642
00:27:24,470 --> 00:27:23,120
huge television that they had you

643
00:27:26,630 --> 00:27:24,480
remember those big

644
00:27:29,510 --> 00:27:26,640
tvs they had that were like wood grain

645
00:27:31,029 --> 00:27:29,520
and they'd sit on the ground

646
00:27:32,549 --> 00:27:31,039
and which you know they were sitting on

647
00:27:35,510 --> 00:27:32,559
the floor

648
00:27:38,710 --> 00:27:37,590
well at least from what i've got

649
00:27:41,669 --> 00:27:38,720
was um

650
00:27:43,590 --> 00:27:41,679
early 80s i was in bosnia late 80s i was

651
00:27:45,750 --> 00:27:43,600
in germany but i always watch american

652
00:27:48,149 --> 00:27:45,760
tv so i know from the tvs what you're

653
00:27:49,990 --> 00:27:48,159
talking about well yeah i mean it was

654
00:27:52,310 --> 00:27:50,000
just this big old thing and i just had

655
00:27:54,549 --> 00:27:52,320
been put right in front of it and it was

656
00:27:57,029 --> 00:27:54,559
strange because at first it was off and

657
00:27:59,350 --> 00:27:57,039
then it flicked on and it was just

658
00:28:00,630 --> 00:27:59,360
fuzz you know like the it was just

659
00:28:03,029 --> 00:28:00,640
static

660
00:28:04,870 --> 00:28:03,039
and i'm like what is going on and i

661
00:28:07,029 --> 00:28:04,880
looked outside and it was pitch dark

662
00:28:09,510 --> 00:28:07,039
outside which is how i knew i had lost

663
00:28:11,669 --> 00:28:09,520
time because when i the last

664
00:28:13,909 --> 00:28:11,679
thing i had recalled was that it was

665
00:28:15,510 --> 00:28:13,919
still sunny it was just setting the sun

666
00:28:17,909 --> 00:28:15,520
was just setting

667
00:28:21,269 --> 00:28:17,919
it was pitch dark outside

668
00:28:24,950 --> 00:28:21,279
and um and then the screen flipped on

669
00:28:26,070 --> 00:28:24,960
to the news and the news came on

670
00:28:28,549 --> 00:28:26,080
and

671
00:28:29,510 --> 00:28:28,559
i saw my friend the one whose house i

672
00:28:32,710 --> 00:28:29,520
was at

673
00:28:34,710 --> 00:28:32,720
and he was talking to a reporter

674
00:28:35,830 --> 00:28:34,720
and showing her a picture that he had

675
00:28:38,549 --> 00:28:35,840
drawn

676
00:28:40,789 --> 00:28:38,559
of what we saw and there were other

677
00:28:42,870 --> 00:28:40,799
people in the neighborhood that had

678
00:28:44,789 --> 00:28:42,880
witnessed this and had reported this to

679
00:28:48,070 --> 00:28:44,799
the news reporter

680
00:28:50,310 --> 00:28:48,080
and um i remember thinking to myself

681
00:28:51,190 --> 00:28:50,320
i you know being six years old when you

682
00:28:53,190 --> 00:28:51,200
think

683
00:28:55,590 --> 00:28:53,200
very much about yourself and

684
00:28:57,350 --> 00:28:55,600
i actually was angry i was like what the

685
00:28:59,669 --> 00:28:57,360
hell i was there too why aren't they

686
00:29:01,430 --> 00:28:59,679
talking to me and i remember i turned

687
00:29:02,950 --> 00:29:01,440
around to look at my grandmother and my

688
00:29:04,630 --> 00:29:02,960
grandma was sitting

689
00:29:08,149 --> 00:29:04,640
in the back of the room and she looked

690
00:29:09,750 --> 00:29:08,159
all weird like dazed and confused and um

691
00:29:10,710 --> 00:29:09,760
i said grandma why aren't they talking

692
00:29:12,389 --> 00:29:10,720
to me

693
00:29:14,310 --> 00:29:12,399
and she got up and she's like i don't

694
00:29:15,909 --> 00:29:14,320
know like totally out of it and walked

695
00:29:17,669 --> 00:29:15,919
out of the room and i

696
00:29:19,669 --> 00:29:17,679
honestly

697
00:29:21,909 --> 00:29:19,679
i i never really

698
00:29:24,710 --> 00:29:21,919
i don't know why but i never really

699
00:29:27,430 --> 00:29:24,720
spoke about it with anybody else i think

700
00:29:29,430 --> 00:29:27,440
the next day i may have mentioned it in

701
00:29:31,590 --> 00:29:29,440
passing to my mom like hey ma you'll

702
00:29:34,070 --> 00:29:31,600
never guess what we saw

703
00:29:34,789 --> 00:29:34,080
you know and my mom's like uh-huh

704
00:29:35,990 --> 00:29:34,799
and

705
00:29:38,870 --> 00:29:36,000
i just

706
00:29:40,950 --> 00:29:38,880
i forgot about it for a really long time

707
00:29:43,029 --> 00:29:40,960
and um

708
00:29:46,909 --> 00:29:43,039
it wasn't until i started

709
00:29:49,990 --> 00:29:46,919
i had a very um violent car crash in

710
00:29:51,669 --> 00:29:50,000
2009 was it nine i'm sorry no it was

711
00:29:55,110 --> 00:29:51,679
2011.

712
00:29:56,230 --> 00:29:55,120
and i had a near-death experience and

713
00:29:59,590 --> 00:29:56,240
i actually

714
00:30:00,470 --> 00:29:59,600
died i had lost so much blood and

715
00:30:02,549 --> 00:30:00,480
um

716
00:30:04,389 --> 00:30:02,559
it was after that that i started to have

717
00:30:06,549 --> 00:30:04,399
these flashbacks

718
00:30:08,630 --> 00:30:06,559
but it wasn't until

719
00:30:09,510 --> 00:30:08,640
you know i got sober and started having

720
00:30:12,870 --> 00:30:09,520
these

721
00:30:15,510 --> 00:30:12,880
fellini spiritual awakenings in my mind

722
00:30:18,230 --> 00:30:15,520
that it really started to kind of

723
00:30:20,470 --> 00:30:18,240
it really dawned on me that i really did

724
00:30:22,630 --> 00:30:20,480
have this experience and what

725
00:30:24,310 --> 00:30:22,640
what does that exactly mean what does

726
00:30:25,430 --> 00:30:24,320
that exactly mean

727
00:30:27,269 --> 00:30:25,440
and

728
00:30:29,909 --> 00:30:27,279
you know um

729
00:30:33,430 --> 00:30:29,919
it's hard to find other people that have

730
00:30:36,470 --> 00:30:33,440
had similar experiences and um

731
00:30:37,510 --> 00:30:36,480
it's you know now that i'm connecting

732
00:30:40,470 --> 00:30:37,520
with

733
00:30:41,510 --> 00:30:40,480
beings on another dimensional level i i

734
00:30:43,909 --> 00:30:41,520
think that

735
00:30:44,710 --> 00:30:43,919
because i've awakened my kundalini that

736
00:30:46,710 --> 00:30:44,720
i'm

737
00:30:49,269 --> 00:30:46,720
i am experiencing things like i don't

738
00:30:50,870 --> 00:30:49,279
know if anyone else is experiencing this

739
00:30:52,070 --> 00:30:50,880
right now though a symptom that i'm

740
00:30:54,070 --> 00:30:52,080
having

741
00:30:56,549 --> 00:30:54,080
is that i'm being touched by

742
00:30:58,470 --> 00:30:56,559
inter-dimensionals and i i put

743
00:31:01,430 --> 00:30:58,480
spiritual boundaries around me all the

744
00:31:04,389 --> 00:31:01,440
time i'm big into crystals and positive

745
00:31:06,470 --> 00:31:04,399
energy i do tarot card readings i'm you

746
00:31:08,950 --> 00:31:06,480
know i'm highly connected and i consider

747
00:31:10,149 --> 00:31:08,960
myself to be clear everything you know

748
00:31:12,549 --> 00:31:10,159
um but

749
00:31:14,789 --> 00:31:12,559
i'm i'm experiencing them touching me

750
00:31:15,669 --> 00:31:14,799
like they're touching me and it doesn't

751
00:31:17,669 --> 00:31:15,679
hurt

752
00:31:19,669 --> 00:31:17,679
it's just them kind of going hey we're

753
00:31:22,310 --> 00:31:19,679
here you know and i don't know if this

754
00:31:24,230 --> 00:31:22,320
is something penny experienced but she

755
00:31:27,350 --> 00:31:24,240
said that the robes she when she

756
00:31:30,070 --> 00:31:27,360
mentioned the robes she said that they

757
00:31:31,029 --> 00:31:30,080
that they appeared to her and i sensed

758
00:31:36,710 --> 00:31:31,039
them

759
00:31:38,310 --> 00:31:36,720
i sense their presence and i and i feel

760
00:31:39,430 --> 00:31:38,320
them touching me and i don't know if

761
00:31:41,430 --> 00:31:39,440
it's because

762
00:31:42,950 --> 00:31:41,440
of my experiences that this is being

763
00:31:45,750 --> 00:31:42,960
connected to me

764
00:31:47,830 --> 00:31:45,760
in a i don't know in a better way

765
00:31:50,389 --> 00:31:47,840
i'm not sure but i just felt like i

766
00:31:52,230 --> 00:31:50,399
wanted to talk about it because um

767
00:31:53,830 --> 00:31:52,240
if anyone else has experienced this and

768
00:31:55,590 --> 00:31:53,840
i'm not looking right at the chat right

769
00:31:58,230 --> 00:31:55,600
now but i will after

770
00:31:59,750 --> 00:31:58,240
but it would be nice to hear about it

771
00:32:01,509 --> 00:31:59,760
it would be nice if we could all just

772
00:32:03,669 --> 00:32:01,519
kind of get together and share that kind

773
00:32:05,990 --> 00:32:03,679
of information

774
00:32:07,830 --> 00:32:06,000
well thank you that's my story yeah no

775
00:32:09,990 --> 00:32:07,840
thanks for doing that well you know i

776
00:32:12,230 --> 00:32:10,000
was saying you were saying earlier

777
00:32:15,509 --> 00:32:12,240
thanking me well i'm thanking all of you

778
00:32:17,110 --> 00:32:15,519
guys because it's by if it was just me

779
00:32:18,789 --> 00:32:17,120
sitting there by myself talking about

780
00:32:21,190 --> 00:32:18,799
some crazy stuff it would just be a

781
00:32:23,269 --> 00:32:21,200
crazy dude online that it's entertaining

782
00:32:25,909 --> 00:32:23,279
to watch but that's not the case you

783
00:32:30,070 --> 00:32:25,919
know there's been hundreds of people

784
00:32:32,789 --> 00:32:30,080
um you know that i know of personally uh

785
00:32:35,750 --> 00:32:32,799
obviously maybe millions worldwide and

786
00:32:38,070 --> 00:32:35,760
just those views just yourself that log

787
00:32:42,950 --> 00:32:38,080
in online to to share publicly so thank

788
00:32:42,960 --> 00:32:46,789
but uh you know it's um

789
00:32:50,950 --> 00:32:48,389
attracted myself i was about to say

790
00:32:51,990 --> 00:32:50,960
something else but i wanted to get to to

791
00:32:53,750 --> 00:32:52,000
um

792
00:32:56,870 --> 00:32:53,760
telling you that first and then it

793
00:32:58,149 --> 00:32:56,880
disappeared in my mind um

794
00:32:59,830 --> 00:32:58,159
it's something that's going on with me

795
00:33:00,870 --> 00:32:59,840
today i was saying earlier in the chat

796
00:33:02,789 --> 00:33:00,880
that i was

797
00:33:04,710 --> 00:33:02,799
can't remember people's names i'm trying

798
00:33:06,149 --> 00:33:04,720
to recall things and i've been drinking

799
00:33:08,070 --> 00:33:06,159
plenty of water i just don't know what

800
00:33:10,710 --> 00:33:08,080
in the world's going on and i don't

801
00:33:13,110 --> 00:33:10,720
drink alcohol or smoke

802
00:33:14,389 --> 00:33:13,120
yesterday and today i've been feeling

803
00:33:16,710 --> 00:33:14,399
these weird

804
00:33:19,509 --> 00:33:16,720
chills up and down my spine like i can

805
00:33:20,950 --> 00:33:19,519
feel the energies are very intense for

806
00:33:23,029 --> 00:33:20,960
some reason

807
00:33:26,710 --> 00:33:23,039
um i think it has to do with the solar

808
00:33:29,430 --> 00:33:26,720
winds and the cmes coming in but yes i i

809
00:33:31,909 --> 00:33:29,440
i feel it too

810
00:33:33,590 --> 00:33:31,919
right oh actually um now i remembered it

811
00:33:36,230 --> 00:33:33,600
was regarding the

812
00:33:38,389 --> 00:33:36,240
that the touch itself did you do you

813
00:33:41,509 --> 00:33:38,399
sense it like a human touch or is it

814
00:33:43,190 --> 00:33:41,519
more what like um like energetic tingle

815
00:33:44,310 --> 00:33:43,200
that you translate as a touch can can

816
00:33:46,230 --> 00:33:44,320
you maybe

817
00:33:48,630 --> 00:33:46,240
explain that a little bit

818
00:33:51,750 --> 00:33:48,640
yeah you know like how like you

819
00:33:53,509 --> 00:33:51,760
some people described a sensation

820
00:33:55,750 --> 00:33:53,519
if they're just kind of brushing over

821
00:33:57,509 --> 00:33:55,760
you you can sense energies you know

822
00:33:59,669 --> 00:33:57,519
first the electrical

823
00:34:01,029 --> 00:33:59,679
sensation you know your hairs go up

824
00:34:05,430 --> 00:34:01,039
those are the very

825
00:34:07,269 --> 00:34:05,440
you know and i it feels like spider web

826
00:34:09,190 --> 00:34:07,279
sometimes it sounds icky and it comes

827
00:34:11,190 --> 00:34:09,200
sometimes it does feel a little icky but

828
00:34:12,869 --> 00:34:11,200
it does feel like spider webs sometimes

829
00:34:14,389 --> 00:34:12,879
and you're like what is this and it's

830
00:34:15,829 --> 00:34:14,399
nothing's there

831
00:34:17,909 --> 00:34:15,839
right and um

832
00:34:20,069 --> 00:34:17,919
spiderweb is a common one i've heard

833
00:34:21,589 --> 00:34:20,079
because it was one that confirmed for me

834
00:34:23,349 --> 00:34:21,599
that it wasn't just because i kept

835
00:34:25,990 --> 00:34:23,359
thinking why in the world i can't see

836
00:34:27,829 --> 00:34:26,000
any spiders i was even more of a clean

837
00:34:29,669 --> 00:34:27,839
freak then when i was having my

838
00:34:31,669 --> 00:34:29,679
experiences and i was like you're

839
00:34:39,349 --> 00:34:31,679
looking down and i'm always looking

840
00:34:44,389 --> 00:34:42,310
but it also gets so it's an intense

841
00:34:46,629 --> 00:34:44,399
sensation as well it's not painful but

842
00:34:49,669 --> 00:34:46,639
it does literally feel like they come up

843
00:34:52,470 --> 00:34:49,679
to me and touch me i feel their hand

844
00:34:54,790 --> 00:34:52,480
print i feel them touching me touching

845
00:34:56,950 --> 00:34:54,800
me like actual touch

846
00:34:58,390 --> 00:34:56,960
but there's nothing there

847
00:35:00,710 --> 00:34:58,400
so i i mean

848
00:35:02,310 --> 00:35:00,720
it's insane but they pull my hair i mean

849
00:35:04,550 --> 00:35:02,320
like not to hurt but they let me know

850
00:35:06,310 --> 00:35:04,560
that i'm there to touch my hair

851
00:35:08,390 --> 00:35:06,320
and i i don't know if i'm the only one

852
00:35:10,630 --> 00:35:08,400
experiencing that but it's not it's not

853
00:35:13,349 --> 00:35:10,640
to hurt like i said i i put my own

854
00:35:15,670 --> 00:35:13,359
boundaries up i have crystals i i make

855
00:35:17,430 --> 00:35:15,680
sure that i do the whole you know light

856
00:35:19,430 --> 00:35:17,440
love light you know

857
00:35:22,310 --> 00:35:19,440
only i only allow

858
00:35:25,270 --> 00:35:22,320
beings and service to others

859
00:35:27,750 --> 00:35:25,280
with love overwhelmed are my rules and i

860
00:35:30,069 --> 00:35:27,760
i make that very clear and and these

861
00:35:31,190 --> 00:35:30,079
beings are respectful of that they don't

862
00:35:34,710 --> 00:35:31,200
harm me

863
00:35:36,550 --> 00:35:34,720
so it's a touch it's actual touch

864
00:35:38,630 --> 00:35:36,560
well and i think it's just i believe

865
00:35:40,870 --> 00:35:38,640
it's just interdimensional

866
00:35:42,150 --> 00:35:40,880
right do you think sometimes you know

867
00:35:44,870 --> 00:35:42,160
your fears

868
00:35:48,950 --> 00:35:44,880
would be kind of holding you back from

869
00:35:53,510 --> 00:35:51,910
um i i you know what i i have to tell

870
00:35:54,870 --> 00:35:53,520
you i'm kind of in a funny position

871
00:35:57,750 --> 00:35:54,880
right now in my life where things are

872
00:36:03,430 --> 00:35:57,760
extremely stressful you know i i'm a

873
00:36:06,710 --> 00:36:05,109
i shouldn't have gotten as in

874
00:36:09,270 --> 00:36:06,720
politically

875
00:36:11,910 --> 00:36:09,280
emotional as i did i i was emotionally

876
00:36:13,430 --> 00:36:11,920
attached to trump you know but when i

877
00:36:15,349 --> 00:36:13,440
started doing a lot of digging into

878
00:36:17,430 --> 00:36:15,359
trump i have to tell you you know

879
00:36:18,950 --> 00:36:17,440
everybody thinks he's the savior and i

880
00:36:20,630 --> 00:36:18,960
have to say i've done a lot of digging

881
00:36:23,270 --> 00:36:20,640
and he's he's not

882
00:36:25,510 --> 00:36:23,280
exactly who you all think he is but in

883
00:36:27,829 --> 00:36:25,520
any occasion i got emotionally attached

884
00:36:29,430 --> 00:36:27,839
and um i'm in a funny situation now

885
00:36:32,150 --> 00:36:29,440
where my whole family won't talk to me

886
00:36:33,990 --> 00:36:32,160
anymore i'm an anti-vaxxer so now i

887
00:36:36,630 --> 00:36:34,000
can't work in my in the healthcare field

888
00:36:38,630 --> 00:36:36,640
anymore and it's like or at least that's

889
00:36:40,390 --> 00:36:38,640
that's the way it looks right now and i

890
00:36:42,550 --> 00:36:40,400
wish it weren't so

891
00:36:44,470 --> 00:36:42,560
because i actually that's you know i

892
00:36:46,710 --> 00:36:44,480
wanted to go back to school eventually

893
00:36:48,870 --> 00:36:46,720
to be a doctor of naturopathic medicine

894
00:36:51,109 --> 00:36:48,880
but i do enjoy being in the medical

895
00:36:52,310 --> 00:36:51,119
field i was good at it and i just feel

896
00:36:53,349 --> 00:36:52,320
like it's over and i'm kind of

897
00:36:55,510 --> 00:36:53,359
struggling

898
00:36:57,829 --> 00:36:55,520
to understand what i'm supposed to do

899
00:36:59,910 --> 00:36:57,839
right now and um i'm just at a very

900
00:37:02,310 --> 00:36:59,920
strange crossroads so i believe that

901
00:37:04,069 --> 00:37:02,320
that might that might be a reason

902
00:37:05,670 --> 00:37:04,079
that it's holding me back a little bit

903
00:37:06,790 --> 00:37:05,680
on a personal level

904
00:37:08,710 --> 00:37:06,800
but

905
00:37:11,589 --> 00:37:08,720
maybe i'm just not there yet and i do

906
00:37:13,589 --> 00:37:11,599
believe that they know when i am

907
00:37:17,910 --> 00:37:13,599
and and and they do actually you know

908
00:37:19,510 --> 00:37:17,920
people talk about i hear a lot of like

909
00:37:22,550 --> 00:37:19,520
there's so many like

910
00:37:24,630 --> 00:37:22,560
koozie woozy transhumanist out

911
00:37:27,109 --> 00:37:24,640
there excuse my french but it is it's

912
00:37:30,390 --> 00:37:27,119
really really freaking annoying

913
00:37:33,190 --> 00:37:30,400
and i see it and hear it all the time

914
00:37:35,270 --> 00:37:33,200
and i know people need to make a living

915
00:37:38,470 --> 00:37:35,280
but when you're charging someone like

916
00:37:40,790 --> 00:37:38,480
450 an hour just to do a spiritual

917
00:37:41,829 --> 00:37:40,800
reading i mean come on that's a lot of

918
00:37:43,990 --> 00:37:41,839
money

919
00:37:45,829 --> 00:37:44,000
for this kind of i mean a lot of people

920
00:37:47,589 --> 00:37:45,839
are doing that i mean that's nothing

921
00:37:49,190 --> 00:37:47,599
either i've heard of people like there

922
00:37:50,950 --> 00:37:49,200
are people that have courses for

923
00:37:52,470 --> 00:37:50,960
thousands and thousands of dollars and

924
00:37:54,470 --> 00:37:52,480
i'm like dude i'm struggling to figure

925
00:37:57,030 --> 00:37:54,480
out how i'm going to pay rent you know

926
00:37:59,109 --> 00:37:57,040
it's like right really but

927
00:38:01,270 --> 00:37:59,119
phoenix you know if i may interject just

928
00:38:02,829 --> 00:38:01,280
real quick i'm sorry to interrupt i was

929
00:38:06,069 --> 00:38:02,839
going to say you know

930
00:38:08,550 --> 00:38:06,079
the it would be i can see definitely

931
00:38:10,310 --> 00:38:08,560
trying to have a more of a spiritual

932
00:38:12,710 --> 00:38:10,320
experience when you're so emotionally

933
00:38:15,670 --> 00:38:12,720
wound up and riled up about these about

934
00:38:18,710 --> 00:38:15,680
all these other things going on but

935
00:38:20,390 --> 00:38:18,720
you know um i guess trying to the point

936
00:38:23,349 --> 00:38:20,400
here is like you know because i have my

937
00:38:25,430 --> 00:38:23,359
own personal you know belief system and

938
00:38:27,510 --> 00:38:25,440
what what i about when i'm not on

939
00:38:30,550 --> 00:38:27,520
camera and all these other things but i

940
00:38:33,430 --> 00:38:30,560
try to be more conscious about when i'm

941
00:38:35,990 --> 00:38:33,440
at least speaking to touch back onto the

942
00:38:39,030 --> 00:38:36,000
other side the other person that i know

943
00:38:40,950 --> 00:38:39,040
i am that that that knows you know

944
00:38:42,230 --> 00:38:40,960
because frustrations are one thing you

945
00:38:43,829 --> 00:38:42,240
know we always want to let out on the

946
00:38:46,230 --> 00:38:43,839
frustrations because it's fun it's

947
00:38:47,750 --> 00:38:46,240
frustrating let's get angry about this

948
00:38:49,829 --> 00:38:47,760
no but at the end of the day it doesn't

949
00:38:50,630 --> 00:38:49,839
serve you then anything anything more

950
00:38:52,710 --> 00:38:50,640
than

951
00:38:54,950 --> 00:38:52,720
until the next frustration you know and

952
00:38:56,790 --> 00:38:54,960
then it's like okay let it out then when

953
00:38:59,030 --> 00:38:56,800
is the next one coming because it's

954
00:39:02,069 --> 00:38:59,040
almost like every state of being has its

955
00:39:04,790 --> 00:39:02,079
own way of perpetuating itself you know

956
00:39:07,190 --> 00:39:04,800
and so if you just go from frustration

957
00:39:09,589 --> 00:39:07,200
to frustration to frustration you get

958
00:39:11,589 --> 00:39:09,599
nothing back but frustrations of more

959
00:39:13,589 --> 00:39:11,599
things that are just off in your mindset

960
00:39:14,870 --> 00:39:13,599
where you go am i going crazy you know

961
00:39:16,390 --> 00:39:14,880
it's like what what in the world is

962
00:39:18,150 --> 00:39:16,400
happening here because i've been

963
00:39:19,910 --> 00:39:18,160
definitely been there for the past two

964
00:39:22,390 --> 00:39:19,920
years for sure you know because we're

965
00:39:24,390 --> 00:39:22,400
just like this is what you know because

966
00:39:26,790 --> 00:39:24,400
i talked to my wife i turned around and

967
00:39:29,030 --> 00:39:26,800
i said hey um have have we shifted

968
00:39:31,270 --> 00:39:29,040
dimensions and we just are not aware is

969
00:39:33,430 --> 00:39:31,280
that is that what's going on you know

970
00:39:34,230 --> 00:39:33,440
and so i would ask her too and i would

971
00:39:35,670 --> 00:39:34,240
like

972
00:39:36,950 --> 00:39:35,680
so what do you think about this so what

973
00:39:38,790 --> 00:39:36,960
do you think about that just to make

974
00:39:41,030 --> 00:39:38,800
sure that my own wife is on the same

975
00:39:42,630 --> 00:39:41,040
page as i am you know because you know

976
00:39:44,950 --> 00:39:42,640
she always just sit there and you know

977
00:39:46,790 --> 00:39:44,960
listen to me and i always you know i was

978
00:39:48,870 --> 00:39:46,800
like am i boring you're like no no you

979
00:39:50,470 --> 00:39:48,880
got interesting stuff to say i was like

980
00:39:52,550 --> 00:39:50,480
i know but i'm talking to you so i can

981
00:39:54,790 --> 00:39:52,560
get some feedback too you know and so

982
00:39:57,030 --> 00:39:54,800
anyways so we have these like

983
00:39:58,790 --> 00:39:57,040
at least you know since we're together

984
00:40:00,630 --> 00:39:58,800
we're like let's at least make sure that

985
00:40:02,550 --> 00:40:00,640
we're on the same page because you know

986
00:40:04,950 --> 00:40:02,560
i've i've heard some stories of people

987
00:40:06,870 --> 00:40:04,960
like you know they're really separated

988
00:40:08,630 --> 00:40:06,880
toward the husband as republican the

989
00:40:10,790 --> 00:40:08,640
wife is democrat it's like good luck

990
00:40:12,230 --> 00:40:10,800
making that relationship work you know

991
00:40:16,870 --> 00:40:12,240
because

992
00:40:20,069 --> 00:40:16,880
and ideologies you know trying to make

993
00:40:21,750 --> 00:40:20,079
it work because before and in my mindset

994
00:40:24,309 --> 00:40:21,760
to this day we still have the

995
00:40:26,150 --> 00:40:24,319
constitution you can we can unify under

996
00:40:29,030 --> 00:40:26,160
but if you have others that don't see

997
00:40:31,270 --> 00:40:29,040
that as a unifying you know uh uh

998
00:40:32,710 --> 00:40:31,280
document which gives everybody the right

999
00:40:34,470 --> 00:40:32,720
and freedom then i'm sorry i don't know

1000
00:40:37,109 --> 00:40:34,480
what else we can base it on i'm

1001
00:40:38,790 --> 00:40:37,119
certainly not gonna i don't know

1002
00:40:40,230 --> 00:40:38,800
do some of the the crazy stuff that's

1003
00:40:41,910 --> 00:40:40,240
been going on out there but what i'm

1004
00:40:44,230 --> 00:40:41,920
trying to say is you're not you're not

1005
00:40:46,230 --> 00:40:44,240
alone in what you're going through and

1006
00:40:47,190 --> 00:40:46,240
it seems like a lot of people were

1007
00:40:49,589 --> 00:40:47,200
always

1008
00:40:50,829 --> 00:40:49,599
searching

1009
00:40:53,109 --> 00:40:50,839
say that

1010
00:40:58,309 --> 00:40:53,119
again yeah

1011
00:40:59,990 --> 00:40:58,319
i guess i think going across my life

1012
00:41:03,270 --> 00:41:00,000
i think your internet is finally

1013
00:41:08,550 --> 00:41:04,870
yeah you sound like a

1014
00:41:14,630 --> 00:41:11,430
that's okay that's enough anyway

1015
00:41:18,069 --> 00:41:16,470
i really i'm having really hard time

1016
00:41:22,470 --> 00:41:18,079
hearing you now because you're really

1017
00:41:28,069 --> 00:41:26,230
hang on and i'm trying to connect to

1018
00:41:29,190 --> 00:41:28,079
i

1019
00:41:30,330 --> 00:41:29,200
uh

1020
00:41:41,990 --> 00:41:30,340
can you rename i'm sorry

1021
00:41:46,630 --> 00:41:43,430
you're much better now wherever you are

1022
00:41:48,309 --> 00:41:46,640
it's much better it's a lot cleaner um

1023
00:41:49,510 --> 00:41:48,319
no but i was just basically going to say

1024
00:41:51,349 --> 00:41:49,520
is that

1025
00:41:53,829 --> 00:41:51,359
it's important to know who you are

1026
00:41:56,309 --> 00:41:53,839
because if you give up

1027
00:41:59,510 --> 00:41:56,319
on who who you are who you feel in your

1028
00:42:01,349 --> 00:41:59,520
hearts of hearts um if you give that up

1029
00:42:02,390 --> 00:42:01,359
for the convenience of acceptance or

1030
00:42:04,150 --> 00:42:02,400
other things

1031
00:42:06,230 --> 00:42:04,160
i promise you you will never forgive

1032
00:42:08,550 --> 00:42:06,240
yourself until the day you die

1033
00:42:10,069 --> 00:42:08,560
you know it's it's important that if you

1034
00:42:11,910 --> 00:42:10,079
already know you're a person that's

1035
00:42:13,910 --> 00:42:11,920
constantly growing that's constantly

1036
00:42:17,109 --> 00:42:13,920
thinking about you know

1037
00:42:18,230 --> 00:42:17,119
different sides and even to go as far as

1038
00:42:20,390 --> 00:42:18,240
okay i

1039
00:42:22,150 --> 00:42:20,400
you know was for trump and now you

1040
00:42:24,150 --> 00:42:22,160
looked more into it i don't i'm curious

1041
00:42:26,230 --> 00:42:24,160
what you found but the point is it shows

1042
00:42:28,390 --> 00:42:26,240
that you're also willing to look into

1043
00:42:30,069 --> 00:42:28,400
several different sides what you found

1044
00:42:32,550 --> 00:42:30,079
what you didn't find it's really not the

1045
00:42:34,390 --> 00:42:32,560
point the point is of your mindset and

1046
00:42:35,910 --> 00:42:34,400
where you are that if you're constantly

1047
00:42:37,510 --> 00:42:35,920
in that searching point of view you're

1048
00:42:40,230 --> 00:42:37,520
always going to see the bigger picture

1049
00:42:42,390 --> 00:42:40,240
in whatever scenario you know and so the

1050
00:42:43,750 --> 00:42:42,400
important part is to just continue being

1051
00:42:46,150 --> 00:42:43,760
who you are because if you're not

1052
00:42:49,430 --> 00:42:46,160
yourself you know there's no one else i

1053
00:42:51,990 --> 00:42:49,440
think a long time ago um

1054
00:42:53,589 --> 00:42:52,000
you know bashar was saying something

1055
00:42:56,230 --> 00:42:53,599
it's been very long time ago so i'm

1056
00:42:58,470 --> 00:42:56,240
really trying to draw it from my very

1057
00:43:01,349 --> 00:42:58,480
very spotty memory today but there was

1058
00:43:03,829 --> 00:43:01,359
something about if if if you're not you

1059
00:43:05,670 --> 00:43:03,839
if you're not you then you know who's

1060
00:43:07,750 --> 00:43:05,680
gonna be you basically kind of like that

1061
00:43:10,470 --> 00:43:07,760
i'm butchering it but basically there's

1062
00:43:13,670 --> 00:43:10,480
only one you thinking and walking and

1063
00:43:15,589 --> 00:43:13,680
talking in the way you do things and the

1064
00:43:17,510 --> 00:43:15,599
the beauty of it is just to continue

1065
00:43:18,950 --> 00:43:17,520
doing that i know it doesn't help when

1066
00:43:21,750 --> 00:43:18,960
you're constantly in that state of

1067
00:43:23,910 --> 00:43:21,760
frustration or anxiety or other things

1068
00:43:25,829 --> 00:43:23,920
but the point is you know to

1069
00:43:27,430 --> 00:43:25,839
try turning off the tv for a while i

1070
00:43:29,190 --> 00:43:27,440
promise you the world will still keep on

1071
00:43:32,870 --> 00:43:29,200
turning you know believe it or not it

1072
00:43:35,430 --> 00:43:32,880
will tv no tv well whatever what i'm

1073
00:43:37,589 --> 00:43:35,440
saying is whatever is is uh riling you

1074
00:43:39,910 --> 00:43:37,599
up you know we're you know riling up in

1075
00:43:41,829 --> 00:43:39,920
those in those senses because i noticed

1076
00:43:43,670 --> 00:43:41,839
certain telegram groups you know were

1077
00:43:45,430 --> 00:43:43,680
doing the same thing to me and i just

1078
00:43:47,589 --> 00:43:45,440
shut them off and i'm like oh i feel

1079
00:43:49,670 --> 00:43:47,599
much better now i look out

1080
00:43:52,870 --> 00:43:49,680
crickets this is your place too you know

1081
00:43:54,710 --> 00:43:52,880
everything is nice and quiet

1082
00:43:57,190 --> 00:43:54,720
say that again

1083
00:43:59,349 --> 00:43:57,200
i do the best i can to i do the best i

1084
00:44:02,390 --> 00:43:59,359
can to filter things on telegram i've

1085
00:44:04,390 --> 00:44:02,400
seen so much bologna on telegram that i

1086
00:44:06,870 --> 00:44:04,400
there is a lot of balloons

1087
00:44:09,190 --> 00:44:06,880
but i mean i'm very picky about what i

1088
00:44:11,190 --> 00:44:09,200
watch and um it's usually just you know

1089
00:44:12,870 --> 00:44:11,200
to research things and i try to verify

1090
00:44:14,150 --> 00:44:12,880
things but you know i

1091
00:44:16,630 --> 00:44:14,160
uh you know

1092
00:44:18,309 --> 00:44:16,640
regardless i think ultimately the reason

1093
00:44:21,190 --> 00:44:18,319
that i i wanted to say something was

1094
00:44:23,990 --> 00:44:21,200
just so i believe like we're already

1095
00:44:25,430 --> 00:44:24,000
we're all ready for truth and answers

1096
00:44:29,430 --> 00:44:25,440
you know i think

1097
00:44:31,270 --> 00:44:29,440
and i i really was hoping the government

1098
00:44:33,510 --> 00:44:31,280
would be a little bit i don't know why i

1099
00:44:35,589 --> 00:44:33,520
was hoping this is silly but i really

1100
00:44:37,430 --> 00:44:35,599
wanted disclosure to happen i really

1101
00:44:38,069 --> 00:44:37,440
wanted something to come out you know

1102
00:44:39,750 --> 00:44:38,079
and

1103
00:44:41,510 --> 00:44:39,760
it's just it's it's coming to the

1104
00:44:43,910 --> 00:44:41,520
realization that they're just never

1105
00:44:46,069 --> 00:44:43,920
going to ever come out with any sort of

1106
00:44:47,349 --> 00:44:46,079
piece of honesty credibility

1107
00:44:49,589 --> 00:44:47,359
you know it's

1108
00:44:51,990 --> 00:44:49,599
it's ridiculous and

1109
00:44:53,750 --> 00:44:52,000
at least you came to that conclusion now

1110
00:44:55,829 --> 00:44:53,760
some people don't even have it in their

1111
00:44:57,510 --> 00:44:55,839
mindset that that's the case they still

1112
00:44:59,829 --> 00:44:57,520
keep looking for those papers and the

1113
00:45:01,190 --> 00:44:59,839
next freedom of information act that if

1114
00:45:03,349 --> 00:45:01,200
they file it they're going to find the

1115
00:45:05,190 --> 00:45:03,359
answers you'll find more answers just

1116
00:45:09,270 --> 00:45:05,200
walking about wherever you are listening

1117
00:45:12,470 --> 00:45:10,950
uh yeah i'm sorry about the crooks i had

1118
00:45:14,390 --> 00:45:12,480
to come back outside because i lost you

1119
00:45:17,349 --> 00:45:14,400
there for a minute no no it's okay i was

1120
00:45:20,230 --> 00:45:17,359
giving you a compliment saying

1121
00:45:23,109 --> 00:45:20,240
you what you're doing and what were as

1122
00:45:25,589 --> 00:45:23,119
other experiences because i know i have

1123
00:45:27,670 --> 00:45:25,599
look i have a amount i will get my word

1124
00:45:28,550 --> 00:45:27,680
out there i'm just in a strange place my

1125
00:45:30,550 --> 00:45:28,560
life

1126
00:45:32,790 --> 00:45:30,560
but you know i will start talking about

1127
00:45:34,630 --> 00:45:32,800
it more no matter who says what about me

1128
00:45:36,390 --> 00:45:34,640
i really don't care it's just it's not

1129
00:45:39,030 --> 00:45:36,400
about that this is about an

1130
00:45:40,470 --> 00:45:39,040
experience that i know is shared there's

1131
00:45:41,990 --> 00:45:40,480
other people out there and we should get

1132
00:45:43,910 --> 00:45:42,000
together and talk about it and i think

1133
00:45:45,670 --> 00:45:43,920
that's going to be a big

1134
00:45:48,309 --> 00:45:45,680
opening for

1135
00:45:49,910 --> 00:45:48,319
for other things

1136
00:45:52,230 --> 00:45:49,920
right

1137
00:45:54,150 --> 00:45:52,240
well if anything you can always you can

1138
00:45:56,550 --> 00:45:54,160
always chime in and listen to

1139
00:45:59,430 --> 00:45:56,560
like-minded individuals and sometimes

1140
00:46:01,670 --> 00:45:59,440
sometimes it helps you know just

1141
00:46:03,670 --> 00:46:01,680
log on to ufo hub and

1142
00:46:05,510 --> 00:46:03,680
you know i'm always here so

1143
00:46:07,349 --> 00:46:05,520
unless unless i have to

1144
00:46:10,470 --> 00:46:07,359
do something else i almost cancelled

1145
00:46:12,150 --> 00:46:10,480
today so i'm glad i didn't

1146
00:46:14,069 --> 00:46:12,160
no i'm glad you didn't too it was good

1147
00:46:16,790 --> 00:46:14,079
to kind of talk about this i feel better

1148
00:46:18,950 --> 00:46:16,800
already but i i felt like i should

1149
00:46:21,990 --> 00:46:18,960
and what's for someone else

1150
00:46:24,870 --> 00:46:22,000
thank you so much for listening you guys

1151
00:46:25,990 --> 00:46:24,880
you know uh phoenix abby i need anytime

1152
00:46:28,550 --> 00:46:26,000
um

1153
00:46:31,510 --> 00:46:28,560
okay she's i guess oh i guess maybe her

1154
00:46:34,069 --> 00:46:31,520
internet spotty too um

1155
00:46:36,230 --> 00:46:34,079
let me you know what uh before i bring

1156
00:46:37,829 --> 00:46:36,240
paulie and paulie had your hand raised

1157
00:46:38,870 --> 00:46:37,839
and then uh crypto i'll bring you in

1158
00:46:40,230 --> 00:46:38,880
next

1159
00:46:42,309 --> 00:46:40,240
you know the reason why i almost

1160
00:46:44,309 --> 00:46:42,319
canceled today because of that power

1161
00:46:46,309 --> 00:46:44,319
outage a while back

1162
00:46:48,150 --> 00:46:46,319
i was doing an interview with with

1163
00:46:50,710 --> 00:46:48,160
sherry wilden was the second part where

1164
00:46:52,309 --> 00:46:50,720
we just did q a and just kind of uh

1165
00:46:54,710 --> 00:46:52,319
going through however many questions and

1166
00:46:56,630 --> 00:46:54,720
answers we could get and about maybe an

1167
00:46:57,990 --> 00:46:56,640
hour and a half into it if my memory

1168
00:47:00,309 --> 00:46:58,000
serves me right

1169
00:47:01,829 --> 00:47:00,319
just everything went dark and i posted a

1170
00:47:03,670 --> 00:47:01,839
video out there

1171
00:47:05,829 --> 00:47:03,680
it's unlisted now but if you go to her

1172
00:47:07,670 --> 00:47:05,839
video i uh re-linked it in the

1173
00:47:09,270 --> 00:47:07,680
description to where i'm basically just

1174
00:47:11,589 --> 00:47:09,280
sitting in the dark with the flashlight

1175
00:47:13,430 --> 00:47:11,599
on saying uh sorry this just happened

1176
00:47:16,309 --> 00:47:13,440
power went out well power went out for

1177
00:47:17,670 --> 00:47:16,319
another four hours so what i did instead

1178
00:47:20,790 --> 00:47:17,680
um

1179
00:47:22,549 --> 00:47:20,800
uh i mean afterwards what i was

1180
00:47:24,870 --> 00:47:22,559
doing is i have this i've had this

1181
00:47:27,109 --> 00:47:24,880
generator for quite a long time

1182
00:47:29,190 --> 00:47:27,119
it's been on my mind to hook it up to

1183
00:47:30,790 --> 00:47:29,200
the house and do all the wiring and all

1184
00:47:32,470 --> 00:47:30,800
that so i finally started in that

1185
00:47:33,430 --> 00:47:32,480
progress and so when i started out with

1186
00:47:35,750 --> 00:47:33,440
one sub

1187
00:47:38,950 --> 00:47:35,760
with one project i really get into it

1188
00:47:40,470 --> 00:47:38,960
until it's done and so that's why i was

1189
00:47:42,069 --> 00:47:40,480
considering even

1190
00:47:43,829 --> 00:47:42,079
you know maybe not having this today

1191
00:47:46,710 --> 00:47:43,839
postponing to just do an interview on

1192
00:47:48,950 --> 00:47:46,720
friday but anyway i decided just kind of

1193
00:47:50,870 --> 00:47:48,960
take it easy i know i'll get to tomorrow

1194
00:47:53,510 --> 00:47:50,880
and the coming up days but basically

1195
00:47:55,109 --> 00:47:53,520
just digging a line to hook up the the

1196
00:47:57,430 --> 00:47:55,119
um

1197
00:47:59,910 --> 00:47:57,440
to the main power line get the generator

1198
00:48:00,790 --> 00:47:59,920
set up figure it out which

1199
00:48:02,630 --> 00:48:00,800
which

1200
00:48:04,829 --> 00:48:02,640
breaker to run in the house and things

1201
00:48:08,549 --> 00:48:04,839
like that

1202
00:48:10,790 --> 00:48:08,559
um let me see here so paulie you are

1203
00:48:12,230 --> 00:48:10,800
unmuted on my end if you mute yourself

1204
00:48:13,910 --> 00:48:12,240
on yours you should be able to talk to

1205
00:48:16,549 --> 00:48:13,920
me

1206
00:48:18,870 --> 00:48:16,559
yeah well i guess phoenix left this is

1207
00:48:20,790 --> 00:48:18,880
actually more of a comment for her

1208
00:48:23,589 --> 00:48:20,800
i hope she's still listening

1209
00:48:25,829 --> 00:48:23,599
but um over the years i've been watching

1210
00:48:28,790 --> 00:48:25,839
documentaries and reading books and what

1211
00:48:30,390 --> 00:48:28,800
she said was really interesting about

1212
00:48:33,270 --> 00:48:30,400
when she was a kid she they look like

1213
00:48:34,470 --> 00:48:33,280
cartoon characters whatever was in her

1214
00:48:35,750 --> 00:48:34,480
um

1215
00:48:38,470 --> 00:48:35,760
bedroom

1216
00:48:41,349 --> 00:48:38,480
and i think i come across two

1217
00:48:43,270 --> 00:48:41,359
people saying the same thing

1218
00:48:45,349 --> 00:48:43,280
and actually i think on um

1219
00:48:48,150 --> 00:48:45,359
i was gonna tell her they're on

1220
00:48:49,190 --> 00:48:48,160
amazon if she has an amazon prime

1221
00:48:50,950 --> 00:48:49,200
account

1222
00:48:53,030 --> 00:48:50,960
one of the free movies you could watch

1223
00:48:54,230 --> 00:48:53,040
is called extraordinary

1224
00:48:56,790 --> 00:48:54,240
and one of the

1225
00:48:58,950 --> 00:48:56,800
interviewees says that

1226
00:49:01,510 --> 00:48:58,960
one of these entities came in the room

1227
00:49:03,910 --> 00:49:01,520
disguising itself like her mother but

1228
00:49:06,230 --> 00:49:03,920
she could tell it wasn't her mother

1229
00:49:07,990 --> 00:49:06,240
and uh i thought she might find that

1230
00:49:09,910 --> 00:49:08,000
interesting to check that out to see

1231
00:49:11,910 --> 00:49:09,920
that other people are there

1232
00:49:13,750 --> 00:49:11,920
well she's definitely she's probably

1233
00:49:16,230 --> 00:49:13,760
listening so whatever you might have to

1234
00:49:17,829 --> 00:49:16,240
say she'll hear you uh can you apolly

1235
00:49:20,309 --> 00:49:17,839
can you please uh just speak up a little

1236
00:49:22,150 --> 00:49:20,319
bit um yeah and

1237
00:49:24,630 --> 00:49:22,160
somewhere all along the line i think i

1238
00:49:27,109 --> 00:49:24,640
either read in a book or saw on a

1239
00:49:28,069 --> 00:49:27,119
documentary someone else claiming

1240
00:49:29,430 --> 00:49:28,079
that

1241
00:49:32,710 --> 00:49:29,440
the same thing happened to them when

1242
00:49:34,390 --> 00:49:32,720
they were a child except it was kind of

1243
00:49:36,470 --> 00:49:34,400
looking like a clown

1244
00:49:38,790 --> 00:49:36,480
it was trying to look like a clown like

1245
00:49:39,829 --> 00:49:38,800
and they interpreted that

1246
00:49:41,829 --> 00:49:39,839
it was

1247
00:49:43,270 --> 00:49:41,839
sorry i got a dog in here okay i was

1248
00:49:47,349 --> 00:49:43,280
gonna say

1249
00:49:49,589 --> 00:49:47,359
yeah maybe yeah maybe the uh entity

1250
00:49:51,349 --> 00:49:49,599
thought was thinking

1251
00:49:53,030 --> 00:49:51,359
because it's a kid

1252
00:49:54,950 --> 00:49:53,040
it would be less

1253
00:49:56,630 --> 00:49:54,960
threatening to look like something kids

1254
00:49:58,710 --> 00:49:56,640
might like but like a clown but the

1255
00:50:01,030 --> 00:49:58,720
person described is really freaking them

1256
00:50:02,390 --> 00:50:01,040
out maybe if phoenix is still listening

1257
00:50:04,710 --> 00:50:02,400
she'd come in it'd be interesting to

1258
00:50:06,710 --> 00:50:04,720
hear more about the cartoon character

1259
00:50:08,549 --> 00:50:06,720
look

1260
00:50:11,190 --> 00:50:08,559
yeah i don't know

1261
00:50:13,109 --> 00:50:11,200
yeah no that's that's a definitely a

1262
00:50:14,069 --> 00:50:13,119
good point plausible point

1263
00:50:17,510 --> 00:50:14,079
because

1264
00:50:19,750 --> 00:50:17,520
children are still children you know um

1265
00:50:21,270 --> 00:50:19,760
uh well it looks like uh did was there

1266
00:50:22,630 --> 00:50:21,280
another question you were going to ask

1267
00:50:25,349 --> 00:50:22,640
of phoenix because it looks like she

1268
00:50:26,950 --> 00:50:25,359
logged back in i just wanted to

1269
00:50:28,790 --> 00:50:26,960
recommend maybe that documentary i think

1270
00:50:31,430 --> 00:50:28,800
it's called extraordinary on prime if

1271
00:50:33,990 --> 00:50:31,440
you have prime it's free just because uh

1272
00:50:35,829 --> 00:50:34,000
it helps if you have unusual experiences

1273
00:50:38,309 --> 00:50:35,839
and you think you're alone to hear other

1274
00:50:39,190 --> 00:50:38,319
people that have similar experiences

1275
00:50:40,630 --> 00:50:39,200
you know

1276
00:50:45,670 --> 00:50:40,640
right

1277
00:50:47,270 --> 00:50:45,680
i'll um meet you again if you want to

1278
00:50:49,349 --> 00:50:47,280
say something else or speak again just

1279
00:50:52,230 --> 00:50:49,359
raise your hand like crypto just did and

1280
00:50:53,670 --> 00:50:52,240
i'll get back to you so however many are

1281
00:50:59,270 --> 00:50:53,680
out there that want to speak will keep

1282
00:51:03,990 --> 00:51:01,990
okay so uh crypto you are

1283
00:51:07,589 --> 00:51:04,000
unmuted or my end

1284
00:51:08,710 --> 00:51:07,599
mute yourself on yours and go ahead

1285
00:51:10,950 --> 00:51:08,720
howdy

1286
00:51:12,390 --> 00:51:10,960
hey how's it going i just uh

1287
00:51:14,150 --> 00:51:12,400
pretty good

1288
00:51:15,589 --> 00:51:14,160
um i'll have dallas to buy its ball in

1289
00:51:17,109 --> 00:51:15,599
no time

1290
00:51:19,589 --> 00:51:17,119
but hey uh

1291
00:51:20,950 --> 00:51:19,599
i just uh she said something really cool

1292
00:51:22,470 --> 00:51:20,960
and it was something that was kind of

1293
00:51:23,910 --> 00:51:22,480
going in my mind

1294
00:51:24,950 --> 00:51:23,920
this week

1295
00:51:26,069 --> 00:51:24,960
um

1296
00:51:28,309 --> 00:51:26,079
how like

1297
00:51:29,510 --> 00:51:28,319
we're taught that um

1298
00:51:32,790 --> 00:51:29,520
you know

1299
00:51:34,309 --> 00:51:32,800
general discomfort we call it anxiety

1300
00:51:36,150 --> 00:51:34,319
but um

1301
00:51:38,710 --> 00:51:36,160
and it just never occurred to me that

1302
00:51:39,829 --> 00:51:38,720
there's uh something else that we can

1303
00:51:41,349 --> 00:51:39,839
detect

1304
00:51:42,870 --> 00:51:41,359
you know it's not just someone staring

1305
00:51:45,670 --> 00:51:42,880
at you behind you you can definitely

1306
00:51:46,470 --> 00:51:45,680
feel that you know i know what that is

1307
00:51:48,390 --> 00:51:46,480
but

1308
00:51:50,390 --> 00:51:48,400
there's a whole new level of like it's

1309
00:51:52,870 --> 00:51:50,400
getting a lot stronger and i don't i

1310
00:51:54,390 --> 00:51:52,880
didn't know i don't know what it was or

1311
00:51:55,750 --> 00:51:54,400
but when i had the but i heard the

1312
00:51:58,470 --> 00:51:55,760
number lady

1313
00:52:00,390 --> 00:51:58,480
you know describe you know something you

1314
00:52:02,470 --> 00:52:00,400
know to the along the lines of you know

1315
00:52:06,549 --> 00:52:02,480
this is a psychic number i'm like not me

1316
00:52:08,470 --> 00:52:06,559
no way i never um no just like no way

1317
00:52:11,190 --> 00:52:08,480
didn't even

1318
00:52:13,510 --> 00:52:11,200
occur to me that uh yeah well maybe you

1319
00:52:15,430 --> 00:52:13,520
know being sensitive is

1320
00:52:17,750 --> 00:52:15,440
uh

1321
00:52:19,589 --> 00:52:17,760
even overly sensitive or and i'm not

1322
00:52:21,589 --> 00:52:19,599
necessarily overreactive but like that's

1323
00:52:23,430 --> 00:52:21,599
something to pay attention to

1324
00:52:25,990 --> 00:52:23,440
and we're told

1325
00:52:28,390 --> 00:52:26,000
we're told to call it anxiety

1326
00:52:31,829 --> 00:52:28,400
and you need some you need you need this

1327
00:52:33,589 --> 00:52:31,839
and you need that for your anxiety

1328
00:52:34,790 --> 00:52:33,599
instead of maybe like you know just

1329
00:52:38,710 --> 00:52:34,800
hearing

1330
00:52:41,750 --> 00:52:38,720
and being open to um like

1331
00:52:43,990 --> 00:52:41,760
the other word for you my anxiety

1332
00:52:45,670 --> 00:52:44,000
and it might be that um i'm taking in a

1333
00:52:48,069 --> 00:52:45,680
lot of information that she was

1334
00:52:50,549 --> 00:52:48,079
describing being touched

1335
00:52:52,630 --> 00:52:50,559
by people and um but it really does feel

1336
00:52:54,069 --> 00:52:52,640
like like i i have trouble sometimes at

1337
00:52:56,790 --> 00:52:54,079
the gym

1338
00:52:59,670 --> 00:52:56,800
um yeah people stare and people look but

1339
00:53:01,349 --> 00:52:59,680
sometimes it's really overwhelming

1340
00:53:04,069 --> 00:53:01,359
and uh

1341
00:53:05,270 --> 00:53:04,079
and just even driving around everything

1342
00:53:07,030 --> 00:53:05,280
and um

1343
00:53:09,510 --> 00:53:07,040
you know

1344
00:53:11,829 --> 00:53:09,520
i'm not i'm fine with being called

1345
00:53:14,950 --> 00:53:11,839
mentally ill if that's what it you know

1346
00:53:16,950 --> 00:53:14,960
but i but i i think the answer is

1347
00:53:19,829 --> 00:53:16,960
i think the answer is way cooler than

1348
00:53:22,470 --> 00:53:19,839
that and if you think about it mentally

1349
00:53:24,470 --> 00:53:22,480
ill people or you know whatever uh

1350
00:53:26,630 --> 00:53:24,480
there's something there you know like i

1351
00:53:28,470 --> 00:53:26,640
heard someone describe you know this

1352
00:53:30,950 --> 00:53:28,480
person on the bus who clearly didn't

1353
00:53:33,829 --> 00:53:30,960
have all his faculties but was mumbling

1354
00:53:35,190 --> 00:53:33,839
and saying stuff with a caring parent

1355
00:53:36,950 --> 00:53:35,200
and that

1356
00:53:38,230 --> 00:53:36,960
and he had he said that he had tuned

1357
00:53:39,190 --> 00:53:38,240
into this

1358
00:53:41,270 --> 00:53:39,200
uh

1359
00:53:44,230 --> 00:53:41,280
individual like

1360
00:53:46,630 --> 00:53:44,240
and he just said he was on fire like

1361
00:53:48,790 --> 00:53:46,640
like he mentally like he was just

1362
00:53:49,589 --> 00:53:48,800
uh on a whole new level that we are not

1363
00:53:53,190 --> 00:53:49,599
at

1364
00:53:55,349 --> 00:53:53,200
much better

1365
00:53:57,510 --> 00:53:55,359
than oh well this person is

1366
00:53:59,030 --> 00:53:57,520
sick and they just need their ritalin or

1367
00:53:59,910 --> 00:53:59,040
they just need this and they just need

1368
00:54:01,270 --> 00:53:59,920
that

1369
00:54:03,750 --> 00:54:01,280
um

1370
00:54:06,069 --> 00:54:03,760
so it's

1371
00:54:08,630 --> 00:54:06,079
you know i don't know about you know

1372
00:54:11,349 --> 00:54:08,640
i i saw a documentary on the indigo kids

1373
00:54:13,670 --> 00:54:11,359
and i just still didn't quite get it

1374
00:54:15,030 --> 00:54:13,680
like it just didn't make any sense

1375
00:54:17,430 --> 00:54:15,040
um

1376
00:54:18,950 --> 00:54:17,440
but like you know whatever works i think

1377
00:54:21,349 --> 00:54:18,960
new terminology

1378
00:54:23,270 --> 00:54:21,359
is is

1379
00:54:26,150 --> 00:54:23,280
it's i've just welcomed it so much when

1380
00:54:28,309 --> 00:54:26,160
i hear um you know

1381
00:54:30,309 --> 00:54:28,319
you know new terminology for the same

1382
00:54:33,430 --> 00:54:30,319
old that we've been hearing

1383
00:54:35,670 --> 00:54:33,440
uh from these psychology people and you

1384
00:54:37,109 --> 00:54:35,680
know a lot of these you know people who

1385
00:54:39,670 --> 00:54:37,119
are trained

1386
00:54:41,030 --> 00:54:39,680
in a certain kind of way to label us and

1387
00:54:43,750 --> 00:54:41,040
classify us

1388
00:54:45,750 --> 00:54:43,760
and you know process us like sausage

1389
00:54:47,510 --> 00:54:45,760
right but um

1390
00:54:49,270 --> 00:54:47,520
the other thing i just wanted to touch

1391
00:54:51,270 --> 00:54:49,280
on and then um you know maybe someone

1392
00:54:52,789 --> 00:54:51,280
else will time someone else but

1393
00:54:55,030 --> 00:54:52,799
something that came up this week uh when

1394
00:54:58,069 --> 00:54:55,040
i heard uh

1395
00:55:00,390 --> 00:54:58,079
that lady last week on friday talk about

1396
00:55:04,069 --> 00:55:01,349
uh

1397
00:55:05,430 --> 00:55:04,079
physics what was it plasma physics yeah

1398
00:55:08,390 --> 00:55:05,440
uh so i

1399
00:55:11,190 --> 00:55:08,400
i put it on my to-do list and i like to

1400
00:55:12,870 --> 00:55:11,200
dive deep and i started building my list

1401
00:55:15,589 --> 00:55:12,880
um

1402
00:55:16,789 --> 00:55:15,599
but it got to me first like i knew like

1403
00:55:19,510 --> 00:55:16,799
i had already

1404
00:55:22,710 --> 00:55:19,520
you know what i mean i set the intention

1405
00:55:23,829 --> 00:55:22,720
and it was a good one like i really you

1406
00:55:25,670 --> 00:55:23,839
know

1407
00:55:28,069 --> 00:55:25,680
that's coming like i knew i just called

1408
00:55:31,109 --> 00:55:28,079
it and i kid you not it didn't take but

1409
00:55:33,349 --> 00:55:31,119
a couple days before my astrology lady

1410
00:55:36,390 --> 00:55:33,359
one of them i followed just

1411
00:55:38,470 --> 00:55:36,400
at the end said so i just needed to let

1412
00:55:40,789 --> 00:55:38,480
you know about this

1413
00:55:44,069 --> 00:55:40,799
i don't know if she's listening to us

1414
00:55:46,549 --> 00:55:44,079
but she's somewhere in europe

1415
00:55:48,950 --> 00:55:46,559
and she said

1416
00:55:50,470 --> 00:55:48,960
but this is basically the essence really

1417
00:55:53,589 --> 00:55:50,480
quick i just wanted to share with you

1418
00:55:56,549 --> 00:55:53,599
guys you know uh plasma physics and she

1419
00:55:58,309 --> 00:55:56,559
just dropped the you know one paragraph

1420
00:56:00,549 --> 00:55:58,319
lesson

1421
00:56:03,270 --> 00:56:00,559
and it just i was just so grateful man

1422
00:56:04,950 --> 00:56:03,280
like you literally just um

1423
00:56:07,510 --> 00:56:04,960
you know

1424
00:56:09,190 --> 00:56:07,520
playing with this power is is

1425
00:56:11,270 --> 00:56:09,200
you know setting your intention getting

1426
00:56:13,349 --> 00:56:11,280
ready for something and it just comes

1427
00:56:15,670 --> 00:56:13,359
right to you uh

1428
00:56:17,670 --> 00:56:15,680
way way faster and way better than i

1429
00:56:20,150 --> 00:56:17,680
could plan it or engineer it

1430
00:56:22,870 --> 00:56:20,160
or make up myself i'm you know what i

1431
00:56:24,390 --> 00:56:22,880
mean so but she said that

1432
00:56:27,589 --> 00:56:24,400
it was

1433
00:56:29,190 --> 00:56:27,599
you think

1434
00:56:30,950 --> 00:56:29,200
something

1435
00:56:33,030 --> 00:56:30,960
and it just got everything turning

1436
00:56:34,789 --> 00:56:33,040
because it was so cool uh i'll get into

1437
00:56:35,829 --> 00:56:34,799
the more science science part of it

1438
00:56:37,829 --> 00:56:35,839
later on

1439
00:56:40,230 --> 00:56:37,839
but she said that um

1440
00:56:43,109 --> 00:56:40,240
like you think of something and uh what

1441
00:56:45,589 --> 00:56:43,119
plasma will do

1442
00:56:47,829 --> 00:56:45,599
it's basically in my opinion or what i

1443
00:56:52,390 --> 00:56:47,839
from what i understand briefly

1444
00:56:53,349 --> 00:56:52,400
is that it's it is the ether okay

1445
00:56:54,390 --> 00:56:53,359
uh

1446
00:56:56,630 --> 00:56:54,400
so this

1447
00:56:59,190 --> 00:56:56,640
so the plasma if you think of something

1448
00:57:01,030 --> 00:56:59,200
the plasma already arranges itself to

1449
00:57:02,710 --> 00:57:01,040
build a skeleton

1450
00:57:05,750 --> 00:57:02,720
of

1451
00:57:07,510 --> 00:57:05,760
something like the the physical

1452
00:57:09,109 --> 00:57:07,520
manifestation of what it is that you're

1453
00:57:11,109 --> 00:57:09,119
thinking

1454
00:57:13,910 --> 00:57:11,119
so you think of it

1455
00:57:16,390 --> 00:57:13,920
you the plasma

1456
00:57:18,789 --> 00:57:16,400
will arrange itself it will create the

1457
00:57:19,670 --> 00:57:18,799
skeleton and then the meat gets put on

1458
00:57:21,349 --> 00:57:19,680
it

1459
00:57:23,109 --> 00:57:21,359
i'm not sure that's where i'm not sure

1460
00:57:25,349 --> 00:57:23,119
but i thought it was really neat because

1461
00:57:27,430 --> 00:57:25,359
it was really close to how dr stephen

1462
00:57:30,470 --> 00:57:27,440
grier described

1463
00:57:31,750 --> 00:57:30,480
the way et's manufacture things

1464
00:57:33,589 --> 00:57:31,760
and he just

1465
00:57:36,230 --> 00:57:33,599
he'll stand and say and this is just

1466
00:57:38,710 --> 00:57:36,240
what they do you know they

1467
00:57:40,470 --> 00:57:38,720
and then it just appears like it's just

1468
00:57:42,789 --> 00:57:40,480
right right where they do it any and

1469
00:57:44,870 --> 00:57:42,799
it's it is technology

1470
00:57:46,789 --> 00:57:44,880
and where you use

1471
00:57:48,549 --> 00:57:46,799
the plasma

1472
00:57:51,750 --> 00:57:48,559
i guess uh

1473
00:57:53,510 --> 00:57:51,760
architecture to you know assemble it

1474
00:57:55,750 --> 00:57:53,520
uh it can conduct electricity that's

1475
00:57:58,069 --> 00:57:55,760
what makes it unique as opposed to a gas

1476
00:58:00,630 --> 00:57:58,079
it's you know one stage up

1477
00:58:01,990 --> 00:58:00,640
and uh so our thoughts are the probably

1478
00:58:03,190 --> 00:58:02,000
the electricity

1479
00:58:04,309 --> 00:58:03,200
the

1480
00:58:06,710 --> 00:58:04,319
uh

1481
00:58:08,950 --> 00:58:06,720
the mass or the

1482
00:58:11,510 --> 00:58:08,960
frame gets set up it's it's

1483
00:58:14,710 --> 00:58:11,520
protons and uh

1484
00:58:16,950 --> 00:58:14,720
electrons that are always in equilibrium

1485
00:58:19,349 --> 00:58:16,960
charge wise but it's

1486
00:58:21,589 --> 00:58:19,359
pretty pretty effing close to

1487
00:58:24,069 --> 00:58:21,599
matter without being matter if i ever

1488
00:58:26,549 --> 00:58:24,079
ever came across it

1489
00:58:28,230 --> 00:58:26,559
and i just thought it was so awesome how

1490
00:58:29,910 --> 00:58:28,240
it does kind of match up with the

1491
00:58:31,349 --> 00:58:29,920
ability to like

1492
00:58:32,470 --> 00:58:31,359
uh you know

1493
00:58:33,990 --> 00:58:32,480
just

1494
00:58:36,630 --> 00:58:34,000
all of a sudden you have your spacesuit

1495
00:58:38,069 --> 00:58:36,640
on and there's no seams it fits your

1496
00:58:41,030 --> 00:58:38,079
body perfectly

1497
00:58:43,430 --> 00:58:41,040
and there's no issue with um you know

1498
00:58:45,030 --> 00:58:43,440
mining or manufacturing digging out

1499
00:58:45,910 --> 00:58:45,040
of the ground like you

1500
00:58:49,510 --> 00:58:45,920
called

1501
00:58:51,750 --> 00:58:49,520
forth

1502
00:58:54,150 --> 00:58:51,760
and that's the manufacturing process so

1503
00:58:56,950 --> 00:58:54,160
i just thought you know just for a quick

1504
00:58:59,030 --> 00:58:56,960
you know just since friday dude um

1505
00:59:01,430 --> 00:58:59,040
you know and and kind of getting ready

1506
00:59:03,510 --> 00:59:01,440
to go that direction i had to get my

1507
00:59:05,589 --> 00:59:03,520
my room ready for reading and some other

1508
00:59:07,510 --> 00:59:05,599
things and i'm super excited about it

1509
00:59:10,230 --> 00:59:07,520
super stoked like i'm really

1510
00:59:11,349 --> 00:59:10,240
getting ready to uh just dive in in a

1511
00:59:12,549 --> 00:59:11,359
wonderful

1512
00:59:14,470 --> 00:59:12,559
atmosphere

1513
00:59:16,630 --> 00:59:14,480
that's fit for this and i just got i

1514
00:59:19,270 --> 00:59:16,640
just got that gift that little

1515
00:59:20,230 --> 00:59:19,280
present of this is a pleasant physique

1516
00:59:21,829 --> 00:59:20,240
from

1517
00:59:24,069 --> 00:59:21,839
my astrology lady who would never talk

1518
00:59:26,950 --> 00:59:24,079
about anything like this and it was just

1519
00:59:28,870 --> 00:59:26,960
added on the end like an easter egg

1520
00:59:30,390 --> 00:59:28,880
and i was just so grateful for that and

1521
00:59:32,470 --> 00:59:30,400
it's just you know so

1522
00:59:34,069 --> 00:59:32,480
this is where i come for inspiration

1523
00:59:36,549 --> 00:59:34,079
this channel

1524
00:59:39,270 --> 00:59:36,559
and i've decided not to talk to anybody

1525
00:59:42,710 --> 00:59:39,280
about ufo hub or bring him

1526
00:59:45,109 --> 00:59:42,720
verbally and just wear my t-shirts

1527
00:59:46,789 --> 00:59:45,119
and they will come they will come to me

1528
00:59:50,069 --> 00:59:46,799
you know it's like

1529
00:59:52,069 --> 00:59:50,079
any other program of attraction you

1530
00:59:55,270 --> 00:59:52,079
just be it and hopefully it

1531
00:59:57,109 --> 00:59:55,280
it will come right to you maybe

1532
00:59:59,430 --> 00:59:57,119
you know exactly what i want will just

1533
01:00:01,349 --> 00:59:59,440
literally come sit in my lap you know

1534
01:00:03,030 --> 01:00:01,359
it's uh uh well first of all thank you

1535
01:00:05,589 --> 01:00:03,040
very much for for doing that and you

1536
01:00:07,270 --> 01:00:05,599
know that is a support on a level that

1537
01:00:09,670 --> 01:00:07,280
you know i don't know what else said it

1538
01:00:11,190 --> 01:00:09,680
and thank you you know but uh what i was

1539
01:00:14,549 --> 01:00:11,200
going to say

1540
01:00:16,309 --> 01:00:14,559
well true because i have um you know

1541
01:00:18,549 --> 01:00:16,319
a while back um

1542
01:00:21,109 --> 01:00:18,559
we were needing a trailer right to get

1543
01:00:22,710 --> 01:00:21,119
all the stuff all the equipment stuff to

1544
01:00:24,950 --> 01:00:22,720
to do this conferences as i was

1545
01:00:29,030 --> 01:00:24,960
mentioning well on that trailer i have

1546
01:00:31,750 --> 01:00:29,040
real real big on it ufo hub and every

1547
01:00:33,589 --> 01:00:31,760
time i stopped the damn truck everybody

1548
01:00:35,750 --> 01:00:33,599
was like you know opening the windows

1549
01:00:38,069 --> 01:00:35,760
honking like what's here for hub i was

1550
01:00:40,390 --> 01:00:38,079
like directing them to youtube or

1551
01:00:41,670 --> 01:00:40,400
whatever or you know and once some of

1552
01:00:44,069 --> 01:00:41,680
them were like really silly you know

1553
01:00:45,030 --> 01:00:44,079
they're you know one um i could see

1554
01:00:47,430 --> 01:00:45,040
they're like

1555
01:00:49,910 --> 01:00:47,440
turning down the you know the the window

1556
01:00:52,390 --> 01:00:49,920
and i said are the aliens landing now

1557
01:00:56,390 --> 01:00:52,400
are they landing right now i was like uh

1558
01:00:58,470 --> 01:00:56,400
no and then turned green i was like bye

1559
01:00:59,589 --> 01:00:58,480
i mean i can't always you know

1560
01:01:01,030 --> 01:00:59,599
i mean i thought they were having a

1561
01:01:03,109 --> 01:01:01,040
serious conversation but it looks like

1562
01:01:04,549 --> 01:01:03,119
he just wanted to be silly but yeah no

1563
01:01:07,030 --> 01:01:04,559
it's like i didn't say anything i just

1564
01:01:09,430 --> 01:01:07,040
drove the trailer to town through town

1565
01:01:11,430 --> 01:01:09,440
and man did that turn heads

1566
01:01:12,870 --> 01:01:11,440
um you know because it's a black trailer

1567
01:01:15,270 --> 01:01:12,880
with the white

1568
01:01:18,309 --> 01:01:15,280
logo and this was before i had the the

1569
01:01:19,910 --> 01:01:18,319
blue circle one so we'll see if i save

1570
01:01:21,910 --> 01:01:19,920
up a little bit on it i might get it

1571
01:01:22,870 --> 01:01:21,920
changed but not i don't think so anytime

1572
01:01:25,829 --> 01:01:22,880
soon

1573
01:01:26,870 --> 01:01:25,839
but you know um it's always it's like uh

1574
01:01:28,630 --> 01:01:26,880
um

1575
01:01:31,349 --> 01:01:28,640
for example like my

1576
01:01:33,109 --> 01:01:31,359
my passion is always said about you know

1577
01:01:35,349 --> 01:01:33,119
aliens and all that some i always found

1578
01:01:36,549 --> 01:01:35,359
a way to talk about that but it wasn't

1579
01:01:38,150 --> 01:01:36,559
like

1580
01:01:39,510 --> 01:01:38,160
pushing people on it you know what i

1581
01:01:41,750 --> 01:01:39,520
mean it's like i would like i was

1582
01:01:44,789 --> 01:01:41,760
telling you know phoenix earlier i can't

1583
01:01:46,870 --> 01:01:44,799
not be anything else but myself right so

1584
01:01:49,829 --> 01:01:46,880
when they talk about you know certain

1585
01:01:51,430 --> 01:01:49,839
things like um um you know

1586
01:01:52,870 --> 01:01:51,440
perfect example right they would talk

1587
01:01:54,950 --> 01:01:52,880
about you know

1588
01:01:57,190 --> 01:01:54,960
military stuff right and they'll just

1589
01:01:58,630 --> 01:01:57,200
happen to talk about um

1590
01:02:00,789 --> 01:01:58,640
about

1591
01:02:03,829 --> 01:02:00,799
which which one does what you know the

1592
01:02:05,190 --> 01:02:03,839
navy has this and you know then the

1593
01:02:06,950 --> 01:02:05,200
military the

1594
01:02:08,630 --> 01:02:06,960
air force says these ships and all this

1595
01:02:10,789 --> 01:02:08,640
other stuff you know and then i would

1596
01:02:13,109 --> 01:02:10,799
just say something about you know well

1597
01:02:14,789 --> 01:02:13,119
if you you know subscribe to such a

1598
01:02:17,109 --> 01:02:14,799
thing and consider some of the alien

1599
01:02:18,710 --> 01:02:17,119
reverse technology that was used on some

1600
01:02:20,710 --> 01:02:18,720
of those i'm really excited to see what

1601
01:02:23,029 --> 01:02:20,720
those you know can do and then they'll

1602
01:02:25,510 --> 01:02:23,039
stop and turn you know and like what are

1603
01:02:27,910 --> 01:02:25,520
you talking about you know and so anyway

1604
01:02:29,430 --> 01:02:27,920
this was like not me pushing it on them

1605
01:02:31,510 --> 01:02:29,440
i thought we were having a conversation

1606
01:02:34,470 --> 01:02:31,520
so them being themselves that me being

1607
01:02:37,029 --> 01:02:34,480
myself i just blurred that out and i

1608
01:02:38,870 --> 01:02:37,039
don't look back or regret anything and i

1609
01:02:40,950 --> 01:02:38,880
think that's like the best way to be you

1610
01:02:42,710 --> 01:02:40,960
know it's like people they're supposed

1611
01:02:45,029 --> 01:02:42,720
to get you are going to get you if they

1612
01:02:46,549 --> 01:02:45,039
don't then i don't know it really is

1613
01:02:48,549 --> 01:02:46,559
true like they're saying goes maybe

1614
01:02:50,950 --> 01:02:48,559
there weren't friends or people you need

1615
01:02:52,390 --> 01:02:50,960
to be around anyway

1616
01:02:55,029 --> 01:02:52,400
well we know

1617
01:02:56,069 --> 01:02:55,039
all of us here all know more than you

1618
01:02:57,670 --> 01:02:56,079
know

1619
01:03:01,029 --> 01:02:57,680
more than anyone

1620
01:03:02,630 --> 01:03:01,039
that uh it's in our genetics bro

1621
01:03:04,630 --> 01:03:02,640
right right

1622
01:03:06,710 --> 01:03:04,640
this is in our genetics this is our

1623
01:03:08,950 --> 01:03:06,720
story and uh

1624
01:03:10,950 --> 01:03:08,960
i feel sad that we have to wait 250

1625
01:03:13,270 --> 01:03:10,960
years to get to level one

1626
01:03:15,270 --> 01:03:13,280
you know or if that's the case but if

1627
01:03:17,270 --> 01:03:15,280
i'm not mistaken we can reject that and

1628
01:03:18,950 --> 01:03:17,280
change that if we if enough of us wanted

1629
01:03:19,910 --> 01:03:18,960
to and did it

1630
01:03:21,990 --> 01:03:19,920
um

1631
01:03:24,150 --> 01:03:22,000
that's my understanding i'm not i'm not

1632
01:03:26,630 --> 01:03:24,160
trying to say you know

1633
01:03:27,789 --> 01:03:26,640
i would love to see it happen i want to

1634
01:03:31,349 --> 01:03:27,799
live to

1635
01:03:33,829 --> 01:03:31,359
120 uh so i can see the skylines

1636
01:03:35,990 --> 01:03:33,839
i just i just don't want to miss it

1637
01:03:37,510 --> 01:03:36,000
and right you know as long as i can it

1638
01:03:39,109 --> 01:03:37,520
just seems so cool

1639
01:03:41,190 --> 01:03:39,119
well live as long as possible you

1640
01:03:43,750 --> 01:03:41,200
touched on something if i may talk about

1641
01:03:45,109 --> 01:03:43,760
this real quick the same thing that um

1642
01:03:47,190 --> 01:03:45,119
lodi baker

1643
01:03:48,789 --> 01:03:47,200
was saying something about uh when they

1644
01:03:50,710 --> 01:03:48,799
when talking about manifestation

1645
01:03:53,349 --> 01:03:50,720
creating your own reality um and the

1646
01:03:55,430 --> 01:03:53,359
shift when can we transcend the current

1647
01:03:57,430 --> 01:03:55,440
oppression of closed-minded controlling

1648
01:03:58,789 --> 01:03:57,440
governments right now it's not exactly

1649
01:04:01,190 --> 01:03:58,799
in relation to what you're talking about

1650
01:04:03,190 --> 01:04:01,200
but we're talking about um you know

1651
01:04:04,549 --> 01:04:03,200
looking forward to right looking forward

1652
01:04:07,829 --> 01:04:04,559
to a different change something

1653
01:04:10,230 --> 01:04:07,839
different um if i may you know i try not

1654
01:04:11,990 --> 01:04:10,240
to interject too much of myself but

1655
01:04:14,549 --> 01:04:12,000
you know i feel like i have to just kind

1656
01:04:17,190 --> 01:04:14,559
of touch on this experience so as some

1657
01:04:19,430 --> 01:04:17,200
of you know obviously i grew up in or

1658
01:04:23,029 --> 01:04:19,440
was born in bosnia at age of eight the

1659
01:04:25,589 --> 01:04:23,039
war broke out then we fled um long story

1660
01:04:30,950 --> 01:04:25,599
short ended up in germany uh lived there

1661
01:04:34,710 --> 01:04:30,960
from 92 to 96 of 1986 um 98 and then

1662
01:04:36,069 --> 01:04:34,720
from 98 came to to the united states

1663
01:04:37,190 --> 01:04:36,079
my whole

1664
01:04:38,789 --> 01:04:37,200
whole life

1665
01:04:40,710 --> 01:04:38,799
constantly you know

1666
01:04:42,230 --> 01:04:40,720
phoenix asked me earlier about the 80s

1667
01:04:43,349 --> 01:04:42,240
tvs well

1668
01:04:46,390 --> 01:04:43,359
our tv

1669
01:04:48,870 --> 01:04:46,400
was the the socialist communist version

1670
01:04:51,270 --> 01:04:48,880
of what yugoslavia had of a tv so it

1671
01:04:53,109 --> 01:04:51,280
wasn't exactly the same representation

1672
01:04:54,390 --> 01:04:53,119
of what people had in

1673
01:04:57,589 --> 01:04:54,400
the united states

1674
01:04:59,430 --> 01:04:57,599
we used wood stove and i you know i

1675
01:05:01,589 --> 01:04:59,440
didn't realize that there was anything

1676
01:05:03,750 --> 01:05:01,599
else that can be used other than that i

1677
01:05:05,910 --> 01:05:03,760
thought you go outside you chop up some

1678
01:05:07,990 --> 01:05:05,920
wood that's what you use when we came to

1679
01:05:10,309 --> 01:05:08,000
germany i truly thought we were in this

1680
01:05:12,230 --> 01:05:10,319
magical land because i kept looking

1681
01:05:14,789 --> 01:05:12,240
under the electric stove like what what

1682
01:05:16,150 --> 01:05:14,799
is the wood go and my parents knew about

1683
01:05:17,750 --> 01:05:16,160
this you know but they were trying to

1684
01:05:19,670 --> 01:05:17,760
explain to me doesn't use what is

1685
01:05:21,349 --> 01:05:19,680
electricity so i was like there's no

1686
01:05:23,109 --> 01:05:21,359
fire and that was my first experience

1687
01:05:24,549 --> 01:05:23,119
with touching i had stove in that way

1688
01:05:26,789 --> 01:05:24,559
because i knew and the other one yeah

1689
01:05:29,430 --> 01:05:26,799
there's a fire the plate gets hot don't

1690
01:05:32,230 --> 01:05:29,440
touch it well

1691
01:05:35,349 --> 01:05:32,240
living the way we lived it was always

1692
01:05:38,309 --> 01:05:35,359
try to make do with whatever i had if i

1693
01:05:40,309 --> 01:05:38,319
couldn't then i just had to go without

1694
01:05:42,470 --> 01:05:40,319
um then eventually we came to united

1695
01:05:44,230 --> 01:05:42,480
states and then you know very similar

1696
01:05:46,950 --> 01:05:44,240
process to we're like wow you know it's

1697
01:05:49,270 --> 01:05:46,960
like you work hard you get what you want

1698
01:05:51,109 --> 01:05:49,280
you you know if you can be trusted the

1699
01:05:53,430 --> 01:05:51,119
banks you know

1700
01:05:55,109 --> 01:05:53,440
say oh you have a job here's some money

1701
01:05:57,270 --> 01:05:55,119
go buy yourself a card the next thing

1702
01:05:58,950 --> 01:05:57,280
you know being hard workers you know we

1703
01:06:00,710 --> 01:05:58,960
had we were able to buy a house

1704
01:06:02,950 --> 01:06:00,720
obviously paying mortgage on it but we

1705
01:06:05,750 --> 01:06:02,960
will get it same thing with cars you

1706
01:06:07,510 --> 01:06:05,760
know and in san luis the americans

1707
01:06:08,870 --> 01:06:07,520
initially they were getting

1708
01:06:10,870 --> 01:06:08,880
a little bit mad because there was this

1709
01:06:13,910 --> 01:06:10,880
conversation i was going well into from

1710
01:06:15,670 --> 01:06:13,920
like 1998 into 2002 about you know what

1711
01:06:16,950 --> 01:06:15,680
is the government giving these bosnians

1712
01:06:18,630 --> 01:06:16,960
you know it's like all these kids are

1713
01:06:20,390 --> 01:06:18,640
driving brand new cars

1714
01:06:21,910 --> 01:06:20,400
you know and it's at that time it's like

1715
01:06:24,789 --> 01:06:21,920
i don't know why nobody wanted to touch

1716
01:06:27,190 --> 01:06:24,799
on this it's like brother it's all loans

1717
01:06:28,950 --> 01:06:27,200
you know nobody has given anything

1718
01:06:31,430 --> 01:06:28,960
whatever they have is they have to pay

1719
01:06:33,430 --> 01:06:31,440
it back it's just that america makes it

1720
01:06:35,349 --> 01:06:33,440
convenient to be able to get a loan in

1721
01:06:37,750 --> 01:06:35,359
other country you have to give up your

1722
01:06:39,190 --> 01:06:37,760
first child what i'm sure anyway there's

1723
01:06:40,870 --> 01:06:39,200
a point where i'm trying to get at this

1724
01:06:42,710 --> 01:06:40,880
i'm trying to build a story for those

1725
01:06:46,069 --> 01:06:42,720
that might not understand or know you

1726
01:06:48,230 --> 01:06:46,079
know might come from the whole idea was

1727
01:06:49,190 --> 01:06:48,240
where i live now and with my wife and

1728
01:06:52,789 --> 01:06:49,200
children

1729
01:06:53,829 --> 01:06:52,799
in the past three or four years more so

1730
01:06:56,549 --> 01:06:53,839
it was

1731
01:06:58,470 --> 01:06:56,559
we literally were would talk and and

1732
01:07:01,510 --> 01:06:58,480
would literally just sit

1733
01:07:03,270 --> 01:07:01,520
at the porch and just relax and just

1734
01:07:05,990 --> 01:07:03,280
take in and say

1735
01:07:09,270 --> 01:07:06,000
look at the heaven that i'm in right now

1736
01:07:12,230 --> 01:07:09,280
what i'm the point is i'm in america

1737
01:07:14,309 --> 01:07:12,240
was able to get and buy my own land in

1738
01:07:16,069 --> 01:07:14,319
the house and we're sitting in the

1739
01:07:18,470 --> 01:07:16,079
middle of the woods with no one else

1740
01:07:20,950 --> 01:07:18,480
around and just calm

1741
01:07:23,670 --> 01:07:20,960
you know and it was important to just

1742
01:07:26,470 --> 01:07:23,680
stop and appreciate what we have in that

1743
01:07:29,270 --> 01:07:26,480
moment where we are at in that moment

1744
01:07:31,029 --> 01:07:29,280
because the mind always goes okay what's

1745
01:07:32,309 --> 01:07:31,039
next what's next i gotta go to work i

1746
01:07:33,990 --> 01:07:32,319
have to do this you know do i have

1747
01:07:35,349 --> 01:07:34,000
enough money do i did i pay the bills

1748
01:07:37,029 --> 01:07:35,359
okay do i have to pay this then i can

1749
01:07:39,109 --> 01:07:37,039
save for this do i you know do i want to

1750
01:07:41,589 --> 01:07:39,119
go to movies can i go you know the mind

1751
01:07:43,589 --> 01:07:41,599
will never stop and it was just this

1752
01:07:45,829 --> 01:07:43,599
feeling there was no words you know it

1753
01:07:47,349 --> 01:07:45,839
was just simply feeling and it was i

1754
01:07:49,349 --> 01:07:47,359
wouldn't i wouldn't you know i would

1755
01:07:51,910 --> 01:07:49,359
even go as far as calling it a

1756
01:07:52,870 --> 01:07:51,920
metaphysical supernatural experience to

1757
01:07:53,829 --> 01:07:52,880
where

1758
01:07:56,470 --> 01:07:53,839
you know

1759
01:07:57,510 --> 01:07:56,480
we just sat there and we were just happy

1760
01:07:59,589 --> 01:07:57,520
to be

1761
01:08:01,510 --> 01:07:59,599
you know with all the world's worries

1762
01:08:04,549 --> 01:08:01,520
that would there would always be worries

1763
01:08:06,549 --> 01:08:04,559
because the point is those worries

1764
01:08:08,870 --> 01:08:06,559
will always transform and continue

1765
01:08:10,710 --> 01:08:08,880
themselves until the day you die and so

1766
01:08:13,190 --> 01:08:10,720
you will always find something to worry

1767
01:08:15,829 --> 01:08:13,200
about you know but we never stop to turn

1768
01:08:18,229 --> 01:08:15,839
it the other way around and just say

1769
01:08:19,990 --> 01:08:18,239
i'm just happy with whatever i have here

1770
01:08:22,309 --> 01:08:20,000
you know i may not you know become a

1771
01:08:24,550 --> 01:08:22,319
millionaire i may not you know know

1772
01:08:26,229 --> 01:08:24,560
where the next meal you'll be coming

1773
01:08:28,470 --> 01:08:26,239
from you know i'm speaking from

1774
01:08:30,390 --> 01:08:28,480
different perspectives you know and and

1775
01:08:31,189 --> 01:08:30,400
there could be a million things to worry

1776
01:08:34,709 --> 01:08:31,199
about

1777
01:08:37,030 --> 01:08:34,719
why not cut all that stuff out and just

1778
01:08:39,669 --> 01:08:37,040
you know enjoy life for you where you

1779
01:08:41,669 --> 01:08:39,679
are you know and it's most

1780
01:08:45,189 --> 01:08:41,679
more ways than one i'm more happy that i

1781
01:08:48,070 --> 01:08:45,199
was had more of a childlike mind

1782
01:08:49,910 --> 01:08:48,080
during the war because then if i had to

1783
01:08:51,749 --> 01:08:49,920
worry about what my parents worried

1784
01:08:54,630 --> 01:08:51,759
about i think i would have turned out

1785
01:08:57,269 --> 01:08:54,640
differently you know but although i had

1786
01:08:59,189 --> 01:08:57,279
fears and and i was worried you know you

1787
01:09:01,110 --> 01:08:59,199
know somebody's coming to get you and

1788
01:09:03,990 --> 01:09:01,120
they will kill you if they find you so

1789
01:09:05,749 --> 01:09:04,000
hide and go here and go there and run

1790
01:09:08,149 --> 01:09:05,759
and and whatever you know whatever it

1791
01:09:10,470 --> 01:09:08,159
was needed to do you know and the point

1792
01:09:12,789 --> 01:09:10,480
is that started in my life very very

1793
01:09:14,229 --> 01:09:12,799
early right and you you're kind of

1794
01:09:16,309 --> 01:09:14,239
stressed in that way and then it

1795
01:09:18,309 --> 01:09:16,319
continues you know then you get to

1796
01:09:20,229 --> 01:09:18,319
germany in a new culture try to speak to

1797
01:09:23,510 --> 01:09:20,239
people then they put us in this you know

1798
01:09:25,510 --> 01:09:23,520
basically of a ghetto um it's called

1799
01:09:27,110 --> 01:09:25,520
in german they call it auslander heim

1800
01:09:28,789 --> 01:09:27,120
and it's basically a

1801
01:09:31,030 --> 01:09:28,799
place where they just they didn't know

1802
01:09:34,229 --> 01:09:31,040
what to do with this large influx and of

1803
01:09:35,910 --> 01:09:34,239
refugees so they put us all in one place

1804
01:09:37,990 --> 01:09:35,920
but there's like 50 different nations

1805
01:09:39,269 --> 01:09:38,000
with 50 different languages and cultures

1806
01:09:41,990 --> 01:09:39,279
you know how do you think that's going

1807
01:09:44,229 --> 01:09:42,000
to work out so you know we had you know

1808
01:09:46,550 --> 01:09:44,239
we had basically in that floor that they

1809
01:09:49,189 --> 01:09:46,560
gave us um they were supposed to be one

1810
01:09:51,189 --> 01:09:49,199
apartment right but they basically broke

1811
01:09:54,149 --> 01:09:51,199
up every bedroom and so

1812
01:09:56,149 --> 01:09:54,159
they gave one bedroom uh to us

1813
01:09:58,709 --> 01:09:56,159
and then um you know the other neighbors

1814
01:10:01,189 --> 01:09:58,719
and so on so on one floor we had about

1815
01:10:03,430 --> 01:10:01,199
four families one we were from bosnia

1816
01:10:05,830 --> 01:10:03,440
then of course were croatia which not

1817
01:10:08,229 --> 01:10:05,840
that dissimilar from each other you know

1818
01:10:11,350 --> 01:10:08,239
croatian and then armenian and uh

1819
01:10:13,990 --> 01:10:11,360
russian you know and so we shared a

1820
01:10:17,430 --> 01:10:14,000
kitchen and one bathroom for you know

1821
01:10:20,310 --> 01:10:17,440
years of basically four families or four

1822
01:10:22,950 --> 01:10:20,320
right but never thought to mind because

1823
01:10:25,030 --> 01:10:22,960
compared to ward this was heaven right

1824
01:10:27,830 --> 01:10:25,040
but we never you know though what i'm

1825
01:10:30,709 --> 01:10:27,840
saying is those were all worrisome you

1826
01:10:32,470 --> 01:10:30,719
know states that i could drag with me to

1827
01:10:34,870 --> 01:10:32,480
this day and just feel like oh my god i

1828
01:10:37,110 --> 01:10:34,880
didn't get this because of that and and

1829
01:10:39,110 --> 01:10:37,120
constantly you know be worried and now

1830
01:10:41,030 --> 01:10:39,120
looking at governments i mean i was set

1831
01:10:43,430 --> 01:10:41,040
in a country that basically entirely

1832
01:10:46,229 --> 01:10:43,440
broke down it doesn't exist anymore

1833
01:10:48,149 --> 01:10:46,239
yugoslavia used to be on a map it's not

1834
01:10:50,390 --> 01:10:48,159
there anymore there's just the the

1835
01:10:53,830 --> 01:10:50,400
landmarks of separate countries you know

1836
01:10:55,830 --> 01:10:53,840
and so but the people continued and so

1837
01:10:57,350 --> 01:10:55,840
you know i'm hoping and and i'm not

1838
01:10:59,110 --> 01:10:57,360
saying the united states for example

1839
01:11:01,030 --> 01:10:59,120
will break apart but

1840
01:11:04,070 --> 01:11:01,040
the point is that there will be life

1841
01:11:05,030 --> 01:11:04,080
after so you can try to just

1842
01:11:06,790 --> 01:11:05,040
um

1843
01:11:08,630 --> 01:11:06,800
just be at peace where you are it

1844
01:11:10,550 --> 01:11:08,640
doesn't mean that okay fine you don't

1845
01:11:11,990 --> 01:11:10,560
want to forget about your world problems

1846
01:11:14,149 --> 01:11:12,000
that you know i understand because some

1847
01:11:16,709 --> 01:11:14,159
people think that if i'm worried if i'm

1848
01:11:17,750 --> 01:11:16,719
on top of it i will then prevent a

1849
01:11:19,830 --> 01:11:17,760
danger

1850
01:11:22,709 --> 01:11:19,840
that i perfectly understand but the

1851
01:11:24,709 --> 01:11:22,719
point is there will always always always

1852
01:11:26,149 --> 01:11:24,719
be a danger there will always be

1853
01:11:29,110 --> 01:11:26,159
something for you to worry about and

1854
01:11:31,590 --> 01:11:29,120
that will never stop until you tell

1855
01:11:32,790 --> 01:11:31,600
yourself i am happy where i'm at you

1856
01:11:34,550 --> 01:11:32,800
know it's like constantly looking for

1857
01:11:36,390 --> 01:11:34,560
another job all these other things and

1858
01:11:38,310 --> 01:11:36,400
i'm you know my wife and i were sitting

1859
01:11:40,950 --> 01:11:38,320
there in that peaceful state and we're

1860
01:11:42,550 --> 01:11:40,960
like you know we may not be rich but

1861
01:11:44,310 --> 01:11:42,560
this is my heaven

1862
01:11:46,149 --> 01:11:44,320
you know sitting here being here with

1863
01:11:48,070 --> 01:11:46,159
you and just watching our children being

1864
01:11:49,750 --> 01:11:48,080
able to do what they're doing

1865
01:11:52,070 --> 01:11:49,760
this is a far

1866
01:11:52,870 --> 01:11:52,080
cry from where i came from you know and

1867
01:11:54,790 --> 01:11:52,880
so

1868
01:11:57,590 --> 01:11:54,800
you have to just kind of realize and

1869
01:12:00,390 --> 01:11:57,600
stop and recognize the blessings that

1870
01:12:02,950 --> 01:12:00,400
you have you know and really just be it

1871
01:12:04,790 --> 01:12:02,960
let it be okay instead of always just

1872
01:12:06,550 --> 01:12:04,800
you know letting worry take over your

1873
01:12:08,870 --> 01:12:06,560
life you know

1874
01:12:11,590 --> 01:12:08,880
you always have choices you know and the

1875
01:12:13,910 --> 01:12:11,600
choice can either be to stop thinking

1876
01:12:16,630 --> 01:12:13,920
for just five seconds to allow yourself

1877
01:12:18,950 --> 01:12:16,640
that peace you know or you just keep on

1878
01:12:21,910 --> 01:12:18,960
running like that rat on the or mouse on

1879
01:12:25,750 --> 01:12:21,920
the wheel and until you just croak one

1880
01:12:29,590 --> 01:12:25,760
day and die so anyway so as an answer

1881
01:12:31,030 --> 01:12:29,600
to uh lodi about changes and government

1882
01:12:35,910 --> 01:12:31,040
controlling

1883
01:12:38,470 --> 01:12:35,920
you know but the point is like right now

1884
01:12:40,229 --> 01:12:38,480
where i'm at um

1885
01:12:41,830 --> 01:12:40,239
i never expected to

1886
01:12:43,189 --> 01:12:41,840
end up eventually in arkansas it was

1887
01:12:45,590 --> 01:12:43,199
never

1888
01:12:47,830 --> 01:12:45,600
you know anything i thought about in

1889
01:12:49,990 --> 01:12:47,840
2010 when i initially

1890
01:12:52,229 --> 01:12:50,000
moved out and bought my own house and

1891
01:12:54,550 --> 01:12:52,239
had all those you know experiences that

1892
01:12:56,070 --> 01:12:54,560
i've shared in the past i thought that

1893
01:12:58,229 --> 01:12:56,080
was the house that i will live in

1894
01:12:59,750 --> 01:12:58,239
forever and possibly just live there and

1895
01:13:02,709 --> 01:12:59,760
die you know this was in robertsville

1896
01:13:05,189 --> 01:13:02,719
missouri and this i thought that was my

1897
01:13:06,870 --> 01:13:05,199
life only after about five years when i

1898
01:13:08,070 --> 01:13:06,880
concluded all the things that i was

1899
01:13:11,910 --> 01:13:08,080
experiencing

1900
01:13:13,430 --> 01:13:11,920
um my life changed for 180 to where went

1901
01:13:15,910 --> 01:13:13,440
from single

1902
01:13:16,870 --> 01:13:15,920
being by myself to where it changed over

1903
01:13:18,630 --> 01:13:16,880
to

1904
01:13:21,590 --> 01:13:18,640
family children

1905
01:13:22,870 --> 01:13:21,600
you know new job new location everything

1906
01:13:24,390 --> 01:13:22,880
and so

1907
01:13:27,430 --> 01:13:24,400
the whole point was

1908
01:13:29,750 --> 01:13:27,440
you know i could try to hold on to that

1909
01:13:32,070 --> 01:13:29,760
life in robertsville but it served this

1910
01:13:33,750 --> 01:13:32,080
purpose and i had to move on no matter

1911
01:13:36,149 --> 01:13:33,760
how much i loved it no matter how much

1912
01:13:38,390 --> 01:13:36,159
sadness i may still have so i'm not

1913
01:13:40,470 --> 01:13:38,400
saying that i want to united states to

1914
01:13:42,630 --> 01:13:40,480
break up by any means you know i love

1915
01:13:45,270 --> 01:13:42,640
this country as much as every other

1916
01:13:47,590 --> 01:13:45,280
patriot but all i'm saying is that you

1917
01:13:50,070 --> 01:13:47,600
know at the same time if something needs

1918
01:13:51,910 --> 01:13:50,080
to change however drastically we just

1919
01:13:53,750 --> 01:13:51,920
have to allow it you know allow it to

1920
01:13:55,910 --> 01:13:53,760
change but the point here is by

1921
01:13:58,790 --> 01:13:55,920
following my highest excitement

1922
01:14:01,430 --> 01:13:58,800
i've moved right and basically to be

1923
01:14:04,310 --> 01:14:01,440
with the love of my life and what

1924
01:14:06,790 --> 01:14:04,320
resulted because of that is that now i

1925
01:14:08,790 --> 01:14:06,800
was in a state that never locked down i

1926
01:14:10,870 --> 01:14:08,800
was in a state that wasn't strict on

1927
01:14:13,189 --> 01:14:10,880
mass or anything like that or any of

1928
01:14:15,590 --> 01:14:13,199
these other mandates and we basically

1929
01:14:17,830 --> 01:14:15,600
just continue living our of our life

1930
01:14:20,870 --> 01:14:17,840
from this beautiful heaven where i'm at

1931
01:14:24,470 --> 01:14:20,880
as we just kept seeing things on tv of

1932
01:14:27,030 --> 01:14:24,480
lockdowns and burning buildings and pro

1933
01:14:28,550 --> 01:14:27,040
i can't call them protests their riots

1934
01:14:30,149 --> 01:14:28,560
you know and all the things that went on

1935
01:14:33,189 --> 01:14:30,159
in portland and new york and all these

1936
01:14:35,189 --> 01:14:33,199
other places but the point was is that i

1937
01:14:38,950 --> 01:14:35,199
put myself by following my highest

1938
01:14:42,070 --> 01:14:38,960
excitement in a position to where i

1939
01:14:44,790 --> 01:14:42,080
only looked upon it and it didn't it

1940
01:14:46,550 --> 01:14:44,800
didn't affect my life i could have been

1941
01:14:47,830 --> 01:14:46,560
the person that said that i have to get

1942
01:14:49,990 --> 01:14:47,840
on top of this and then i would have

1943
01:14:53,430 --> 01:14:50,000
been like that you know mouse on the

1944
01:14:56,630 --> 01:14:53,440
wheel to where now i would have made um

1945
01:14:58,870 --> 01:14:56,640
a protest my issue i would have made a

1946
01:15:01,270 --> 01:14:58,880
a lock down my issue or some kind of

1947
01:15:03,110 --> 01:15:01,280
other restriction but it didn't touch me

1948
01:15:05,590 --> 01:15:03,120
it didn't touch me because i chose not

1949
01:15:08,310 --> 01:15:05,600
to live live it and i can't say that i

1950
01:15:10,550 --> 01:15:08,320
knew it at that time but i trusted as i

1951
01:15:12,630 --> 01:15:10,560
was telling hazel before i trusted that

1952
01:15:15,189 --> 01:15:12,640
if i truly follow my highest excitement

1953
01:15:17,189 --> 01:15:15,199
the next thing you know whatever it may

1954
01:15:19,669 --> 01:15:17,199
be to just

1955
01:15:21,830 --> 01:15:19,679
do that or other much it's fun to until

1956
01:15:23,669 --> 01:15:21,840
that you know loses its interest and

1957
01:15:25,510 --> 01:15:23,679
i'll move on to something else but to

1958
01:15:27,189 --> 01:15:25,520
never think that

1959
01:15:28,870 --> 01:15:27,199
i have to figure out where i have to be

1960
01:15:31,030 --> 01:15:28,880
like people often ask

1961
01:15:32,630 --> 01:15:31,040
is is this place okay i mean i asked i

1962
01:15:35,510 --> 01:15:32,640
asked benny jokingly too when she was

1963
01:15:37,030 --> 01:15:35,520
talking about areas of safe areas and

1964
01:15:39,510 --> 01:15:37,040
all these other things i was asking is

1965
01:15:41,270 --> 01:15:39,520
arkansas safe there was more erectile to

1966
01:15:43,990 --> 01:15:41,280
a question it wasn't out of fear or

1967
01:15:45,030 --> 01:15:44,000
anything like that i simply just right

1968
01:15:50,709 --> 01:15:45,040
you know

1969
01:15:52,149 --> 01:15:50,719
here but not there should i be here

1970
01:15:54,470 --> 01:15:52,159
should i go there should i provide my

1971
01:15:58,070 --> 01:15:54,480
own water can i get some food it's like

1972
01:16:00,229 --> 01:15:58,080
just try to get out of that mindset of

1973
01:16:02,390 --> 01:16:00,239
you know for example like this generator

1974
01:16:04,870 --> 01:16:02,400
that i'm going to install and then use

1975
01:16:07,110 --> 01:16:04,880
if power ever goes out it's one because

1976
01:16:09,590 --> 01:16:07,120
i've had it and two i had bought it

1977
01:16:11,830 --> 01:16:09,600
years ago that for some reason wherever

1978
01:16:14,229 --> 01:16:11,840
i moved it i just felt like i should

1979
01:16:16,470 --> 01:16:14,239
keep it and i kept moving from place to

1980
01:16:19,030 --> 01:16:16,480
place thinking i'll just take it with me

1981
01:16:21,110 --> 01:16:19,040
to literally now end up using it and be

1982
01:16:23,590 --> 01:16:21,120
a very vital point or it's going to be a

1983
01:16:25,830 --> 01:16:23,600
very vital part in you know in my

1984
01:16:27,910 --> 01:16:25,840
family's life to where when power goes

1985
01:16:30,550 --> 01:16:27,920
out we'll be able to power pretty much

1986
01:16:32,709 --> 01:16:30,560
the entire house off of it right but at

1987
01:16:35,350 --> 01:16:32,719
that time that feeling i didn't know

1988
01:16:36,950 --> 01:16:35,360
that it meant keep it because 15 years

1989
01:16:38,870 --> 01:16:36,960
from now you're going to be needing it

1990
01:16:40,709 --> 01:16:38,880
for your family you know when i moved

1991
01:16:42,790 --> 01:16:40,719
again that feeling i said keep it i

1992
01:16:44,550 --> 01:16:42,800
didn't know that it meant 10 years from

1993
01:16:47,189 --> 01:16:44,560
now keep it because it's going to be

1994
01:16:48,870 --> 01:16:47,199
beneficial to your family the point was

1995
01:16:51,110 --> 01:16:48,880
i just had a feeling and just

1996
01:16:52,870 --> 01:16:51,120
surrendered and trusted that okay i'll

1997
01:16:55,030 --> 01:16:52,880
go with it i'll keep it and just

1998
01:16:57,030 --> 01:16:55,040
whatever happens happens and that is i

1999
01:16:59,750 --> 01:16:57,040
find the hardest part for people to do

2000
01:17:02,149 --> 01:16:59,760
because they feel like if the ego is not

2001
01:17:04,709 --> 01:17:02,159
in control if you don't have the answers

2002
01:17:06,870 --> 01:17:04,719
100 percent all laid out to where you

2003
01:17:08,790 --> 01:17:06,880
can see how the path is going to work

2004
01:17:10,550 --> 01:17:08,800
out for you they just freak out and

2005
01:17:14,790 --> 01:17:10,560
don't accept anything else they just

2006
01:17:17,430 --> 01:17:14,800
cannot relax you know it's um

2007
01:17:18,790 --> 01:17:17,440
that basically that boils down to that

2008
01:17:20,310 --> 01:17:18,800
you know to

2009
01:17:22,790 --> 01:17:20,320
whatever you may be happy and whatever

2010
01:17:25,189 --> 01:17:22,800
may be concerned about just just really

2011
01:17:27,110 --> 01:17:25,199
learn to just let go for your own

2012
01:17:28,870 --> 01:17:27,120
health's sake and then the answers will

2013
01:17:30,950 --> 01:17:28,880
come to you in forms of feelings that

2014
01:17:33,510 --> 01:17:30,960
are a lot more relaxing it's a lot more

2015
01:17:35,590 --> 01:17:33,520
relaxing if you just have a feeling like

2016
01:17:37,510 --> 01:17:35,600
i should turn left here instead of right

2017
01:17:39,750 --> 01:17:37,520
right it's a lot easier to just take on

2018
01:17:41,590 --> 01:17:39,760
those feelings when you relax and

2019
01:17:43,510 --> 01:17:41,600
there's no panic for anything is as

2020
01:17:45,669 --> 01:17:43,520
opposed to somebody on tv saying you

2021
01:17:47,669 --> 01:17:45,679
take this direction you take it now you

2022
01:17:49,030 --> 01:17:47,679
go this way otherwise if you go the

2023
01:17:51,110 --> 01:17:49,040
other way this is going to be the end

2024
01:17:52,709 --> 01:17:51,120
for you you know there's a huge

2025
01:17:54,950 --> 01:17:52,719
difference right

2026
01:17:57,030 --> 01:17:54,960
being told and being scared and feared

2027
01:17:58,390 --> 01:17:57,040
into doing something as opposed to

2028
01:18:00,550 --> 01:17:58,400
shutting all that off

2029
01:18:03,110 --> 01:18:00,560
and just following that that

2030
01:18:05,270 --> 01:18:03,120
inner inner guidance that you have so

2031
01:18:07,510 --> 01:18:05,280
anyway that's that's all i wanted to say

2032
01:18:09,189 --> 01:18:07,520
regarding that

2033
01:18:11,189 --> 01:18:09,199
humans love to

2034
01:18:12,950 --> 01:18:11,199
you know get in their own way but the

2035
01:18:14,870 --> 01:18:12,960
part of us that um

2036
01:18:17,590 --> 01:18:14,880
i think

2037
01:18:19,270 --> 01:18:17,600
the the part that nobody wants to nobody

2038
01:18:21,830 --> 01:18:19,280
is really a lot of people aren't aware

2039
01:18:23,750 --> 01:18:21,840
of i think most of us here are though

2040
01:18:25,590 --> 01:18:23,760
the part of us that um

2041
01:18:28,149 --> 01:18:25,600
you know

2042
01:18:30,070 --> 01:18:28,159
separates us from the animals i guess

2043
01:18:32,790 --> 01:18:30,080
it is

2044
01:18:35,350 --> 01:18:32,800
the ability to like just change exactly

2045
01:18:37,669 --> 01:18:35,360
how you feel pretty much instantly with

2046
01:18:40,870 --> 01:18:37,679
just your thoughts

2047
01:18:43,669 --> 01:18:40,880
and uh so like we're literally creating

2048
01:18:46,390 --> 01:18:43,679
our reality uh if you want to use matrix

2049
01:18:48,149 --> 01:18:46,400
matrix terms you're you're bending the

2050
01:18:49,990 --> 01:18:48,159
the matrix you're

2051
01:18:51,110 --> 01:18:50,000
you're literally creating a hologram in

2052
01:18:52,830 --> 01:18:51,120
front of you

2053
01:18:55,750 --> 01:18:52,840
uh of what you're

2054
01:18:57,350 --> 01:18:55,760
thinking uh that's how powerful our

2055
01:19:00,229 --> 01:18:57,360
brains are

2056
01:19:02,790 --> 01:19:00,239
and uh so if like my mother is a worry

2057
01:19:04,470 --> 01:19:02,800
word big time always oh you don't need

2058
01:19:07,189 --> 01:19:04,480
to do this you can't do that and i'm

2059
01:19:09,590 --> 01:19:07,199
just like never changed

2060
01:19:11,110 --> 01:19:09,600
and it helps me to understand like

2061
01:19:13,830 --> 01:19:11,120
this is not going to change i have to

2062
01:19:15,270 --> 01:19:13,840
learn how to learn how to deal with this

2063
01:19:16,470 --> 01:19:15,280
i can't change it it's not going to

2064
01:19:18,790 --> 01:19:16,480
change

2065
01:19:21,590 --> 01:19:18,800
but and then uh and then also like you

2066
01:19:23,350 --> 01:19:21,600
know just going going uh some people

2067
01:19:27,030 --> 01:19:23,360
like say flow

2068
01:19:31,350 --> 01:19:28,310
uh

2069
01:19:32,950 --> 01:19:31,360
like just letting go like once i just

2070
01:19:34,470 --> 01:19:32,960
sat still

2071
01:19:36,310 --> 01:19:34,480
and uh

2072
01:19:38,390 --> 01:19:36,320
kind of thought about why i was upset

2073
01:19:41,910 --> 01:19:38,400
all the time about all kinds of stuff

2074
01:19:44,070 --> 01:19:41,920
um it's you know fear anger

2075
01:19:46,390 --> 01:19:44,080
all these things and it's like ah i have

2076
01:19:48,229 --> 01:19:46,400
no time to study cool i have no

2077
01:19:50,310 --> 01:19:48,239
time to read this and no time to do that

2078
01:19:52,229 --> 01:19:50,320
and as soon as i just started turning my

2079
01:19:54,149 --> 01:19:52,239
attention to the good stuff

2080
01:19:56,790 --> 01:19:54,159
that was all i could see it was just

2081
01:19:58,709 --> 01:19:56,800
like just it's almost the same day man

2082
01:20:00,630 --> 01:19:58,719
when i committed to

2083
01:20:03,189 --> 01:20:00,640
pursuing uh some of the things that i

2084
01:20:04,550 --> 01:20:03,199
hear in these hallways on the hub

2085
01:20:06,310 --> 01:20:04,560
i'm just like

2086
01:20:08,149 --> 01:20:06,320
this has just been

2087
01:20:09,590 --> 01:20:08,159
kind of exactly what um

2088
01:20:12,470 --> 01:20:09,600
i think i'm not probably not the only

2089
01:20:13,669 --> 01:20:12,480
one in here who really needs this and

2090
01:20:15,510 --> 01:20:13,679
just like everyone else coming here

2091
01:20:18,470 --> 01:20:15,520
every day you know or every

2092
01:20:19,590 --> 01:20:18,480
every time um we're live

2093
01:20:21,270 --> 01:20:19,600
but i think

2094
01:20:23,030 --> 01:20:21,280
um

2095
01:20:25,590 --> 01:20:23,040
yeah so now i was just going to see a

2096
01:20:26,629 --> 01:20:25,600
lot of people too you know they

2097
01:20:29,590 --> 01:20:26,639
um

2098
01:20:32,070 --> 01:20:29,600
they feel like that it's a trick somehow

2099
01:20:33,189 --> 01:20:32,080
that they're um not paying attention

2100
01:20:34,790 --> 01:20:33,199
right that if you're not paying

2101
01:20:35,510 --> 01:20:34,800
attention you're actually being tricked

2102
01:20:37,270 --> 01:20:35,520
and

2103
01:20:40,070 --> 01:20:37,280
that's the whole point that you can't

2104
01:20:42,390 --> 01:20:40,080
just let oh you have to no you have to

2105
01:20:44,950 --> 01:20:42,400
in the world yeah right and the thing is

2106
01:20:47,350 --> 01:20:44,960
it's not just physical things right i'm

2107
01:20:49,910 --> 01:20:47,360
talking about literal ideas too because

2108
01:20:52,149 --> 01:20:49,920
as the saying goes you can't um solve a

2109
01:20:54,629 --> 01:20:52,159
problem from the from the state of mind

2110
01:20:55,990 --> 01:20:54,639
that you created it you know this uh

2111
01:20:58,790 --> 01:20:56,000
which is kind of like you can't see the

2112
01:21:00,149 --> 01:20:58,800
forest from the trees um just if i may

2113
01:21:01,510 --> 01:21:00,159
real quick you know those perfect

2114
01:21:02,229 --> 01:21:01,520
example um

2115
01:21:05,030 --> 01:21:02,239
so

2116
01:21:07,990 --> 01:21:05,040
you know we always have uh um when i met

2117
01:21:10,070 --> 01:21:08,000
my wife because she's uh you know um she

2118
01:21:13,110 --> 01:21:10,080
does booking and so

2119
01:21:14,629 --> 01:21:13,120
uh like accounting basically um she does

2120
01:21:16,229 --> 01:21:14,639
the books for the for the company we

2121
01:21:17,910 --> 01:21:16,239
work for so

2122
01:21:19,750 --> 01:21:17,920
she always had like a different way of

2123
01:21:22,229 --> 01:21:19,760
of dealing with money so she always like

2124
01:21:23,910 --> 01:21:22,239
created a separate account to where

2125
01:21:25,669 --> 01:21:23,920
there's your main spending account but

2126
01:21:26,950 --> 01:21:25,679
whatever builds have to get paid you

2127
01:21:28,709 --> 01:21:26,960
just put that

2128
01:21:30,310 --> 01:21:28,719
away and you don't touch it and that's

2129
01:21:31,750 --> 01:21:30,320
for builds and then whatever is left

2130
01:21:33,430 --> 01:21:31,760
that's what you have and if you're out

2131
01:21:35,669 --> 01:21:33,440
of it you're out of it right

2132
01:21:37,669 --> 01:21:35,679
and so i never really thought about it

2133
01:21:39,510 --> 01:21:37,679
that way and i loved the idea and she

2134
01:21:42,149 --> 01:21:39,520
was already handling all this stuff so i

2135
01:21:42,870 --> 01:21:42,159
said i'll just do what we got to do and

2136
01:21:47,590 --> 01:21:42,880
so

2137
01:21:49,110 --> 01:21:47,600
after all these years right after all

2138
01:21:51,510 --> 01:21:49,120
the things that we ended up still

2139
01:21:55,030 --> 01:21:51,520
getting you know and not having any

2140
01:21:57,110 --> 01:21:55,040
money for it you know so to speak um

2141
01:21:58,950 --> 01:21:57,120
what i'm saying is we eventually do but

2142
01:21:59,990 --> 01:21:58,960
without knowing exactly how it's going

2143
01:22:03,270 --> 01:22:00,000
to come

2144
01:22:05,669 --> 01:22:03,280
we thought let's save right so we took

2145
01:22:09,110 --> 01:22:05,679
you know more out and saved there and

2146
01:22:11,910 --> 01:22:09,120
like wouldn't touch this this this part

2147
01:22:13,910 --> 01:22:11,920
and so we started noticing our life was

2148
01:22:15,910 --> 01:22:13,920
becoming more stressful because we were

2149
01:22:18,390 --> 01:22:15,920
so concentrated on okay what we're

2150
01:22:19,990 --> 01:22:18,400
saving now okay let's let's save so each

2151
01:22:21,510 --> 01:22:20,000
week let's do this we'll put a little

2152
01:22:23,830 --> 01:22:21,520
bit away and all that and we were you

2153
01:22:25,750 --> 01:22:23,840
know doing exactly the egotistical way

2154
01:22:27,750 --> 01:22:25,760
which is you know the supposed the ego

2155
01:22:29,830 --> 01:22:27,760
is supposed to know best so let's save

2156
01:22:31,750 --> 01:22:29,840
you know each time put this away and it

2157
01:22:34,390 --> 01:22:31,760
started creating more stress for us

2158
01:22:36,149 --> 01:22:34,400
because we were you know going to this

2159
01:22:38,229 --> 01:22:36,159
different place and first thing we do is

2160
01:22:39,669 --> 01:22:38,239
like okay can we get this can we afford

2161
01:22:41,830 --> 01:22:39,679
this will this take too much from the

2162
01:22:43,590 --> 01:22:41,840
saving or from our main goal and all

2163
01:22:45,750 --> 01:22:43,600
these other things and we were doing

2164
01:22:48,470 --> 01:22:45,760
that for a couple of months and on one

2165
01:22:51,030 --> 01:22:48,480
of the drives from town back they always

2166
01:22:53,430 --> 01:22:51,040
you know long and so we often get to

2167
01:22:55,750 --> 01:22:53,440
chat about different things so i just

2168
01:22:57,669 --> 01:22:55,760
was asking my wife too i said you know

2169
01:22:59,189 --> 01:22:57,679
do do you find this stressful too you

2170
01:23:00,870 --> 01:22:59,199
know that before we weren't really

2171
01:23:02,870 --> 01:23:00,880
thinking about money we didn't have any

2172
01:23:03,910 --> 01:23:02,880
but we weren't thinking about it we just

2173
01:23:05,590 --> 01:23:03,920
knew that

2174
01:23:07,669 --> 01:23:05,600
whatever we got to spend it's going to

2175
01:23:09,350 --> 01:23:07,679
get spent and that's it right but the

2176
01:23:11,590 --> 01:23:09,360
second we tried

2177
01:23:13,110 --> 01:23:11,600
to save all of the sudden

2178
01:23:15,189 --> 01:23:13,120
everything just buying some coffee

2179
01:23:16,870 --> 01:23:15,199
became stressful you know you know going

2180
01:23:19,430 --> 01:23:16,880
to grocery stores like is this going to

2181
01:23:22,470 --> 01:23:19,440
go over this amount you know because we

2182
01:23:23,350 --> 01:23:22,480
put the limit of of saving you know and

2183
01:23:24,629 --> 01:23:23,360
so

2184
01:23:27,510 --> 01:23:24,639
i said

2185
01:23:35,990 --> 01:23:27,520
we

2186
01:23:38,229 --> 01:23:36,000
let go and let happen whatever needs to

2187
01:23:41,510 --> 01:23:38,239
happen it always works itself out to

2188
01:23:43,430 --> 01:23:41,520
where either we earned more money or we

2189
01:23:45,830 --> 01:23:43,440
were given money or something to always

2190
01:23:48,149 --> 01:23:45,840
get what we wanted and we know that for

2191
01:23:49,669 --> 01:23:48,159
a fact it has always worked for us and

2192
01:23:51,830 --> 01:23:49,679
while we thought that all of a sudden we

2193
01:23:54,310 --> 01:23:51,840
should start saving i have no idea but

2194
01:23:56,950 --> 01:23:54,320
the point was i said shall we you know

2195
01:23:57,669 --> 01:23:56,960
let's let's um you know let's go back to

2196
01:23:59,830 --> 01:23:57,679
just

2197
01:24:01,430 --> 01:23:59,840
living this life to where we put a way

2198
01:24:03,350 --> 01:24:01,440
for belts but then however we end up

2199
01:24:05,030 --> 01:24:03,360
spending what we're supposed to spend to

2200
01:24:07,669 --> 01:24:05,040
let that be okay and not worry about

2201
01:24:10,149 --> 01:24:07,679
saving and literally like the same day

2202
01:24:10,870 --> 01:24:10,159
the other day we were having you know we

2203
01:24:13,030 --> 01:24:10,880
were

2204
01:24:15,030 --> 01:24:13,040
thinking about how more can we possibly

2205
01:24:16,629 --> 01:24:15,040
be saving that everything else was so

2206
01:24:19,110 --> 01:24:16,639
blocked out in our heads no other

2207
01:24:21,830 --> 01:24:19,120
possibility or solution entered our mind

2208
01:24:23,750 --> 01:24:21,840
and so finally she just said

2209
01:24:25,590 --> 01:24:23,760
you know we could refinance

2210
01:24:27,590 --> 01:24:25,600
and i looked at her i was like

2211
01:24:29,590 --> 01:24:27,600
yeah she said yeah we can refinance it

2212
01:24:31,189 --> 01:24:29,600
do this and put this two together to

2213
01:24:33,590 --> 01:24:31,199
where it will lower our payments and all

2214
01:24:35,430 --> 01:24:33,600
that and we'll have a lot more left over

2215
01:24:36,550 --> 01:24:35,440
right and that would that was not

2216
01:24:38,709 --> 01:24:36,560
possible

2217
01:24:40,709 --> 01:24:38,719
and when we were still in that mindset

2218
01:24:42,149 --> 01:24:40,719
of like oh my god i gotta save i have to

2219
01:24:45,030 --> 01:24:42,159
save i have to keep going saving you

2220
01:24:46,629 --> 01:24:45,040
know it's like you have to just let go

2221
01:24:48,709 --> 01:24:46,639
and so whether you believe this that

2222
01:24:50,870 --> 01:24:48,719
this is a you know a message from higher

2223
01:24:53,510 --> 01:24:50,880
place you know from a higher self or

2224
01:24:56,229 --> 01:24:53,520
your brain is relaxed and works a lot

2225
01:24:57,910 --> 01:24:56,239
better when it's relaxed and then when

2226
01:25:00,470 --> 01:24:57,920
it is under stress whatever you the

2227
01:25:01,590 --> 01:25:00,480
belief system is the point is a solution

2228
01:25:03,430 --> 01:25:01,600
was found

2229
01:25:05,669 --> 01:25:03,440
you know and then we ended up actually

2230
01:25:07,590 --> 01:25:05,679
like the percentages at the banks were

2231
01:25:08,709 --> 01:25:07,600
awesome they're like you know one

2232
01:25:10,229 --> 01:25:08,719
percent

2233
01:25:12,070 --> 01:25:10,239
right now we're like four or five

2234
01:25:14,870 --> 01:25:12,080
percent that we're paying and that's

2235
01:25:16,950 --> 01:25:14,880
like a huge saving in interest alone and

2236
01:25:19,110 --> 01:25:16,960
so basically turned out that you know

2237
01:25:21,430 --> 01:25:19,120
the payments we're making to the car the

2238
01:25:24,550 --> 01:25:21,440
truck and the house is basically going

2239
01:25:27,430 --> 01:25:24,560
to combine into one low price as if

2240
01:25:29,510 --> 01:25:27,440
we're only paying for one of the items

2241
01:25:31,270 --> 01:25:29,520
you know and all of that just came about

2242
01:25:32,950 --> 01:25:31,280
just when we finally just said okay

2243
01:25:36,229 --> 01:25:32,960
let's forget about saving let's just

2244
01:25:38,870 --> 01:25:36,239
relax you know this to go back to having

2245
01:25:40,550 --> 01:25:38,880
that happier state of being and happier

2246
01:25:41,910 --> 01:25:40,560
alive and the next thing you know

2247
01:25:44,070 --> 01:25:41,920
solutions came

2248
01:25:45,750 --> 01:25:44,080
you know and that that is the type of

2249
01:25:48,390 --> 01:25:45,760
stuff i'm talking about i'm giving

2250
01:25:49,830 --> 01:25:48,400
practical you know examples to you guys

2251
01:25:52,070 --> 01:25:49,840
you know watching or that will be

2252
01:25:54,950 --> 01:25:52,080
listening in the future to where this is

2253
01:25:57,910 --> 01:25:54,960
you know i'm just human just like you

2254
01:26:00,709 --> 01:25:57,920
are you know but um certain things have

2255
01:26:02,709 --> 01:26:00,719
always worked for us and i just um

2256
01:26:04,870 --> 01:26:02,719
just want to share it to see if

2257
01:26:06,470 --> 01:26:04,880
you know you dare to try them you know

2258
01:26:07,669 --> 01:26:06,480
if you still want to be in that hectic

2259
01:26:09,270 --> 01:26:07,679
state of

2260
01:26:11,430 --> 01:26:09,280
you know let's figure everything out and

2261
01:26:13,750 --> 01:26:11,440
plan everything out to the my new detail

2262
01:26:15,270 --> 01:26:13,760
then by all means knock yourself out but

2263
01:26:17,030 --> 01:26:15,280
you know if that hasn't worked for you

2264
01:26:19,910 --> 01:26:17,040
in the past you know there's there's

2265
01:26:21,910 --> 01:26:19,920
probably a good reason why it hasn't

2266
01:26:23,350 --> 01:26:21,920
i have a manifesting story right quick

2267
01:26:25,350 --> 01:26:23,360
and then i have one question for you

2268
01:26:27,030 --> 01:26:25,360
before i go um

2269
01:26:30,390 --> 01:26:27,040
so i'm out here

2270
01:26:32,709 --> 01:26:30,400
running deliveries you know all day and

2271
01:26:33,910 --> 01:26:32,719
you know once a month or whenever the

2272
01:26:35,910 --> 01:26:33,920
people throw the furniture by the

2273
01:26:37,110 --> 01:26:35,920
dumpsters and you see cool and it's

2274
01:26:38,709 --> 01:26:37,120
like

2275
01:26:40,070 --> 01:26:38,719
that's how we used to get our furniture

2276
01:26:41,990 --> 01:26:40,080
for years

2277
01:26:43,830 --> 01:26:42,000
yeah this table is so cool you want it

2278
01:26:45,350 --> 01:26:43,840
this dresser is great shape all this

2279
01:26:47,350 --> 01:26:45,360
stuff is so cool and i don't know how

2280
01:26:49,350 --> 01:26:47,360
like everyone's taking their time

2281
01:26:50,950 --> 01:26:49,360
answering me i'm trying to find i have

2282
01:26:52,149 --> 01:26:50,960
all this cool stuff and

2283
01:26:53,590 --> 01:26:52,159
man i don't know what to do it's just

2284
01:26:55,750 --> 01:26:53,600
miserable

2285
01:26:57,669 --> 01:26:55,760
and uh but had like just it was all

2286
01:26:59,430 --> 01:26:57,679
messed up and then um i just said you

2287
01:27:00,950 --> 01:26:59,440
know what

2288
01:27:02,790 --> 01:27:00,960
all i want

2289
01:27:04,629 --> 01:27:02,800
are the potted plants that people have

2290
01:27:06,550 --> 01:27:04,639
thrown away i want the soil and the

2291
01:27:09,990 --> 01:27:06,560
plants that they're still living and the

2292
01:27:12,229 --> 01:27:10,000
pots like i want that's all i want

2293
01:27:14,950 --> 01:27:12,239
and then um it just

2294
01:27:17,590 --> 01:27:14,960
like instantly became the only they were

2295
01:27:19,669 --> 01:27:17,600
everywhere i was only seeing those

2296
01:27:22,149 --> 01:27:19,679
and i was bringing home carloads and my

2297
01:27:24,149 --> 01:27:22,159
mom was like we have so many like i'm

2298
01:27:26,390 --> 01:27:24,159
like i'm so happy look at this one i

2299
01:27:29,030 --> 01:27:26,400
saved this plant and it has you know

2300
01:27:30,629 --> 01:27:29,040
giant dirt and like all these different

2301
01:27:31,990 --> 01:27:30,639
i just felt all the energy from the

2302
01:27:33,350 --> 01:27:32,000
people who bought them and cared for

2303
01:27:36,149 --> 01:27:33,360
them at the beginning and then they

2304
01:27:38,790 --> 01:27:36,159
didn't make it i was just a tat and they

2305
01:27:41,270 --> 01:27:38,800
were just everywhere online

2306
01:27:43,510 --> 01:27:41,280
i mean it was crazy

2307
01:27:45,350 --> 01:27:43,520
and then i just like

2308
01:27:46,870 --> 01:27:45,360
one day i just smiled and laughed and

2309
01:27:49,430 --> 01:27:46,880
i'm just like man

2310
01:27:51,430 --> 01:27:49,440
thank you universe i have so many like i

2311
01:27:52,229 --> 01:27:51,440
just thank you so much that was so much

2312
01:27:53,990 --> 01:27:52,239
fun

2313
01:27:54,950 --> 01:27:54,000
for like a week i was just bringing him

2314
01:27:56,709 --> 01:27:54,960
home like

2315
01:27:58,790 --> 01:27:56,719
like a boss

2316
01:28:00,709 --> 01:27:58,800
and uh this was that was just the most

2317
01:28:02,550 --> 01:28:00,719
fun i've ever had

2318
01:28:04,229 --> 01:28:02,560
and i just thank you and then i never

2319
01:28:07,830 --> 01:28:04,239
saw them again dude

2320
01:28:10,229 --> 01:28:07,840
like it just ended just like that right

2321
01:28:12,149 --> 01:28:10,239
and i just thought that was so awesome

2322
01:28:14,310 --> 01:28:12,159
how like

2323
01:28:15,830 --> 01:28:14,320
it's just it was just kind of turning it

2324
01:28:17,669 --> 01:28:15,840
over for one thing and kind of

2325
01:28:20,149 --> 01:28:17,679
forgetting about it and then that's

2326
01:28:21,750 --> 01:28:20,159
all you get here you go buddy

2327
01:28:23,510 --> 01:28:21,760
this is what you want to hit it's

2328
01:28:25,350 --> 01:28:23,520
everywhere

2329
01:28:27,590 --> 01:28:25,360
and uh and then the other thing i wanted

2330
01:28:29,510 --> 01:28:27,600
to kind of ask you um

2331
01:28:31,430 --> 01:28:29,520
was uh

2332
01:28:33,750 --> 01:28:31,440
like if you had three months off to

2333
01:28:34,629 --> 01:28:33,760
study some things like what would be

2334
01:28:37,669 --> 01:28:34,639
like

2335
01:28:39,830 --> 01:28:37,679
in your top three or five i guess

2336
01:28:41,669 --> 01:28:39,840
say that one more time what my study

2337
01:28:43,750 --> 01:28:41,679
what top three like

2338
01:28:45,990 --> 01:28:43,760
yeah like if you had three months off to

2339
01:28:47,030 --> 01:28:46,000
like pursue something

2340
01:28:49,510 --> 01:28:47,040
uh

2341
01:28:51,110 --> 01:28:49,520
you know and and obviously money was the

2342
01:28:53,510 --> 01:28:51,120
problem but you could just like read and

2343
01:28:56,790 --> 01:28:53,520
study or do something learn something

2344
01:28:57,669 --> 01:28:56,800
what would it be like what's kind of

2345
01:29:01,350 --> 01:28:57,679
you know

2346
01:29:03,590 --> 01:29:01,360
what kind of really uh seems cool

2347
01:29:04,390 --> 01:29:03,600
that you haven't done already

2348
01:29:06,550 --> 01:29:04,400
well

2349
01:29:11,590 --> 01:29:06,560
it might be extremely boring but i

2350
01:29:14,229 --> 01:29:12,470
you know

2351
01:29:17,110 --> 01:29:14,239
be bright i mean that's how always been

2352
01:29:19,750 --> 01:29:17,120
my mindset you know it's like i always

2353
01:29:21,910 --> 01:29:19,760
build my own unless i can't then i ask

2354
01:29:24,390 --> 01:29:21,920
for some more help but it's just it's

2355
01:29:26,870 --> 01:29:24,400
that buzzing in me you know you you you

2356
01:29:29,750 --> 01:29:26,880
are the the one-man show you know the

2357
01:29:32,229 --> 01:29:29,760
what you what do you call it here the um

2358
01:29:34,709 --> 01:29:32,239
uh jack-of-all-trades is that the

2359
01:29:37,510 --> 01:29:34,719
expression um yeah yeah you know and so

2360
01:29:40,229 --> 01:29:37,520
my mindset is always like you know well

2361
01:29:41,270 --> 01:29:40,239
i am me and this is for myself so i do

2362
01:29:43,350 --> 01:29:41,280
it

2363
01:29:45,590 --> 01:29:43,360
you know of course then you know like

2364
01:29:46,870 --> 01:29:45,600
trailer for example have we bought but

2365
01:29:48,229 --> 01:29:46,880
you know not that i couldn't build it

2366
01:29:50,229 --> 01:29:48,239
but it was already finished so it made

2367
01:29:52,629 --> 01:29:50,239
no sense to reinvent the wheel in that

2368
01:29:57,110 --> 01:29:52,639
way

2369
01:29:58,870 --> 01:29:57,120
would love to do that because uh it's

2370
01:30:02,070 --> 01:29:58,880
been talking about

2371
01:30:03,830 --> 01:30:02,080
that for literally five years and each

2372
01:30:06,310 --> 01:30:03,840
year we just say next year next year

2373
01:30:08,149 --> 01:30:06,320
next year because she had a very strong

2374
01:30:10,310 --> 01:30:08,159
feeling right and i had a very strong

2375
01:30:11,750 --> 01:30:10,320
feeling but not because of fear not

2376
01:30:13,669 --> 01:30:11,760
because of anything because like you

2377
01:30:16,470 --> 01:30:13,679
know it would be so cool to

2378
01:30:18,470 --> 01:30:16,480
you know have what i remember as a kid

2379
01:30:20,629 --> 01:30:18,480
my parents you know most of our food we

2380
01:30:23,669 --> 01:30:20,639
got from the garden you know very rarely

2381
01:30:26,470 --> 01:30:23,679
did you go out to buy food if you only

2382
01:30:28,870 --> 01:30:26,480
bought like meat or more heavier things

2383
01:30:31,030 --> 01:30:28,880
on the market but mostly things you did

2384
01:30:34,390 --> 01:30:31,040
for yourself so anyway for her and

2385
01:30:36,470 --> 01:30:34,400
myself it was just a feeling right to to

2386
01:30:38,070 --> 01:30:36,480
want to build a greenhouse and just have

2387
01:30:38,950 --> 01:30:38,080
it and so

2388
01:30:40,790 --> 01:30:38,960
um

2389
01:30:42,550 --> 01:30:40,800
you know we it has been going on for

2390
01:30:45,590 --> 01:30:42,560
quite a while now but we kept ignoring

2391
01:30:47,189 --> 01:30:45,600
it and so if we built it right let's say

2392
01:30:49,669 --> 01:30:47,199
five years ago and we didn't do the

2393
01:30:52,709 --> 01:30:49,679
ignoring like we did um look at what's

2394
01:30:55,430 --> 01:30:52,719
been happening shortages of food in in

2395
01:30:58,310 --> 01:30:55,440
places everywhere we go they say you

2396
01:30:59,110 --> 01:30:58,320
know our usual items are out or you know

2397
01:31:01,750 --> 01:30:59,120
or

2398
01:31:04,390 --> 01:31:01,760
certain prices now now bumped up you

2399
01:31:06,149 --> 01:31:04,400
know um

2400
01:31:08,709 --> 01:31:06,159
you know you you just never know

2401
01:31:09,830 --> 01:31:08,719
basically if the chain is going to

2402
01:31:12,470 --> 01:31:09,840
continue

2403
01:31:14,790 --> 01:31:12,480
again i only say this not out of fear

2404
01:31:16,629 --> 01:31:14,800
but it was a perfect example that that

2405
01:31:19,270 --> 01:31:16,639
was the feeling that i was talking about

2406
01:31:22,070 --> 01:31:19,280
that just came to us her my wife and i

2407
01:31:24,070 --> 01:31:22,080
both uh or independently you know and we

2408
01:31:26,470 --> 01:31:24,080
just happened to talk and and we shared

2409
01:31:28,470 --> 01:31:26,480
the same idea but the point was you know

2410
01:31:30,229 --> 01:31:28,480
it didn't come as fear it didn't come

2411
01:31:33,270 --> 01:31:30,239
like you must build this you know kind

2412
01:31:35,510 --> 01:31:33,280
of like you know uh noah and build the

2413
01:31:37,430 --> 01:31:35,520
you know noah's ark because all these

2414
01:31:39,430 --> 01:31:37,440
people are gonna pay one day the point

2415
01:31:41,110 --> 01:31:39,440
was it was just for no reason we're like

2416
01:31:43,030 --> 01:31:41,120
let's build it but because there was no

2417
01:31:44,390 --> 01:31:43,040
push and even to this day when he

2418
01:31:46,870 --> 01:31:44,400
finally decided

2419
01:31:48,550 --> 01:31:46,880
you know uh to you know to want to do it

2420
01:31:50,950 --> 01:31:48,560
which eventually i still will but you

2421
01:31:53,030 --> 01:31:50,960
asked me if i were to you know had three

2422
01:31:55,189 --> 01:31:53,040
months starting now that's what i would

2423
01:31:57,030 --> 01:31:55,199
do yeah but not out of fear because it's

2424
01:31:58,709 --> 01:31:57,040
something right it's something we wanted

2425
01:32:00,790 --> 01:31:58,719
to do because we keep thinking about

2426
01:32:03,669 --> 01:32:00,800
okay we're going to all these because

2427
01:32:05,430 --> 01:32:03,679
that the the best cheap food there you

2428
01:32:07,990 --> 01:32:05,440
know and it's always fresh fruits and

2429
01:32:09,990 --> 01:32:08,000
veggies and all that it's like peppers

2430
01:32:11,910 --> 01:32:10,000
we can grow tomatoes we can grow all

2431
01:32:12,709 --> 01:32:11,920
these things and we have six acres of

2432
01:32:14,870 --> 01:32:12,719
land

2433
01:32:16,709 --> 01:32:14,880
you know it's so silly for us to stand

2434
01:32:19,350 --> 01:32:16,719
still go out of the country go to the

2435
01:32:21,350 --> 01:32:19,360
supermarket 40 minutes from here buy

2436
01:32:23,590 --> 01:32:21,360
this stuff and then come back you know

2437
01:32:25,270 --> 01:32:23,600
and i'm not dissing it i appreciate the

2438
01:32:28,229 --> 01:32:25,280
markets and the way we've been doing it

2439
01:32:29,910 --> 01:32:28,239
i i understand but you know like kind of

2440
01:32:32,950 --> 01:32:29,920
like penny was saying and i kind of

2441
01:32:34,709 --> 01:32:32,960
resonated with me it's it helps to just

2442
01:32:37,830 --> 01:32:34,719
kind of revert back on how people used

2443
01:32:38,870 --> 01:32:37,840
to live to where how i remember as a kid

2444
01:32:41,910 --> 01:32:38,880
to where

2445
01:32:44,550 --> 01:32:41,920
it you know trade was something you just

2446
01:32:46,790 --> 01:32:44,560
occasionally did is you took of your

2447
01:32:49,189 --> 01:32:46,800
stuff you you took care of your family

2448
01:32:51,189 --> 01:32:49,199
you know we had huge you know huge

2449
01:32:53,990 --> 01:32:51,199
garden there so anything i wanted i

2450
01:32:57,590 --> 01:32:54,000
would go pick strawberries you know

2451
01:32:59,030 --> 01:32:57,600
whatever plums um any fruit any veggie

2452
01:33:01,590 --> 01:32:59,040
you know and i thought that was life

2453
01:33:03,350 --> 01:33:01,600
that was good that was heaven you know

2454
01:33:05,189 --> 01:33:03,360
as a kid i was never hungry i ate at

2455
01:33:09,430 --> 01:33:05,199
home why because i already ate from the

2456
01:33:11,830 --> 01:33:09,440
garden and so anyway um so

2457
01:33:14,550 --> 01:33:11,840
talking about that feeling you know now

2458
01:33:17,830 --> 01:33:14,560
when i think back on it it would come in

2459
01:33:20,870 --> 01:33:17,840
perfectly if i and my wife followed it

2460
01:33:22,870 --> 01:33:20,880
years ago earlier and going on now we

2461
01:33:26,629 --> 01:33:22,880
would have already then been in this

2462
01:33:28,229 --> 01:33:26,639
place to where oh well not only you know

2463
01:33:30,310 --> 01:33:28,239
we have nothing to worry about to begin

2464
01:33:32,390 --> 01:33:30,320
with but we don't have to now

2465
01:33:34,709 --> 01:33:32,400
build it out of stress we don't have to

2466
01:33:36,629 --> 01:33:34,719
build it you know to hurry up to get

2467
01:33:38,229 --> 01:33:36,639
ahead of this game because everything

2468
01:33:40,229 --> 01:33:38,239
might collapse you know we're still not

2469
01:33:42,070 --> 01:33:40,239
thinking that way i'm still at ease the

2470
01:33:43,750 --> 01:33:42,080
first thing i'm doing is just building

2471
01:33:46,229 --> 01:33:43,760
that generator why because i've had that

2472
01:33:48,390 --> 01:33:46,239
damn thing for 15 years it's like and so

2473
01:33:49,510 --> 01:33:48,400
when we sat in the dark for four hours i

2474
01:33:51,189 --> 01:33:49,520
was like

2475
01:33:53,030 --> 01:33:51,199
wouldn't it be nice if i just had my

2476
01:33:55,590 --> 01:33:53,040
system set up that i could just turn on

2477
01:33:57,189 --> 01:33:55,600
the generator you know and especially

2478
01:33:59,430 --> 01:33:57,199
living in the woods where we do it's

2479
01:34:00,390 --> 01:33:59,440
like why not utilize more of the things

2480
01:34:02,310 --> 01:34:00,400
you have

2481
01:34:04,310 --> 01:34:02,320
you know it's just more of common

2482
01:34:05,830 --> 01:34:04,320
sensical thing but not out of fear

2483
01:34:08,390 --> 01:34:05,840
that's important to understand not out

2484
01:34:10,390 --> 01:34:08,400
of fear just simply like oh yeah yeah i

2485
01:34:12,229 --> 01:34:10,400
love building so i was like wow i'm

2486
01:34:13,990 --> 01:34:12,239
looking forward to building the platform

2487
01:34:16,229 --> 01:34:14,000
digging out the whole for the conduit

2488
01:34:18,229 --> 01:34:16,239
line you know how you know how am i

2489
01:34:20,310 --> 01:34:18,239
going to make the housing i want to

2490
01:34:22,629 --> 01:34:20,320
insulate it so when it's running it's

2491
01:34:24,870 --> 01:34:22,639
you know it runs quietly you know and

2492
01:34:26,390 --> 01:34:24,880
but also gets enough air for it and that

2493
01:34:28,310 --> 01:34:26,400
kind of stuff excites me you know the

2494
01:34:30,070 --> 01:34:28,320
same thing did here you know it's like

2495
01:34:31,990 --> 01:34:30,080
what system do i need for this how do i

2496
01:34:33,830 --> 01:34:32,000
set up telegram you know do i need this

2497
01:34:35,030 --> 01:34:33,840
mic i built this stand myself you know

2498
01:34:36,629 --> 01:34:35,040
because i wanted something stirred here

2499
01:34:39,189 --> 01:34:36,639
you know it's all those things that i

2500
01:34:41,350 --> 01:34:39,199
love doing anyway just do more of it you

2501
01:34:43,430 --> 01:34:41,360
know not out of fear like you know oh my

2502
01:34:45,350 --> 01:34:43,440
god i'm afraid that this mic might fall

2503
01:34:46,950 --> 01:34:45,360
down so i better build this back best

2504
01:34:50,870 --> 01:34:46,960
thing because i don't want it to fall

2505
01:34:52,950 --> 01:34:50,880
down no i just wanted something that

2506
01:34:55,030 --> 01:34:52,960
it's not going to go anywhere anytime

2507
01:34:56,550 --> 01:34:55,040
soon i may have a short cut for you

2508
01:34:57,750 --> 01:34:56,560
i may have a shortcut for you on the

2509
01:34:59,750 --> 01:34:57,760
greenhouse

2510
01:35:02,070 --> 01:34:59,760
go ahead um because i was fat i i love

2511
01:35:05,910 --> 01:35:02,080
them i'm a big fan i've

2512
01:35:07,990 --> 01:35:05,920
had a a few in my in my lifetime so far

2513
01:35:10,229 --> 01:35:08,000
and uh but um i think if i was gonna do

2514
01:35:13,590 --> 01:35:10,239
it again myself

2515
01:35:16,149 --> 01:35:13,600
i would go to pacific domes

2516
01:35:17,990 --> 01:35:16,159
and get a skeleton or something i think

2517
01:35:19,669 --> 01:35:18,000
that's how i would want to do it i think

2518
01:35:22,470 --> 01:35:19,679
that's how i would want to

2519
01:35:24,550 --> 01:35:22,480
uh because i'm so like about the space

2520
01:35:26,149 --> 01:35:24,560
you know the the

2521
01:35:29,189 --> 01:35:26,159
how much i can do and say how i feel in

2522
01:35:31,030 --> 01:35:29,199
the space right how tall things can grow

2523
01:35:33,590 --> 01:35:31,040
but um they might you might find a

2524
01:35:34,870 --> 01:35:33,600
skeleton there super super cheap

2525
01:35:37,030 --> 01:35:34,880
and then the rest you know kind of

2526
01:35:38,070 --> 01:35:37,040
figure out some other way but i don't

2527
01:35:39,270 --> 01:35:38,080
know i'm just throwing it out there i'm

2528
01:35:41,590 --> 01:35:39,280
not telling you what to do that's for

2529
01:35:43,830 --> 01:35:41,600
sure no no i no i certainly appreciate

2530
01:35:45,669 --> 01:35:43,840
you know your your input and look

2531
01:35:48,070 --> 01:35:45,679
there's a specific thing we're looking

2532
01:35:49,750 --> 01:35:48,080
for i kind of drew it out the other day

2533
01:35:51,910 --> 01:35:49,760
for my wife and i said what do you think

2534
01:35:53,910 --> 01:35:51,920
like this because of we wanted it close

2535
01:35:55,669 --> 01:35:53,920
to the house you know but not too far

2536
01:35:57,830 --> 01:35:55,679
and there's a specific design i'm going

2537
01:36:00,470 --> 01:35:57,840
for so i just

2538
01:36:03,109 --> 01:36:00,480
you know found it a lot easier to just

2539
01:36:05,189 --> 01:36:03,119
see if the prices drop much more on the

2540
01:36:06,950 --> 01:36:05,199
lumber and then just buy all the stuff i

2541
01:36:09,109 --> 01:36:06,960
need and make something a little bit

2542
01:36:11,030 --> 01:36:09,119
more sturdier

2543
01:36:12,550 --> 01:36:11,040
but anyway but the point yeah anyway

2544
01:36:14,790 --> 01:36:12,560
just to answer your question it would

2545
01:36:17,189 --> 01:36:14,800
have been that that that greenhouse if i

2546
01:36:19,030 --> 01:36:17,199
had three months nothing else to do

2547
01:36:22,310 --> 01:36:19,040
i would have been like would have had a

2548
01:36:23,990 --> 01:36:22,320
greenhouse by the end of that

2549
01:36:24,950 --> 01:36:24,000
i'm going to laugh if you get it this

2550
01:36:27,030 --> 01:36:24,960
month

2551
01:36:28,629 --> 01:36:27,040
if something happens um

2552
01:36:31,430 --> 01:36:28,639
we probably opened up that we opened up

2553
01:36:33,109 --> 01:36:31,440
that portal already it's on the way

2554
01:36:35,990 --> 01:36:33,119
some way shape or form what are you

2555
01:36:37,669 --> 01:36:36,000
talking about which part

2556
01:36:40,790 --> 01:36:37,679
your greenhouse i'm gonna i'm gonna

2557
01:36:43,510 --> 01:36:40,800
laugh if it just manifests itself

2558
01:36:45,590 --> 01:36:43,520
right yeah no honestly i'm i wouldn't be

2559
01:36:47,270 --> 01:36:45,600
surprised at all

2560
01:36:49,910 --> 01:36:47,280
yeah if this is going with the good

2561
01:36:51,270 --> 01:36:49,920
vibes and kind of leave it alone and it

2562
01:36:54,390 --> 01:36:51,280
will literally

2563
01:36:56,390 --> 01:36:54,400
uh something will happen probably paulie

2564
01:36:58,149 --> 01:36:56,400
has it he's raising his hand yep i know

2565
01:37:00,070 --> 01:36:58,159
i was gonna get to him next

2566
01:37:02,149 --> 01:37:00,080
but yeah crypto thanks for you know

2567
01:37:04,149 --> 01:37:02,159
chiming in let me see what paulie wanted

2568
01:37:05,990 --> 01:37:04,159
and uh we'll just keep it going however

2569
01:37:08,629 --> 01:37:06,000
many more people will actually talk to

2570
01:37:10,629 --> 01:37:08,639
me otherwise i'll refer back to

2571
01:37:12,310 --> 01:37:10,639
chat i've been neglecting it um i

2572
01:37:14,149 --> 01:37:12,320
haven't seen what other questions might

2573
01:37:20,629 --> 01:37:14,159
have come through there

2574
01:37:23,109 --> 01:37:21,830
okay

2575
01:37:25,990 --> 01:37:23,119
uh

2576
01:37:28,070 --> 01:37:26,000
paulie you are unmuted on my end mute

2577
01:37:30,950 --> 01:37:28,080
yourself on yours

2578
01:37:33,270 --> 01:37:30,960
hey everybody uh

2579
01:37:34,870 --> 01:37:33,280
i invited a couple

2580
01:37:37,350 --> 01:37:34,880
friends in there probably listening on

2581
01:37:39,270 --> 01:37:37,360
youtube and i'm hoping they when they

2582
01:37:41,109 --> 01:37:39,280
have the courage to call into us and

2583
01:37:42,709 --> 01:37:41,119
share their stories so that's why i

2584
01:37:44,950 --> 01:37:42,719
wanted to wait but uh

2585
01:37:45,830 --> 01:37:44,960
thanks for doing that hi paulie's

2586
01:37:48,950 --> 01:37:45,840
friends

2587
01:37:51,189 --> 01:37:48,960
if you're watching

2588
01:37:54,310 --> 01:37:51,199
uh this weekend was pretty neat it was a

2589
01:37:57,750 --> 01:37:54,320
a place i've always wanted to check out

2590
01:38:00,310 --> 01:37:57,760
but was kind of lazy sedona that area

2591
01:38:03,270 --> 01:38:00,320
and uh are you close there i mean three

2592
01:38:05,189 --> 01:38:03,280
hours right or so uh it's about eight

2593
01:38:06,550 --> 01:38:05,199
but on a holiday traffic you know a lot

2594
01:38:07,910 --> 01:38:06,560
of people we're going to vegas and it

2595
01:38:09,669 --> 01:38:07,920
gets jammed up

2596
01:38:12,229 --> 01:38:09,679
real quick

2597
01:38:15,189 --> 01:38:12,239
so from here from from where you're at

2598
01:38:16,629 --> 01:38:15,199
to los angeles how many hours is that

2599
01:38:19,189 --> 01:38:16,639
not los angeles

2600
01:38:21,669 --> 01:38:19,199
uh las vegas

2601
01:38:24,149 --> 01:38:21,679
well no from los angeles there's like

2602
01:38:26,390 --> 01:38:24,159
eight hours maybe vegas

2603
01:38:29,510 --> 01:38:26,400
four hours but okay maybe that's what

2604
01:38:31,030 --> 01:38:29,520
i'm thinking of because sedonas um

2605
01:38:32,709 --> 01:38:31,040
would be much further because i think

2606
01:38:34,149 --> 01:38:32,719
because i remember my trip as i

2607
01:38:35,510 --> 01:38:34,159
mentioned to you earlier before we went

2608
01:38:37,590 --> 01:38:35,520
on air

2609
01:38:40,310 --> 01:38:37,600
it was thinking about how long it took

2610
01:38:43,189 --> 01:38:40,320
us to drive from las vegas to l.a

2611
01:38:45,590 --> 01:38:43,199
uh i was kind of going off of that

2612
01:38:48,149 --> 01:38:45,600
yeah well the thing about going from la

2613
01:38:50,629 --> 01:38:48,159
to vegas on a holiday weekend

2614
01:38:53,109 --> 01:38:50,639
the map says four but everybody's doing

2615
01:38:54,390 --> 01:38:53,119
it so it turns into a lot longer

2616
01:38:57,270 --> 01:38:54,400
but uh

2617
01:38:59,189 --> 01:38:57,280
now there i found the website dark style

2618
01:39:02,550 --> 01:38:59,199
site finder and i looked all over the

2619
01:39:04,149 --> 01:39:02,560
country and the darkest place in

2620
01:39:07,109 --> 01:39:04,159
the country

2621
01:39:09,270 --> 01:39:07,119
by amount of light pollution is around

2622
01:39:11,030 --> 01:39:09,280
the grand canyon so i did a trip up

2623
01:39:13,430 --> 01:39:11,040
there the day before

2624
01:39:15,109 --> 01:39:13,440
and it was well worth it now if anybody

2625
01:39:17,430 --> 01:39:15,119
including yourself maybe when your kids

2626
01:39:19,030 --> 01:39:17,440
are older you're looking for a trip

2627
01:39:21,590 --> 01:39:19,040
if you go out camping around grand

2628
01:39:23,750 --> 01:39:21,600
canyon you'll see the sky

2629
01:39:24,629 --> 01:39:23,760
if there's no moon it'll look like those

2630
01:39:25,510 --> 01:39:24,639
apple

2631
01:39:27,430 --> 01:39:25,520
uh

2632
01:39:29,350 --> 01:39:27,440
desktop so you know that you buy an

2633
01:39:32,550 --> 01:39:29,360
apple computer they put those

2634
01:39:34,629 --> 01:39:32,560
desktop pictures by default and it

2635
01:39:36,149 --> 01:39:34,639
looks fake there's so many stars and you

2636
01:39:38,070 --> 01:39:36,159
see that milky way

2637
01:39:40,229 --> 01:39:38,080
it doesn't look it looks like a glowing

2638
01:39:41,750 --> 01:39:40,239
cloud well that's real it is the first

2639
01:39:43,830 --> 01:39:41,760
time i got to see it

2640
01:39:45,510 --> 01:39:43,840
it took a little effort i had to

2641
01:39:47,910 --> 01:39:45,520
i didn't want to camp because i'm not a

2642
01:39:49,830 --> 01:39:47,920
camper but i i found an airbnb where

2643
01:39:51,430 --> 01:39:49,840
they have a pre-made kind of campsite

2644
01:39:55,430 --> 01:39:51,440
can you take that away from me and then

2645
01:39:57,430 --> 01:39:55,440
um it was pretty neat to uh amplify the

2646
01:39:59,590 --> 01:39:57,440
experience this is where the paranormal

2647
01:40:00,629 --> 01:39:59,600
stuff comes in so to amplify the

2648
01:40:02,470 --> 01:40:00,639
experience

2649
01:40:04,629 --> 01:40:02,480
a little bit um

2650
01:40:08,070 --> 01:40:04,639
i treated myself to

2651
01:40:11,270 --> 01:40:08,080
just a little mushrooms um not a lot

2652
01:40:13,750 --> 01:40:11,280
just uh just to make everything prettier

2653
01:40:15,910 --> 01:40:13,760
but something weird came through uh

2654
01:40:19,510 --> 01:40:15,920
i wasn't meditating i was just joined

2655
01:40:20,709 --> 01:40:19,520
the stars and suddenly

2656
01:40:23,189 --> 01:40:20,719
uh

2657
01:40:25,350 --> 01:40:23,199
the night sky which was pitch black

2658
01:40:28,390 --> 01:40:25,360
turned red pinkish

2659
01:40:30,390 --> 01:40:28,400
and um my girlfriend and i go hey is do

2660
01:40:31,990 --> 01:40:30,400
you see it is everything red she's like

2661
01:40:33,590 --> 01:40:32,000
no because i thought i don't know

2662
01:40:35,590 --> 01:40:33,600
something was going on like it looked

2663
01:40:37,189 --> 01:40:35,600
like a sunset

2664
01:40:39,109 --> 01:40:37,199
and then

2665
01:40:40,709 --> 01:40:39,119
i swear this

2666
01:40:42,070 --> 01:40:40,719
face appeared

2667
01:40:45,669 --> 01:40:42,080
my eyes are open it's like i'm

2668
01:40:48,310 --> 01:40:45,679
meditating and the face looked like

2669
01:40:49,669 --> 01:40:48,320
i guess what you'd call a sasquatch or a

2670
01:40:52,229 --> 01:40:49,679
bigfoot

2671
01:40:54,629 --> 01:40:52,239
i don't know it's just kind of like your

2672
01:40:56,709 --> 01:40:54,639
story when you said you were driving

2673
01:40:58,070 --> 01:40:56,719
and everything slowed down and you

2674
01:41:00,390 --> 01:40:58,080
looked up and you saw a cloud that

2675
01:41:01,270 --> 01:41:00,400
looked like the alien mug you have right

2676
01:41:03,350 --> 01:41:01,280
right

2677
01:41:05,189 --> 01:41:03,360
it was kind of like that it happened for

2678
01:41:06,870 --> 01:41:05,199
a few seconds and normally i would say

2679
01:41:08,550 --> 01:41:06,880
you know it's my imagination i was

2680
01:41:10,709 --> 01:41:08,560
tripping really hard but it really

2681
01:41:11,830 --> 01:41:10,719
wasn't i was uh

2682
01:41:15,109 --> 01:41:11,840
the

2683
01:41:17,990 --> 01:41:15,119
sky appeared

2684
01:41:18,950 --> 01:41:18,000
or it it took a hue and if you've ever

2685
01:41:21,270 --> 01:41:18,960
had a

2686
01:41:23,590 --> 01:41:21,280
psychic contact with an entity it lasts

2687
01:41:25,669 --> 01:41:23,600
for me about a minute but then

2688
01:41:27,990 --> 01:41:25,679
i so i wonder if anybody listening to

2689
01:41:29,990 --> 01:41:28,000
this has ever had a

2690
01:41:31,750 --> 01:41:30,000
i guess a psychic experience like that

2691
01:41:34,550 --> 01:41:31,760
and i don't really feel like i have a

2692
01:41:36,629 --> 01:41:34,560
connection with bigfoot but i think i've

2693
01:41:39,030 --> 01:41:36,639
heard on your radio show that

2694
01:41:40,790 --> 01:41:39,040
you had a bigfoot guy on maybe

2695
01:41:42,950 --> 01:41:40,800
he was talking about they can project

2696
01:41:43,990 --> 01:41:42,960
their face to you and do healing stuff

2697
01:41:45,109 --> 01:41:44,000
like that

2698
01:41:47,990 --> 01:41:45,119
and then uh

2699
01:41:50,229 --> 01:41:48,000
are you talking about kawani

2700
01:41:52,550 --> 01:41:50,239
uh perhaps you know yeah he was i

2701
01:41:54,870 --> 01:41:52,560
couldn't get video through but he was on

2702
01:41:56,310 --> 01:41:54,880
um over the phone

2703
01:41:58,070 --> 01:41:56,320
yeah it was

2704
01:41:59,430 --> 01:41:58,080
i think he was talking about that they

2705
01:42:00,550 --> 01:41:59,440
have

2706
01:42:03,270 --> 01:42:00,560
some kind of

2707
01:42:06,470 --> 01:42:03,280
higher level consciousness and they can

2708
01:42:09,750 --> 01:42:06,480
friendly project their face to you or

2709
01:42:11,590 --> 01:42:09,760
heal you stuff like that

2710
01:42:13,750 --> 01:42:11,600
and i'm not sure if it was bigfoot but

2711
01:42:15,030 --> 01:42:13,760
it whatever i saw kind of look

2712
01:42:18,229 --> 01:42:15,040
like a hairy

2713
01:42:19,910 --> 01:42:18,239
long-haired man looking thing and i

2714
01:42:21,750 --> 01:42:19,920
guess yeah

2715
01:42:23,590 --> 01:42:21,760
and then what's neat is so the next day

2716
01:42:25,109 --> 01:42:23,600
when i drove down to sedona

2717
01:42:27,270 --> 01:42:25,119
sedona is a pretty

2718
01:42:29,669 --> 01:42:27,280
wild place for spiritual people they've

2719
01:42:31,669 --> 01:42:29,679
got i mean if you're interested in any

2720
01:42:33,430 --> 01:42:31,679
of the stuff you talk about you'll find

2721
01:42:35,510 --> 01:42:33,440
people there that are committed to it

2722
01:42:36,709 --> 01:42:35,520
and they have neat shops one of the

2723
01:42:39,030 --> 01:42:36,719
things they do there they have this

2724
01:42:43,109 --> 01:42:39,040
thing called a ufo tour

2725
01:42:47,109 --> 01:42:45,109
they give you um

2726
01:42:51,030 --> 01:42:47,119
night vision equipment like from

2727
01:42:52,470 --> 01:42:51,040
military quality and laser pointers and

2728
01:42:55,430 --> 01:42:52,480
you look up

2729
01:42:56,709 --> 01:42:55,440
and you can see everything you see

2730
01:42:58,629 --> 01:42:56,719
uh even though there's a lot of stores

2731
01:43:00,950 --> 01:42:58,639
down there not as much as grand canyon

2732
01:43:04,070 --> 01:43:00,960
you put this uh equipment on and you can

2733
01:43:04,950 --> 01:43:04,080
see way way more stars

2734
01:43:09,990 --> 01:43:04,960
uh

2735
01:43:11,510 --> 01:43:10,000
she actually i kind of mentioned it to

2736
01:43:13,430 --> 01:43:11,520
her because it was still in my head and

2737
01:43:14,709 --> 01:43:13,440
it kind of shook me up a little bit

2738
01:43:16,950 --> 01:43:14,719
and then she

2739
01:43:18,470 --> 01:43:16,960
i guess it's serendipity she's had a lot

2740
01:43:20,709 --> 01:43:18,480
of experience with she says there's

2741
01:43:23,109 --> 01:43:20,719
bigfoot and sedona she used to go to

2742
01:43:24,790 --> 01:43:23,119
this place called the bradshaw ranch i

2743
01:43:26,310 --> 01:43:24,800
guess it's kind of like a skinwalker

2744
01:43:28,790 --> 01:43:26,320
branch and then she recommended a book

2745
01:43:30,470 --> 01:43:28,800
i'd check out at this like little

2746
01:43:32,390 --> 01:43:30,480
crystal store and i went and got it

2747
01:43:34,149 --> 01:43:32,400
there's all these weird pictures in here

2748
01:43:36,229 --> 01:43:34,159
that i've never seen online or anything

2749
01:43:38,629 --> 01:43:36,239
and i don't know if this is in print

2750
01:43:41,189 --> 01:43:38,639
very much but uh

2751
01:43:43,350 --> 01:43:41,199
yeah she said oh yeah they they do that

2752
01:43:44,709 --> 01:43:43,360
if your vibration's right they can sense

2753
01:43:47,270 --> 01:43:44,719
it and they might

2754
01:43:48,629 --> 01:43:47,280
psychically project themselves

2755
01:43:51,109 --> 01:43:48,639
um

2756
01:43:53,669 --> 01:43:51,119
into your consciousness like that so it

2757
01:43:56,149 --> 01:43:53,679
was kind of reaffirming uh well spirit

2758
01:43:58,149 --> 01:43:56,159
yeah spirit is spirit you know it's all

2759
01:44:00,629 --> 01:43:58,159
the difference is vibration so whatever

2760
01:44:03,109 --> 01:44:00,639
you tune into it there's not a distinct

2761
01:44:04,629 --> 01:44:03,119
like difference between ghost or bigfoot

2762
01:44:06,950 --> 01:44:04,639
or alien i mean you probably already

2763
01:44:08,790 --> 01:44:06,960
know this i'm just commenting on it

2764
01:44:11,109 --> 01:44:08,800
you just match the vibration and you'll

2765
01:44:13,109 --> 01:44:11,119
be surprised what you see

2766
01:44:14,950 --> 01:44:13,119
yeah i suppose i was i was really

2767
01:44:17,430 --> 01:44:14,960
excited happy to be out there i was in a

2768
01:44:19,830 --> 01:44:17,440
really good mood i had good company and

2769
01:44:21,590 --> 01:44:19,840
uh yeah i don't know maybe maybe that's

2770
01:44:23,590 --> 01:44:21,600
why i connected and i'm open to these

2771
01:44:26,470 --> 01:44:23,600
things ever since i started

2772
01:44:27,910 --> 01:44:26,480
being open to anything like that they

2773
01:44:29,669 --> 01:44:27,920
started showing up kind of like the

2774
01:44:31,750 --> 01:44:29,679
gentleman who's talking about he wanted

2775
01:44:34,149 --> 01:44:31,760
to find plants and suddenly they were

2776
01:44:36,790 --> 01:44:34,159
everywhere for that time being that's

2777
01:44:39,270 --> 01:44:36,800
kind of how it works but the uh that's

2778
01:44:40,950 --> 01:44:39,280
for the ufo tour it was a great

2779
01:44:43,430 --> 01:44:40,960
experience uh

2780
01:44:45,270 --> 01:44:43,440
and i'm not sure

2781
01:44:47,910 --> 01:44:45,280
so i probably we probably saw a hundred

2782
01:44:51,590 --> 01:44:47,920
things uh over an hour uh i wouldn't

2783
01:44:52,470 --> 01:44:51,600
imagine most probably satellites though

2784
01:44:54,709 --> 01:44:52,480
but

2785
01:44:56,790 --> 01:44:54,719
um there was a couple

2786
01:44:58,070 --> 01:44:56,800
things that kind of looked like they

2787
01:45:00,629 --> 01:44:58,080
were

2788
01:45:02,070 --> 01:45:00,639
stopping and maybe changing direction

2789
01:45:03,830 --> 01:45:02,080
but it was really fun it's the kind of

2790
01:45:06,149 --> 01:45:03,840
thing you see on these those sea city

2791
01:45:08,709 --> 01:45:06,159
videos or stephen greer where they're

2792
01:45:11,030 --> 01:45:08,719
signing a laser like their little groups

2793
01:45:12,709 --> 01:45:11,040
and tours they can do it i don't think

2794
01:45:14,229 --> 01:45:12,719
they can do that in every city because

2795
01:45:15,669 --> 01:45:14,239
that equipment

2796
01:45:18,790 --> 01:45:15,679
will uh

2797
01:45:22,390 --> 01:45:18,800
will get destroyed if it's uh pointed at

2798
01:45:25,030 --> 01:45:22,400
a bright light for not very long um like

2799
01:45:26,709 --> 01:45:25,040
they they said if um

2800
01:45:28,470 --> 01:45:26,719
they said uh somebody

2801
01:45:29,990 --> 01:45:28,480
they didn't know and they were looking

2802
01:45:31,590 --> 01:45:30,000
at the full moon with it while it was

2803
01:45:33,750 --> 01:45:31,600
turned on and it ruined the goggles oh

2804
01:45:35,669 --> 01:45:33,760
wow okay yeah i didn't know that yeah

2805
01:45:37,270 --> 01:45:35,679
one good thing to know if i had had

2806
01:45:39,430 --> 01:45:37,280
people come over to robertsville where i

2807
01:45:41,830 --> 01:45:39,440
used to live all the time and we would

2808
01:45:44,149 --> 01:45:41,840
uh not have a fire in the beginning and

2809
01:45:46,149 --> 01:45:44,159
just watch everything because it's it's

2810
01:45:48,790 --> 01:45:46,159
blocks out there's no

2811
01:45:51,189 --> 01:45:48,800
no big city lights around there you know

2812
01:45:53,270 --> 01:45:51,199
and and then you see all of it and then

2813
01:45:55,430 --> 01:45:53,280
obviously the fire comes on and then it

2814
01:45:58,229 --> 01:45:55,440
cuts down and someone adds the

2815
01:46:00,870 --> 01:45:58,239
visibility of different stars

2816
01:46:02,470 --> 01:46:00,880
oh yeah yeah but if anybody's listening

2817
01:46:04,070 --> 01:46:02,480
who's uh

2818
01:46:06,470 --> 01:46:04,080
you know has a connection with the skies

2819
01:46:08,070 --> 01:46:06,480
and has never been out in the desert uh

2820
01:46:09,750 --> 01:46:08,080
maybe check out one of those websites

2821
01:46:13,189 --> 01:46:09,760
that shows like

2822
01:46:15,510 --> 01:46:13,199
dark light pollution maps and i i swear

2823
01:46:17,990 --> 01:46:15,520
it is worth the effort the money it

2824
01:46:20,629 --> 01:46:18,000
takes to get to one of those dark places

2825
01:46:23,030 --> 01:46:20,639
uh you gotta watch the weather watch the

2826
01:46:25,109 --> 01:46:23,040
moon to see if the moon's out but for me

2827
01:46:28,310 --> 01:46:25,119
it was well worth the effort to get out

2828
01:46:30,390 --> 01:46:28,320
there and i feel a little ignorant never

2829
01:46:32,229 --> 01:46:30,400
doing that earlier in my life because i

2830
01:46:34,070 --> 01:46:32,239
feel like there's a whole part of this

2831
01:46:36,950 --> 01:46:34,080
world we live in and i've never really

2832
01:46:39,510 --> 01:46:36,960
seen it for what it is and i tell you

2833
01:46:41,590 --> 01:46:39,520
when when all the stars are there it

2834
01:46:43,270 --> 01:46:41,600
almost looks fake i see where the flat

2835
01:46:44,870 --> 01:46:43,280
earth up with their theory because

2836
01:46:45,990 --> 01:46:44,880
there's so many stars that looks like a

2837
01:46:48,550 --> 01:46:46,000
ceiling

2838
01:46:51,109 --> 01:46:48,560
like uh one of those planetarium shows

2839
01:46:52,870 --> 01:46:51,119
that you see it like the sun or whatever

2840
01:46:54,790 --> 01:46:52,880
it's pretty neat so i don't know if

2841
01:46:56,390 --> 01:46:54,800
anybody here is listening has had an

2842
01:46:57,189 --> 01:46:56,400
experience where they

2843
01:46:59,430 --> 01:46:57,199
had

2844
01:47:01,430 --> 01:46:59,440
a face show up

2845
01:47:02,310 --> 01:47:01,440
chime in i think that's neat to talk

2846
01:47:04,070 --> 01:47:02,320
about

2847
01:47:05,910 --> 01:47:04,080
thanks for listening everybody

2848
01:47:08,229 --> 01:47:05,920
yeah no thanks for that paulie yeah i

2849
01:47:10,390 --> 01:47:08,239
know which well which reminds me for

2850
01:47:12,790 --> 01:47:10,400
some of you watching uh

2851
01:47:15,510 --> 01:47:12,800
paulie was on telegram and so

2852
01:47:17,669 --> 01:47:15,520
um i'm also streaming uh video i mean

2853
01:47:19,430 --> 01:47:17,679
audio only on telegram as well but

2854
01:47:22,149 --> 01:47:19,440
that's how you also connect to talk to

2855
01:47:25,109 --> 01:47:22,159
me so if you simply go to the

2856
01:47:27,030 --> 01:47:25,119
description below uh uh go to the ufo

2857
01:47:28,870 --> 01:47:27,040
hub telegram link

2858
01:47:30,790 --> 01:47:28,880
uh you're gonna have to install either

2859
01:47:33,590 --> 01:47:30,800
on your computer or phone to install

2860
01:47:36,310 --> 01:47:33,600
telegram but you'll be able to join the

2861
01:47:38,629 --> 01:47:36,320
uh the voice chat and either listen or

2862
01:47:40,550 --> 01:47:38,639
raise your hand to to talk to me

2863
01:47:42,070 --> 01:47:40,560
but yeah i know

2864
01:47:43,189 --> 01:47:42,080
what i was going to also say paulie

2865
01:47:44,790 --> 01:47:43,199
before you

2866
01:47:48,149 --> 01:47:44,800
uh left it was

2867
01:47:51,030 --> 01:47:48,159
i did get close to sedona but my friend

2868
01:47:53,030 --> 01:47:51,040
and i were driving back from l.a

2869
01:47:55,189 --> 01:47:53,040
we just ended up i have a picture of him

2870
01:47:57,830 --> 01:47:55,199
and i just kind of um

2871
01:47:59,189 --> 01:47:57,840
standing outside um

2872
01:48:01,910 --> 01:47:59,199
i don't know to have it available right

2873
01:48:04,070 --> 01:48:01,920
here right now but we're standing um

2874
01:48:06,229 --> 01:48:04,080
just got out

2875
01:48:09,510 --> 01:48:06,239
i had a camera

2876
01:48:12,229 --> 01:48:09,520
on on very long shutter because it was

2877
01:48:14,709 --> 01:48:12,239
so dark and wanted to have anything up

2878
01:48:17,910 --> 01:48:14,719
here while we're standing there anyway

2879
01:48:19,830 --> 01:48:17,920
um we just we couldn't the drive from

2880
01:48:22,550 --> 01:48:19,840
saint louis to l.a and then from lake to

2881
01:48:25,669 --> 01:48:22,560
back we basically from san luis to la we

2882
01:48:27,590 --> 01:48:25,679
drove we're just minor stops and very

2883
01:48:29,590 --> 01:48:27,600
short periods of time

2884
01:48:31,750 --> 01:48:29,600
all together it was like 36 hours in

2885
01:48:34,149 --> 01:48:31,760
that car and we were just so happy to

2886
01:48:36,550 --> 01:48:34,159
finally be at the destination hotel and

2887
01:48:37,270 --> 01:48:36,560
just relax and on our way back we kind

2888
01:48:39,109 --> 01:48:37,280
of

2889
01:48:41,109 --> 01:48:39,119
you know learn our lesson to not take

2890
01:48:44,790 --> 01:48:41,119
that long of breaks so we'll make it

2891
01:48:46,790 --> 01:48:44,800
home quicker so anyway i made a stop

2892
01:48:48,310 --> 01:48:46,800
very close to sedona we're only like

2893
01:48:49,990 --> 01:48:48,320
maybe

2894
01:48:51,590 --> 01:48:50,000
i don't know i want to say like 20

2895
01:48:54,310 --> 01:48:51,600
minutes away but

2896
01:48:55,750 --> 01:48:54,320
in my mind and his mind it was like you

2897
01:48:58,629 --> 01:48:55,760
know ages

2898
01:49:00,390 --> 01:48:58,639
away and we were like let's just stop

2899
01:49:03,350 --> 01:49:00,400
here take a quick picture and let's

2900
01:49:04,870 --> 01:49:03,360
continue on route but yeah i know sedona

2901
01:49:07,430 --> 01:49:04,880
is definitely something so people have

2902
01:49:09,590 --> 01:49:07,440
always told me about to go and visit and

2903
01:49:12,070 --> 01:49:09,600
this is many years down the road and i

2904
01:49:14,149 --> 01:49:12,080
always say jokingly but i think my wife

2905
01:49:16,870 --> 01:49:14,159
is starting to get the point that i was

2906
01:49:20,229 --> 01:49:16,880
like i can set up this equipment you

2907
01:49:22,870 --> 01:49:20,239
know on like an rv and if we live our

2908
01:49:25,830 --> 01:49:22,880
lives you know and you know just

2909
01:49:27,589 --> 01:49:25,840
living the way we live you know maybe 20

2910
01:49:30,070 --> 01:49:27,599
years down the road i can definitely see

2911
01:49:31,830 --> 01:49:30,080
us you know having having an rv and it's

2912
01:49:35,030 --> 01:49:31,840
like i'll just set this up and then

2913
01:49:37,109 --> 01:49:35,040
using starlink from tesla you know to

2914
01:49:39,189 --> 01:49:37,119
ready 100 meg up 100 meg down that's

2915
01:49:41,510 --> 01:49:39,199
perfect for streaming so i was like we

2916
01:49:43,510 --> 01:49:41,520
can just stop anywhere wherever and just

2917
01:49:45,350 --> 01:49:43,520
have a show live from wherever we happen

2918
01:49:47,510 --> 01:49:45,360
to be at if i'm still doing this 20

2919
01:49:49,589 --> 01:49:47,520
years from now i certainly hope so but

2920
01:49:52,229 --> 01:49:49,599
you know you never know what happens but

2921
01:49:54,149 --> 01:49:52,239
yeah no it's definitely one thing that i

2922
01:49:55,910 --> 01:49:54,159
want to do more of

2923
01:49:57,510 --> 01:49:55,920
having been in the united states for as

2924
01:49:58,709 --> 01:49:57,520
long as i have it's something that i

2925
01:50:01,270 --> 01:49:58,719
have not

2926
01:50:04,149 --> 01:50:01,280
done i want to see the grand canyon the

2927
01:50:06,790 --> 01:50:04,159
um you know want to go to

2928
01:50:08,550 --> 01:50:06,800
sedona i want to you know see more of

2929
01:50:09,430 --> 01:50:08,560
the east and west coast

2930
01:50:10,790 --> 01:50:09,440
and

2931
01:50:12,709 --> 01:50:10,800
i just don't know that i can do it

2932
01:50:15,189 --> 01:50:12,719
anytime recently because i don't know

2933
01:50:16,870 --> 01:50:15,199
how crazy things get it depends on it's

2934
01:50:18,310 --> 01:50:16,880
almost i'm just you know with the things

2935
01:50:20,470 --> 01:50:18,320
going on with the democrats and

2936
01:50:22,870 --> 01:50:20,480
republicans right now i almost feel like

2937
01:50:24,390 --> 01:50:22,880
you know like i'm in a fight between the

2938
01:50:26,149 --> 01:50:24,400
crips and the bloods you know i don't

2939
01:50:28,149 --> 01:50:26,159
want to show up with like a red red

2940
01:50:30,470 --> 01:50:28,159
t-shirt on the east coast you know and

2941
01:50:32,149 --> 01:50:30,480
then get stabbed because i wrote wore

2942
01:50:33,990 --> 01:50:32,159
the wrong colors

2943
01:50:36,870 --> 01:50:34,000
but that's what it almost feels like

2944
01:50:38,870 --> 01:50:36,880
when i first came to the united states

2945
01:50:40,709 --> 01:50:38,880
you know when i wanted to go you know

2946
01:50:42,390 --> 01:50:40,719
starting high school and they told me

2947
01:50:44,390 --> 01:50:42,400
not to wear certain colors i was like

2948
01:50:46,550 --> 01:50:44,400
why what what you know and they told me

2949
01:50:49,589 --> 01:50:46,560
about different gangs and what different

2950
01:50:50,950 --> 01:50:49,599
colors represented and so there's been

2951
01:50:53,109 --> 01:50:50,960
my high school life there for a little

2952
01:50:54,950 --> 01:50:53,119
bit before you know we moved and found

2953
01:50:57,030 --> 01:50:54,960
better schools but that's i'm starting

2954
01:50:59,830 --> 01:50:57,040
to feel like that again you know

2955
01:51:02,470 --> 01:50:59,840
just stick stick to the i guess to the

2956
01:51:04,629 --> 01:51:02,480
midwest and and give the the coasts a

2957
01:51:06,709 --> 01:51:04,639
break but you live on the coast so what

2958
01:51:08,470 --> 01:51:06,719
are your thoughts

2959
01:51:11,430 --> 01:51:08,480
oh well

2960
01:51:13,350 --> 01:51:11,440
yeah i go back and forth from the

2961
01:51:15,990 --> 01:51:13,360
la which is pretty liberal to the

2962
01:51:17,990 --> 01:51:16,000
midwest which is

2963
01:51:19,270 --> 01:51:18,000
a little liberal in the cities but yeah

2964
01:51:21,510 --> 01:51:19,280
it's different

2965
01:51:23,030 --> 01:51:21,520
i guess people more flexible i'd say in

2966
01:51:25,430 --> 01:51:23,040
the midwest with

2967
01:51:27,350 --> 01:51:25,440
your thinking you know and especially

2968
01:51:29,910 --> 01:51:27,360
with this lockdown stuff

2969
01:51:31,030 --> 01:51:29,920
right things are kind of normal now but

2970
01:51:32,790 --> 01:51:31,040
i mean

2971
01:51:34,870 --> 01:51:32,800
six months ago or whatever like there

2972
01:51:36,310 --> 01:51:34,880
was no option you're either

2973
01:51:38,310 --> 01:51:36,320
in a

2974
01:51:40,070 --> 01:51:38,320
in missouri you know there's

2975
01:51:41,750 --> 01:51:40,080
you know some people

2976
01:51:44,229 --> 01:51:41,760
would decide to stay in some people

2977
01:51:46,310 --> 01:51:44,239
elected maybe not to stay in and but out

2978
01:51:48,229 --> 01:51:46,320
here you know it's just

2979
01:51:49,589 --> 01:51:48,239
well i mean in missouri you have

2980
01:51:51,510 --> 01:51:49,599
something

2981
01:51:52,950 --> 01:51:51,520
go ahead

2982
01:51:55,270 --> 01:51:52,960
yeah like

2983
01:51:56,390 --> 01:51:55,280
out here you know

2984
01:51:58,550 --> 01:51:56,400
it's

2985
01:52:00,229 --> 01:51:58,560
it for it seemed like nobody was smiling

2986
01:52:01,510 --> 01:52:00,239
for a long time and if you were people

2987
01:52:02,870 --> 01:52:01,520
look at you like what's wrong with you

2988
01:52:04,550 --> 01:52:02,880
don't you know

2989
01:52:07,510 --> 01:52:04,560
or an appendix

2990
01:52:09,109 --> 01:52:07,520
don't you know right you know so

2991
01:52:10,709 --> 01:52:09,119
damn it panic

2992
01:52:14,070 --> 01:52:10,719
but you know in missouri it's really

2993
01:52:16,229 --> 01:52:14,080
funny uh you know i was looking at um

2994
01:52:18,550 --> 01:52:16,239
especially during the the elections it

2995
01:52:20,310 --> 01:52:18,560
was more clearer that way you had saint

2996
01:52:22,950 --> 01:52:20,320
louis um

2997
01:52:25,350 --> 01:52:22,960
jefferson and kansas those three were

2998
01:52:29,030 --> 01:52:25,360
the three blue star dots everything else

2999
01:52:31,990 --> 01:52:29,040
was red right and i was like it's those

3000
01:52:33,910 --> 01:52:32,000
three areas that basically control how

3001
01:52:36,790 --> 01:52:33,920
the rest of the state kind of go to

3002
01:52:39,109 --> 01:52:36,800
mainly san luis you know because i mean

3003
01:52:41,270 --> 01:52:39,119
literally this is why i moved out from

3004
01:52:43,270 --> 01:52:41,280
san luis after living there for so long

3005
01:52:45,350 --> 01:52:43,280
and being in saint charles and driving

3006
01:52:48,310 --> 01:52:45,360
to san luis all the time

3007
01:52:50,950 --> 01:52:48,320
moving out 50 miles south of san luis

3008
01:52:52,709 --> 01:52:50,960
it's like a whole new world you know

3009
01:52:54,709 --> 01:52:52,719
because everybody was even literally

3010
01:52:56,790 --> 01:52:54,719
warning me they're like you know you're

3011
01:52:58,149 --> 01:52:56,800
a minority and you're a foreigner and

3012
01:53:00,149 --> 01:52:58,159
and all this other stuff and the

3013
01:53:02,950 --> 01:53:00,159
rednecks literally like are gonna kill

3014
01:53:04,149 --> 01:53:02,960
you you know and i'm like why you know

3015
01:53:06,149 --> 01:53:04,159
it's because like i just bought a

3016
01:53:06,870 --> 01:53:06,159
beautiful house don't tell me that you

3017
01:53:13,030 --> 01:53:06,880
know

3018
01:53:15,510 --> 01:53:13,040
a bubble burst because when i moved the

3019
01:53:17,830 --> 01:53:15,520
50 miles south i started seeing america

3020
01:53:19,270 --> 01:53:17,840
for the first time in all those years

3021
01:53:21,430 --> 01:53:19,280
and i was like this is the america i've

3022
01:53:23,189 --> 01:53:21,440
been looking for because my very first

3023
01:53:25,430 --> 01:53:23,199
experience really

3024
01:53:27,270 --> 01:53:25,440
you know because having you know

3025
01:53:29,589 --> 01:53:27,280
when you're in a city you have a variety

3026
01:53:31,830 --> 01:53:29,599
of people but you know everyone is just

3027
01:53:33,430 --> 01:53:31,840
generally speaks english with different

3028
01:53:35,510 --> 01:53:33,440
accents you know whether you're asian or

3029
01:53:39,350 --> 01:53:35,520
for africa or from whatever european

3030
01:53:41,510 --> 01:53:39,360
country well it was funny i've um i

3031
01:53:43,109 --> 01:53:41,520
bought the house i've been like prepared

3032
01:53:45,830 --> 01:53:43,119
repairing it and doing stuff and i

3033
01:53:47,430 --> 01:53:45,840
finally hear on the gravel road that

3034
01:53:49,430 --> 01:53:47,440
there's some activity going on i was

3035
01:53:51,189 --> 01:53:49,440
like oh might be the neighbors and the

3036
01:53:52,870 --> 01:53:51,199
back of my mind you know that you know

3037
01:53:54,310 --> 01:53:52,880
it's the mindset of like you know don't

3038
01:53:55,990 --> 01:53:54,320
go there

3039
01:53:58,229 --> 01:53:56,000
the rednecks are gonna kill you you know

3040
01:54:00,070 --> 01:53:58,239
and i'm like okay well i go out there

3041
01:54:01,669 --> 01:54:00,080
and just being friendly just the way i

3042
01:54:04,709 --> 01:54:01,679
always am i was like i'm not gonna stop

3043
01:54:06,790 --> 01:54:04,719
being that you know so i go up there and

3044
01:54:08,390 --> 01:54:06,800
i wasn't even fully there and there was

3045
01:54:10,149 --> 01:54:08,400
three guys on the tractor they were

3046
01:54:11,109 --> 01:54:10,159
grading the main road that we all drive

3047
01:54:15,189 --> 01:54:11,119
on

3048
01:54:17,270 --> 01:54:15,199
wig it was like hey man now dude do you

3049
01:54:18,950 --> 01:54:17,280
want to come up right there bear

3050
01:54:19,830 --> 01:54:18,960
i was like

3051
01:54:22,149 --> 01:54:19,840
uh

3052
01:54:23,510 --> 01:54:22,159
i'm sorry what it's like well come over

3053
01:54:25,510 --> 01:54:23,520
again bro

3054
01:54:27,510 --> 01:54:25,520
i was like i'm looking at him i'm trying

3055
01:54:29,189 --> 01:54:27,520
to be polite but i have no idea

3056
01:54:30,950 --> 01:54:29,199
what he's talking about and then the

3057
01:54:33,030 --> 01:54:30,960
other guy kind of smiled and laughed and

3058
01:54:34,950 --> 01:54:33,040
he came out and he spoke you know later

3059
01:54:36,470 --> 01:54:34,960
on found out he's from tennessee and

3060
01:54:37,750 --> 01:54:36,480
then his accent i'm going to butcher it

3061
01:54:40,070 --> 01:54:37,760
so i'm not going to even try but

3062
01:54:41,750 --> 01:54:40,080
basically he said he's asking you know

3063
01:54:43,510 --> 01:54:41,760
how he's saying how are you doing would

3064
01:54:45,750 --> 01:54:43,520
you like to come up and have a beer with

3065
01:54:47,750 --> 01:54:45,760
us i was like oh yes sure

3066
01:54:50,470 --> 01:54:47,760
you know and so that was funny so then

3067
01:54:52,390 --> 01:54:50,480
we all sat and after a while because of

3068
01:54:54,629 --> 01:54:52,400
because of different languages i then i

3069
01:54:56,310 --> 01:54:54,639
understood how he twanged his words so i

3070
01:54:58,390 --> 01:54:56,320
quickly started learning and

3071
01:54:59,669 --> 01:54:58,400
understanding him but you know he's

3072
01:55:01,830 --> 01:54:59,679
basically

3073
01:55:03,910 --> 01:55:01,840
this dude that builds houses and works

3074
01:55:05,589 --> 01:55:03,920
for large companies that and have heard

3075
01:55:07,589 --> 01:55:05,599
the names very well you know because

3076
01:55:09,830 --> 01:55:07,599
they're constantly developing around san

3077
01:55:13,510 --> 01:55:09,840
luis the other one was a veteran from

3078
01:55:14,950 --> 01:55:13,520
tennessee another one also a a veteran

3079
01:55:17,350 --> 01:55:14,960
from missouri and we just had

3080
01:55:18,550 --> 01:55:17,360
awesomeness you know talks because you

3081
01:55:20,550 --> 01:55:18,560
know

3082
01:55:22,709 --> 01:55:20,560
my stories in germany and then they were

3083
01:55:24,550 --> 01:55:22,719
also stationed in germany you know and

3084
01:55:25,830 --> 01:55:24,560
all this other stuff so it was it was

3085
01:55:27,669 --> 01:55:25,840
really awesome

3086
01:55:30,310 --> 01:55:27,679
became the best neighbors that anyone

3087
01:55:33,109 --> 01:55:30,320
could ever rely on but talking about you

3088
01:55:34,709 --> 01:55:33,119
know giving into other people's fears

3089
01:55:37,030 --> 01:55:34,719
you know same thing around here you know

3090
01:55:38,790 --> 01:55:37,040
they all think that people are backwards

3091
01:55:40,629 --> 01:55:38,800
and all kinds of stuff that could not be

3092
01:55:42,470 --> 01:55:40,639
further from the truth you know i mean

3093
01:55:44,870 --> 01:55:42,480
we're like really smart people you know

3094
01:55:47,109 --> 01:55:44,880
that you know have like hundreds of you

3095
01:55:49,350 --> 01:55:47,119
know cattle and know how to handle them

3096
01:55:51,910 --> 01:55:49,360
and all this other stuff and like really

3097
01:55:53,589 --> 01:55:51,920
you know it's funny because especially

3098
01:55:55,189 --> 01:55:53,599
you know our neighbor paul my

3099
01:55:57,350 --> 01:55:55,199
father-in-law you know he cracks him up

3100
01:55:59,830 --> 01:55:57,360
every time he looks like your typical

3101
01:56:01,750 --> 01:55:59,840
you know um farmer right and and you

3102
01:56:03,430 --> 01:56:01,760
would judge him as that and probably all

3103
01:56:05,350 --> 01:56:03,440
he knows his cows and all this other

3104
01:56:07,510 --> 01:56:05,360
stuff but my father-in-law was you know

3105
01:56:09,030 --> 01:56:07,520
he was having issue with this phone and

3106
01:56:10,310 --> 01:56:09,040
you know he said here let me see that

3107
01:56:11,830 --> 01:56:10,320
and he was like changing out some

3108
01:56:13,109 --> 01:56:11,840
settings doing so all this other stuff

3109
01:56:15,189 --> 01:56:13,119
and he's like okay here you go they'll

3110
01:56:17,270 --> 01:56:15,199
fix it he's like oh wow thank you you

3111
01:56:19,510 --> 01:56:17,280
know it turns out he you know before he

3112
01:56:22,149 --> 01:56:19,520
became farmer worked you know for the

3113
01:56:24,310 --> 01:56:22,159
telephone company and was you know um

3114
01:56:26,229 --> 01:56:24,320
into electronics and doing a lot of the

3115
01:56:28,790 --> 01:56:26,239
you know electronic electronic type

3116
01:56:31,270 --> 01:56:28,800
stuff anyway so talking about judging a

3117
01:56:34,390 --> 01:56:31,280
book by its cover so there's so many

3118
01:56:36,470 --> 01:56:34,400
smart you know smart um americans like

3119
01:56:38,229 --> 01:56:36,480
what i consider americans as a foreigner

3120
01:56:40,629 --> 01:56:38,239
i finally for the first time started

3121
01:56:43,109 --> 01:56:40,639
seeing americans and what american food

3122
01:56:45,510 --> 01:56:43,119
is like you know having your typical

3123
01:56:48,070 --> 01:56:45,520
mashed potatoes and gravy and having a

3124
01:56:49,750 --> 01:56:48,080
steak and you know having a shin dig and

3125
01:56:52,149 --> 01:56:49,760
all this other stuff that they do and

3126
01:56:54,390 --> 01:56:52,159
tractor pulls and it's just so close and

3127
01:56:56,310 --> 01:56:54,400
always welcome you know and nobody ever

3128
01:56:57,669 --> 01:56:56,320
you know looked at me cross-eyed because

3129
01:57:00,310 --> 01:56:57,679
of where i was from they were always

3130
01:57:02,229 --> 01:57:00,320
even more interested at nauseum over you

3131
01:57:04,470 --> 01:57:02,239
know talent wanted me to tell them more

3132
01:57:05,910 --> 01:57:04,480
about where i'm from and and all this

3133
01:57:08,390 --> 01:57:05,920
other stuff and they would just you know

3134
01:57:10,870 --> 01:57:08,400
listen you know and talking about you

3135
01:57:13,589 --> 01:57:10,880
know again my

3136
01:57:15,510 --> 01:57:13,599
preconceived ideas of oh no do not talk

3137
01:57:17,830 --> 01:57:15,520
to them

3138
01:57:18,870 --> 01:57:17,840
yeah i don't know why rural america kind

3139
01:57:21,270 --> 01:57:18,880
of gets a

3140
01:57:24,709 --> 01:57:21,280
bad rap for that but i think i think

3141
01:57:26,390 --> 01:57:24,719
they're friendlier and nicer like um

3142
01:57:28,070 --> 01:57:26,400
let's say if i were to have a flat tire

3143
01:57:30,470 --> 01:57:28,080
i'd rather have one in

3144
01:57:32,390 --> 01:57:30,480
a rural area than out here because a

3145
01:57:34,870 --> 01:57:32,400
million people drive right by oh now

3146
01:57:36,709 --> 01:57:34,880
dave road it just if i stop to just look

3147
01:57:38,229 --> 01:57:36,719
at it beautiful because just the way the

3148
01:57:39,990 --> 01:57:38,239
mountains are and when you look at a

3149
01:57:42,149 --> 01:57:40,000
beautiful sunset

3150
01:57:44,470 --> 01:57:42,159
at least like out of five four cars

3151
01:57:46,070 --> 01:57:44,480
would stop and say you okay do you need

3152
01:57:47,669 --> 01:57:46,080
help is everything all right you know

3153
01:57:49,830 --> 01:57:47,679
and i'm like no nope everything's fine

3154
01:57:51,589 --> 01:57:49,840
i'm just you know watching nature thank

3155
01:57:53,350 --> 01:57:51,599
you though you know and we check chat a

3156
01:57:55,510 --> 01:57:53,360
little bit you know that way and they go

3157
01:57:57,589 --> 01:57:55,520
about you know go about their business

3158
01:57:59,510 --> 01:57:57,599
but you know that's how it was you know

3159
01:58:01,189 --> 01:57:59,520
especially in robertsville i used to run

3160
01:58:03,270 --> 01:58:01,199
out of gas all the time because i was

3161
01:58:05,189 --> 01:58:03,280
just always lazy and making sure i had

3162
01:58:07,270 --> 01:58:05,199
enough but i always made sure i had

3163
01:58:09,030 --> 01:58:07,280
about you know two gallons of gas in the

3164
01:58:10,950 --> 01:58:09,040
trunk so that i could refill it

3165
01:58:14,390 --> 01:58:10,960
especially driving these you know 50

3166
01:58:16,470 --> 01:58:14,400
mile long distances well anyway um

3167
01:58:17,510 --> 01:58:16,480
i i was basically

3168
01:58:18,550 --> 01:58:17,520
um

3169
01:59:03,990 --> 01:58:18,560
i

3170
01:59:06,149 --> 01:59:04,000
to where

3171
01:59:08,550 --> 01:59:06,159
you know it's it's you you know you have

3172
01:59:10,550 --> 01:59:08,560
to i guess as a foreigner i you know i

3173
01:59:12,550 --> 01:59:10,560
wanted to see both sides and so i

3174
01:59:15,109 --> 01:59:12,560
eventually ended up liking the side more

3175
01:59:16,790 --> 01:59:15,119
so i stayed you know and my parents are

3176
01:59:19,030 --> 01:59:16,800
in saint louis and saint charles you

3177
01:59:21,589 --> 01:59:19,040
know and they only ever known that kind

3178
01:59:23,750 --> 01:59:21,599
of america so when they come here and

3179
01:59:26,070 --> 01:59:23,760
they see people and you know the way

3180
01:59:28,310 --> 01:59:26,080
they talk it's not like in the cities in

3181
01:59:31,030 --> 01:59:28,320
the cities it's short now san luis

3182
01:59:32,709 --> 01:59:31,040
definitely not the typical big city type

3183
01:59:35,270 --> 01:59:32,719
because you still have people stop to

3184
01:59:36,070 --> 01:59:35,280
talk and and and all this stuff but you

3185
01:59:40,870 --> 01:59:36,080
know

3186
01:59:42,470 --> 01:59:40,880
city i was saying no way in hell you

3187
01:59:44,390 --> 01:59:42,480
smile at somebody they're like what the

3188
01:59:46,629 --> 01:59:44,400
you want you know

3189
01:59:49,109 --> 01:59:46,639
l.a was you know i hope you don't take

3190
01:59:52,629 --> 01:59:49,119
this the wrong way but i you know just

3191
01:59:53,990 --> 01:59:52,639
in la i was just just walking around i

3192
01:59:55,830 --> 01:59:54,000
had my phone i don't know what i was

3193
01:59:57,830 --> 01:59:55,840
thinking i just wanted to ask somebody

3194
02:00:00,149 --> 01:59:57,840
some guys like hey is this place right

3195
02:00:02,870 --> 02:00:00,159
around the corner what would you know

3196
02:00:04,870 --> 02:00:02,880
and he wanted money to to tell me to for

3197
02:00:07,510 --> 02:00:04,880
me to

3198
02:00:08,870 --> 02:00:07,520
right and and so i didn't have any cash

3199
02:00:10,709 --> 02:00:08,880
and i said i'm sorry it's like i can't

3200
02:00:12,709 --> 02:00:10,719
help you and he moved on you know it's

3201
02:00:15,589 --> 02:00:12,719
like the most basic things that you

3202
02:00:17,350 --> 02:00:15,599
would just ask somebody to like hear

3203
02:00:19,430 --> 02:00:17,360
here you ask them they give you like a

3204
02:00:21,830 --> 02:00:19,440
book and directions and like draw the

3205
02:00:23,189 --> 02:00:21,840
plan of how to get there you know

3206
02:00:24,830 --> 02:00:23,199
you know and so

3207
02:00:27,510 --> 02:00:24,840
um so anyway

3208
02:00:29,270 --> 02:00:27,520
maybe it could have been like a you know

3209
02:00:31,109 --> 02:00:29,280
maybe an isolated experience but the

3210
02:00:33,750 --> 02:00:31,119
week that i was there it was pretty much

3211
02:00:36,390 --> 02:00:33,760
a daily thing to where it was not very

3212
02:00:38,149 --> 02:00:36,400
comfortable i just i had to stop smiling

3213
02:00:40,709 --> 02:00:38,159
i had to stop looking at people because

3214
02:00:41,750 --> 02:00:40,719
they thought somehow it was say a um

3215
02:00:43,669 --> 02:00:41,760
like a

3216
02:00:45,510 --> 02:00:43,679
disrespectful thing like what the hell

3217
02:00:46,870 --> 02:00:45,520
do you want you know whereas in here

3218
02:00:48,870 --> 02:00:46,880
when you approach people you look at

3219
02:00:51,270 --> 02:00:48,880
them you say hi and all that other stuff

3220
02:00:55,030 --> 02:00:51,280
so for a week i had to just change my

3221
02:00:58,229 --> 02:00:55,040
mannerisms for a little bit

3222
02:00:59,910 --> 02:00:58,239
yeah we yeah we got some

3223
02:01:03,030 --> 02:00:59,920
there's some issues out here one of the

3224
02:01:04,950 --> 02:01:03,040
things that i noticed yeah i don't know

3225
02:01:06,310 --> 02:01:04,960
for people not from this area i'm sure

3226
02:01:08,470 --> 02:01:06,320
maybe you've seen on the news but

3227
02:01:11,109 --> 02:01:08,480
there's our homeless population has

3228
02:01:12,950 --> 02:01:11,119
grown quite a bit the last few years oh

3229
02:01:15,109 --> 02:01:12,960
and it's a little disheartening do you

3230
02:01:16,070 --> 02:01:15,119
see a lot of that yeah

3231
02:01:18,629 --> 02:01:16,080
oh

3232
02:01:20,629 --> 02:01:18,639
it's everywhere yeah and uh

3233
02:01:24,709 --> 02:01:20,639
what's interesting is like

3234
02:01:27,270 --> 02:01:24,719
you know california la tries to

3235
02:01:29,750 --> 02:01:27,280
market itself as this

3236
02:01:32,629 --> 02:01:29,760
really progressive caring

3237
02:01:35,189 --> 02:01:32,639
most you know liberal place but what i

3238
02:01:37,589 --> 02:01:35,199
see is i see a lot of people on the

3239
02:01:38,870 --> 02:01:37,599
street are sleeping

3240
02:01:41,030 --> 02:01:38,880
and i'll just

3241
02:01:42,870 --> 02:01:41,040
you know nobody talks them you'll see

3242
02:01:44,870 --> 02:01:42,880
hundreds of people just walk around

3243
02:01:46,310 --> 02:01:44,880
nobody ever stops to check

3244
02:01:47,430 --> 02:01:46,320
you know sometimes when they're sleeping

3245
02:01:50,229 --> 02:01:47,440
in the middle of a

3246
02:01:52,550 --> 02:01:50,239
sidewalk in a busy area you can't tell

3247
02:01:53,990 --> 02:01:52,560
if they need medical help

3248
02:01:56,229 --> 02:01:54,000
like they're

3249
02:01:59,030 --> 02:01:56,239
passed out or what but it i guess people

3250
02:02:00,950 --> 02:01:59,040
are desensitized at this point

3251
02:02:03,589 --> 02:02:00,960
like could you imagine and where you're

3252
02:02:05,430 --> 02:02:03,599
at if you took if you went and you took

3253
02:02:07,750 --> 02:02:05,440
a nap on the sidewalk i mean how many

3254
02:02:09,109 --> 02:02:07,760
people would stop what they're doing and

3255
02:02:11,510 --> 02:02:09,119
come and make sure

3256
02:02:13,750 --> 02:02:11,520
you're okay but here just

3257
02:02:14,550 --> 02:02:13,760
you know people just step over them it's

3258
02:02:17,589 --> 02:02:14,560
crazy

3259
02:02:19,350 --> 02:02:17,599
and right you know it's kind of sad

3260
02:02:21,350 --> 02:02:19,360
it's hard it's you know it is sad when

3261
02:02:23,589 --> 02:02:21,360
you have to dishearten yourself like

3262
02:02:25,510 --> 02:02:23,599
you're in a third world country

3263
02:02:27,030 --> 02:02:25,520
you know to where you you know that's

3264
02:02:28,550 --> 02:02:27,040
something that

3265
02:02:31,270 --> 02:02:28,560
you know um

3266
02:02:33,510 --> 02:02:31,280
i was actually watching um

3267
02:02:35,830 --> 02:02:33,520
documentary on it and even even like

3268
02:02:38,229 --> 02:02:35,840
during bosnia when everybody during the

3269
02:02:40,070 --> 02:02:38,239
war when everybody was like pretty much

3270
02:02:42,070 --> 02:02:40,080
survive on your own because there's

3271
02:02:44,149 --> 02:02:42,080
nothing else your neighbor can do as

3272
02:02:45,910 --> 02:02:44,159
well because you ain't got guns either

3273
02:02:47,990 --> 02:02:45,920
and so if you're running running the

3274
02:02:48,950 --> 02:02:48,000
same directions but everybody helped

3275
02:02:50,229 --> 02:02:48,960
each other

3276
02:02:52,070 --> 02:02:50,239
you know everybody helped it's like

3277
02:02:53,830 --> 02:02:52,080
whatever they could do like

3278
02:02:56,550 --> 02:02:53,840
we had a car and where we were fleeing

3279
02:02:58,950 --> 02:02:56,560
even even when the you know military was

3280
02:03:00,629 --> 02:02:58,960
was basically like corralling the city

3281
02:03:03,750 --> 02:03:00,639
because you could hear the gunfire from

3282
02:03:05,589 --> 02:03:03,760
this one direction um you know even my

3283
02:03:07,430 --> 02:03:05,599
dad like pulled over and just you know

3284
02:03:10,070 --> 02:03:07,440
we had just enough for one more person

3285
02:03:12,550 --> 02:03:10,080
but he picked up one woman you know that

3286
02:03:14,870 --> 02:03:12,560
um you know was fleeing with us and it

3287
02:03:17,189 --> 02:03:14,880
was the funny part is she was a serb too

3288
02:03:19,030 --> 02:03:17,199
she just told you exactly like nobody

3289
02:03:21,510 --> 02:03:19,040
knew what the was going on why why

3290
02:03:24,149 --> 02:03:21,520
is ever everything just breaking down

3291
02:03:24,950 --> 02:03:24,159
you know but um talking about you know

3292
02:03:26,310 --> 02:03:24,960
um

3293
02:03:28,629 --> 02:03:26,320
you know things that

3294
02:03:30,709 --> 02:03:28,639
you know talking taking the mid you know

3295
02:03:33,830 --> 02:03:30,719
spiritual or the the

3296
02:03:36,310 --> 02:03:33,840
supernatural concept to this that woman

3297
02:03:38,629 --> 02:03:36,320
ended up saving our life because what

3298
02:03:40,709 --> 02:03:38,639
was happening is because nobody knew who

3299
02:03:42,550 --> 02:03:40,719
was attacking and turns out later that

3300
02:03:44,709 --> 02:03:42,560
this was like a paramilitary group they

3301
02:03:47,030 --> 02:03:44,719
weren't officially military

3302
02:03:49,750 --> 02:03:47,040
you know uh but this was during the uh

3303
02:03:51,990 --> 02:03:49,760
the bielena massacre it was like 1992

3304
02:03:53,830 --> 02:03:52,000
you can look it up on on the web well

3305
02:03:56,390 --> 02:03:53,840
anyway um it was a

3306
02:03:58,310 --> 02:03:56,400
a paramilitary group that went in and

3307
02:03:59,910 --> 02:03:58,320
took kind of matters in their own hands

3308
02:04:01,430 --> 02:03:59,920
to get this thing started because they

3309
02:04:03,990 --> 02:04:01,440
were getting restless like all right

3310
02:04:05,350 --> 02:04:04,000
let's start killing you know uh bosnians

3311
02:04:07,350 --> 02:04:05,360
and so

3312
02:04:08,229 --> 02:04:07,360
we were as we're fleeing we picked her

3313
02:04:11,030 --> 02:04:08,239
up

3314
02:04:13,830 --> 02:04:11,040
we all and or whoever could walked ran

3315
02:04:16,629 --> 02:04:13,840
or drove to a base military base

3316
02:04:18,310 --> 02:04:16,639
thinking well the ability to protect us

3317
02:04:20,629 --> 02:04:18,320
right because you we we're all

3318
02:04:23,109 --> 02:04:20,639
yugoslavian you know not realizing that

3319
02:04:25,109 --> 02:04:23,119
that has already broken down and so what

3320
02:04:27,669 --> 02:04:25,119
had happened in that

3321
02:04:30,550 --> 02:04:27,679
specific base um the

3322
02:04:31,669 --> 02:04:30,560
serbs had already taken over control and

3323
02:04:33,030 --> 02:04:31,679
so

3324
02:04:33,910 --> 02:04:33,040
if you were because you know there used

3325
02:04:35,669 --> 02:04:33,920
to be

3326
02:04:38,229 --> 02:04:35,679
um you know in the military you had

3327
02:04:41,350 --> 02:04:38,239
croats bosnian serbians you know they

3328
02:04:44,149 --> 02:04:41,360
were all in one military well

3329
02:04:47,669 --> 02:04:44,159
somehow the plan or whatever came down

3330
02:04:49,430 --> 02:04:47,679
to pike you know to take over that base

3331
02:04:51,830 --> 02:04:49,440
and so we were basically running into

3332
02:04:53,430 --> 02:04:51,840
the enemy's hands so what they did is as

3333
02:04:54,790 --> 02:04:53,440
we were coming in they're like come in

3334
02:04:57,669 --> 02:04:54,800
come in you're safe and then they

3335
02:05:00,390 --> 02:04:57,679
separated men from women you know as

3336
02:05:01,589 --> 02:05:00,400
we're coming in and

3337
02:05:02,950 --> 02:05:01,599
that woman

3338
02:05:05,750 --> 02:05:02,960
for hours

3339
02:05:07,910 --> 02:05:05,760
was talking and talking and begging them

3340
02:05:10,629 --> 02:05:07,920
to to because they were basically

3341
02:05:12,790 --> 02:05:10,639
keeping all everyone wherever you were

3342
02:05:14,790 --> 02:05:12,800
outside you know there was no shelter

3343
02:05:16,629 --> 02:05:14,800
nothing you just slept outside you know

3344
02:05:17,669 --> 02:05:16,639
this was going on for hours well into

3345
02:05:18,709 --> 02:05:17,679
the night

3346
02:05:20,629 --> 02:05:18,719
and so

3347
02:05:23,750 --> 02:05:20,639
because my uncle and my dad were taken

3348
02:05:25,510 --> 02:05:23,760
away to be interrogated and so she just

3349
02:05:27,669 --> 02:05:25,520
begged them i said just let them come

3350
02:05:29,189 --> 02:05:27,679
with me and then i will you know i'll

3351
02:05:30,629 --> 02:05:29,199
take him home because there's nowhere

3352
02:05:32,069 --> 02:05:30,639
else to stay here and i'll bring him

3353
02:05:32,950 --> 02:05:32,079
back the next day

3354
02:05:35,510 --> 02:05:32,960
right

3355
02:05:38,470 --> 02:05:35,520
well she she did that with no intent to

3356
02:05:41,030 --> 02:05:38,480
ever let us come back again and we found

3357
02:05:43,109 --> 02:05:41,040
out that night they killed everybody

3358
02:05:45,990 --> 02:05:43,119
you know and it's like those just these

3359
02:05:48,310 --> 02:05:46,000
small things that if just hour here hour

3360
02:05:51,990 --> 02:05:48,320
there you know i could have been part of

3361
02:05:54,310 --> 02:05:52,000
that you know and so um

3362
02:05:56,229 --> 02:05:54,320
um what i was going to say

3363
02:05:59,030 --> 02:05:56,239
i was getting into the whole idea is we

3364
02:06:00,870 --> 02:05:59,040
were still helping each other right but

3365
02:06:03,030 --> 02:06:00,880
it seems like you know like you

3366
02:06:05,109 --> 02:06:03,040
mentioned in la it's like

3367
02:06:07,030 --> 02:06:05,119
don't become so complacent you know it's

3368
02:06:09,510 --> 02:06:07,040
like just get to know your neighbors you

3369
02:06:11,830 --> 02:06:09,520
know i know so many mouths this way and

3370
02:06:14,310 --> 02:06:11,840
so many miles down that way of who lives

3371
02:06:16,709 --> 02:06:14,320
there who it is and all their names you

3372
02:06:19,030 --> 02:06:16,719
know because that's what knowing your

3373
02:06:20,709 --> 02:06:19,040
neighbors is like you know so that they

3374
02:06:22,229 --> 02:06:20,719
can come for me for some

3375
02:06:25,109 --> 02:06:22,239
to me for something that i can go to

3376
02:06:26,950 --> 02:06:25,119
them but uh to be like we you know like

3377
02:06:28,870 --> 02:06:26,960
my parents were and when i lived with

3378
02:06:30,470 --> 02:06:28,880
them and said to saint charles

3379
02:06:32,950 --> 02:06:30,480
we lived next to the neighbors for like

3380
02:06:34,550 --> 02:06:32,960
15 20 years we only knew the neighbor

3381
02:06:35,990 --> 02:06:34,560
immediately right next to us and we just

3382
02:06:38,790 --> 02:06:36,000
knew their first

3383
02:06:41,430 --> 02:06:38,800
first names you know that's it and there

3384
02:06:44,229 --> 02:06:41,440
was basically houses packed up on you

3385
02:06:46,790 --> 02:06:44,239
know house house upon house but we

3386
02:06:49,030 --> 02:06:46,800
didn't know anyone because everyone just

3387
02:06:50,629 --> 02:06:49,040
and including my parents we just went to

3388
02:06:52,310 --> 02:06:50,639
work we came home

3389
02:06:53,910 --> 02:06:52,320
we went outside the city to have a good

3390
02:06:55,750 --> 02:06:53,920
time but we came back and you didn't

3391
02:06:57,510 --> 02:06:55,760
socialize with anyone else around you so

3392
02:06:59,109 --> 02:06:57,520
the whole neighborhood field just wasn't

3393
02:07:00,790 --> 02:06:59,119
there like it used to be from what i

3394
02:07:03,350 --> 02:07:00,800
hear from the old-timers in the united

3395
02:07:06,709 --> 02:07:05,830
yeah yeah nobody knows their neighbors

3396
02:07:09,189 --> 02:07:06,719
uh

3397
02:07:11,430 --> 02:07:09,199
i have a friend here she she had a

3398
02:07:13,669 --> 02:07:11,440
paranormal experience she'd like to talk

3399
02:07:16,069 --> 02:07:13,679
about yeah please do

3400
02:07:17,669 --> 02:07:16,079
you didn't uh she she does she doesn't

3401
02:07:19,830 --> 02:07:17,679
have a telegram but i got her own

3402
02:07:22,229 --> 02:07:19,840
speaker phone let's see if this is going

3403
02:07:26,709 --> 02:07:22,239
to work

3404
02:07:31,669 --> 02:07:28,950
it's very it's it does sound like you

3405
02:07:33,350 --> 02:07:31,679
have her on a very tiny speaker it's

3406
02:07:34,790 --> 02:07:33,360
very high-pitched let me see let's try

3407
02:07:36,229 --> 02:07:34,800
it again

3408
02:07:41,430 --> 02:07:36,239
try again

3409
02:07:47,270 --> 02:07:44,470
yeah i can i can hear her i honestly i i

3410
02:07:50,229 --> 02:07:47,280
think it might be very um

3411
02:07:54,709 --> 02:07:50,239
um very high pitched very

3412
02:07:56,709 --> 02:07:54,719
tinny for that speaker um if she if if

3413
02:07:59,510 --> 02:07:56,719
there's a way i don't want you giving

3414
02:08:01,270 --> 02:07:59,520
out on here if she has a phone i can

3415
02:08:03,430 --> 02:08:01,280
dial her to

3416
02:08:05,830 --> 02:08:03,440
dial her in and call her that way if she

3417
02:08:07,990 --> 02:08:05,840
wants to do that

3418
02:08:09,750 --> 02:08:08,000
you wanna do that

3419
02:08:12,629 --> 02:08:09,760
okay okay

3420
02:08:15,189 --> 02:08:12,639
can you can you email me um under

3421
02:08:17,109 --> 02:08:15,199
contact contact ufo hub at

3422
02:08:20,629 --> 02:08:17,119
gmail.com

3423
02:08:22,950 --> 02:08:20,639
yeah contact ufo hub at gmail okay yep

3424
02:08:25,589 --> 02:08:22,960
all right thanks yeah just uh yeah email

3425
02:08:28,229 --> 02:08:25,599
me email me there and i will

3426
02:08:29,350 --> 02:08:28,239
see to to at least bring her in voice

3427
02:08:32,470 --> 02:08:29,360
wise

3428
02:08:34,950 --> 02:08:32,480
all right cool thanks awesome

3429
02:08:37,589 --> 02:08:34,960
bye guys

3430
02:08:39,990 --> 02:08:37,599
all right thank you paulie um fab you're

3431
02:08:42,950 --> 02:08:40,000
unmuted and mute yourself and your end

3432
02:08:48,470 --> 02:08:46,550
can you hear me yes hi how are you man

3433
02:08:51,270 --> 02:08:48,480
oh not too bad thank you very much

3434
02:08:53,830 --> 02:08:51,280
surviving surviving uh i just wanted to

3435
02:08:55,669 --> 02:08:53,840
uh to have a quick uh clarification uh

3436
02:08:58,870 --> 02:08:55,679
about two weeks ago if you remember you

3437
02:09:01,270 --> 02:08:58,880
know we talked about a footage some some

3438
02:09:03,189 --> 02:09:01,280
ufo that fell down the sky right on

3439
02:09:04,629 --> 02:09:03,199
crack

3440
02:09:06,790 --> 02:09:04,639
right i wanted to uh to bring some

3441
02:09:08,390 --> 02:09:06,800
precision on that it kind of looks like

3442
02:09:11,990 --> 02:09:08,400
you know i was thinking it was perhaps a

3443
02:09:14,709 --> 02:09:12,000
smoking gun but uh unfortunately it's uh

3444
02:09:18,229 --> 02:09:14,719
it's not it's not the real deal

3445
02:09:19,990 --> 02:09:18,239
i've done some uh some further research

3446
02:09:20,950 --> 02:09:20,000
and

3447
02:09:28,709 --> 02:09:20,960
the

3448
02:09:32,790 --> 02:09:28,719
one that she fell down

3449
02:09:35,189 --> 02:09:32,800
right what did you find out

3450
02:09:37,430 --> 02:09:35,199
well actually it's uh i call that in

3451
02:09:39,830 --> 02:09:37,440
english it's a two piece of two pieces

3452
02:09:41,990 --> 02:09:39,840
of different uh

3453
02:09:42,950 --> 02:09:42,000
videos that actually been put to put

3454
02:09:45,270 --> 02:09:42,960
together

3455
02:09:46,790 --> 02:09:45,280
so the one that is stubbling down and in

3456
02:09:49,270 --> 02:09:46,800
falling down

3457
02:09:50,950 --> 02:09:49,280
is obviously quite real

3458
02:09:54,390 --> 02:09:50,960
[Music]

3459
02:09:56,629 --> 02:09:54,400
but the other piece of that of the

3460
02:09:58,709 --> 02:09:56,639
crushed on the ground etc actually does

3461
02:10:01,030 --> 02:09:58,719
not relate to

3462
02:10:03,830 --> 02:10:01,040
the craft itself that was falling down

3463
02:10:05,669 --> 02:10:03,840
so it's uh it's two pieces of footage

3464
02:10:08,870 --> 02:10:05,679
have been put together into one one

3465
02:10:11,350 --> 02:10:08,880
story and unfortunately it's not it's

3466
02:10:13,109 --> 02:10:11,360
not the real deal so i just wanted to uh

3467
02:10:14,950 --> 02:10:13,119
to bring some precision on that you know

3468
02:10:18,069 --> 02:10:14,960
rather than staying on the

3469
02:10:20,870 --> 02:10:19,669
okay well no yeah thanks for that yeah

3470
02:10:22,950 --> 02:10:20,880
we were looking at that because it was

3471
02:10:24,629 --> 02:10:22,960
the way it was tumbling and then it hits

3472
02:10:25,990 --> 02:10:24,639
the ground and we were discussing just

3473
02:10:27,750 --> 02:10:26,000
the way it um

3474
02:10:30,870 --> 02:10:27,760
for one it didn't look like a capsule

3475
02:10:32,709 --> 02:10:30,880
and two underground it it would have

3476
02:10:35,589 --> 02:10:32,719
should have disintegrated more instead

3477
02:10:37,990 --> 02:10:35,599
it kept pretty much intact

3478
02:10:40,390 --> 02:10:38,000
that's right that's right well that one

3479
02:10:42,500 --> 02:10:40,400
is it does not relate to the one that

3480
02:10:43,750 --> 02:10:42,510
was falling down actually

3481
02:10:46,149 --> 02:10:43,760
[Music]

3482
02:10:46,950 --> 02:10:46,159
managed to uh to gather some info on

3483
02:10:49,270 --> 02:10:46,960
that

3484
02:10:50,950 --> 02:10:49,280
and when when you look at it

3485
02:10:54,310 --> 02:10:50,960
it's actually quite banged up you know

3486
02:10:57,030 --> 02:10:54,320
once one section hit the ground

3487
02:10:58,550 --> 02:10:57,040
right so there you go that's uh unless

3488
02:11:00,310 --> 02:10:58,560
you have questions for me for something

3489
02:11:02,229 --> 02:11:00,320
else you know i just wanted to uh to

3490
02:11:03,189 --> 02:11:02,239
clarify that you know i don't like to

3491
02:11:05,750 --> 02:11:03,199
sort of

3492
02:11:07,669 --> 02:11:05,760
bring infor you know and

3493
02:11:09,910 --> 02:11:07,679
make some sort of

3494
02:11:11,750 --> 02:11:09,920
decision on that yeah i don't think we

3495
02:11:14,470 --> 02:11:11,760
gave it this distinct answer we were

3496
02:11:16,790 --> 02:11:14,480
speculating on a lot of things it's like

3497
02:11:18,550 --> 02:11:16,800
wow that looks interesting but i don't

3498
02:11:21,030 --> 02:11:18,560
think you or i were sitting there

3499
02:11:23,030 --> 02:11:21,040
claiming like wow this is real guys you

3500
02:11:24,709 --> 02:11:23,040
go you know this is the best evidence

3501
02:11:27,510 --> 02:11:24,719
we've ever seen you know we were

3502
02:11:29,750 --> 02:11:27,520
comparing to what we knew and and what

3503
02:11:31,669 --> 02:11:29,760
fit and what didn't fit but it's not

3504
02:11:34,069 --> 02:11:31,679
something where we would have to go back

3505
02:11:36,310 --> 02:11:34,079
and and uh you know put a retraction out

3506
02:11:38,149 --> 02:11:36,320
or something like that

3507
02:11:40,550 --> 02:11:38,159
right right well i i kind of put a

3508
02:11:41,669 --> 02:11:40,560
retraction i was pretty strong on it so

3509
02:11:44,390 --> 02:11:41,679
sure so

3510
02:11:48,310 --> 02:11:46,310
yeah that's what's the least we can do

3511
02:11:50,950 --> 02:11:48,320
you know there is so so many

3512
02:11:52,950 --> 02:11:50,960
information out there not very accurate

3513
02:11:54,470 --> 02:11:52,960
i think it's important you know to sort

3514
02:11:56,550 --> 02:11:54,480
of uh

3515
02:11:58,229 --> 02:11:56,560
quite simply uh

3516
02:12:00,229 --> 02:11:58,239
do a bit of without you know cleaning

3517
02:12:01,270 --> 02:12:00,239
right it's it's very important to do

3518
02:12:03,189 --> 02:12:01,280
that

3519
02:12:04,870 --> 02:12:03,199
it's it's important to admit okay i've

3520
02:12:07,589 --> 02:12:04,880
seen something on

3521
02:12:09,189 --> 02:12:07,599
i have my own interpretation and later

3522
02:12:10,950 --> 02:12:09,199
on come back and say well i was wrong

3523
02:12:12,470 --> 02:12:10,960
you know and i think it's very important

3524
02:12:13,910 --> 02:12:12,480
especially in new a fulfilled you know

3525
02:12:16,149 --> 02:12:13,920
to realize

3526
02:12:19,669 --> 02:12:16,159
when something might be happening and

3527
02:12:21,430 --> 02:12:19,679
also realize well i got it wrong and

3528
02:12:23,669 --> 02:12:21,440
yeah but simply not to mention it you

3529
02:12:25,589 --> 02:12:23,679
know it's nothing to be sorry about you

3530
02:12:27,910 --> 02:12:25,599
know but to to basically have a clear

3531
02:12:29,750 --> 02:12:27,920
idea what's going on there's so much

3532
02:12:33,990 --> 02:12:29,760
disinformation there's no need to

3533
02:12:36,550 --> 02:12:35,350
right right

3534
02:12:39,750 --> 02:12:36,560
um

3535
02:12:43,130 --> 02:12:39,760
oh he's kryptos is laughing he said fab

3536
02:12:45,270 --> 02:12:43,140
you said fake news in french

3537
02:12:55,910 --> 02:12:45,280
[Laughter]

3538
02:13:01,990 --> 02:12:58,229
we even say fake news in french

3539
02:13:05,669 --> 02:13:03,189
well um

3540
02:13:07,270 --> 02:13:05,679
so well uh fab um

3541
02:13:09,030 --> 02:13:07,280
unless you you wanted to talk to me

3542
02:13:11,589 --> 02:13:09,040
about something specific i was wanting

3543
02:13:14,709 --> 02:13:11,599
to see if i can get a hold of um this

3544
02:13:16,470 --> 02:13:14,719
gal that can't get to to telegram

3545
02:13:18,310 --> 02:13:16,480
and to see yes

3546
02:13:19,750 --> 02:13:18,320
she wanted to share a story would that

3547
02:13:21,990 --> 02:13:19,760
be okay with you or do you want to share

3548
02:13:23,990 --> 02:13:22,000
something first smoking okay actually i

3549
02:13:26,790 --> 02:13:24,000
thought i just pumped in very quickly

3550
02:13:28,310 --> 02:13:26,800
before that happened so i can

3551
02:13:31,669 --> 02:13:28,320
quite simply

3552
02:13:33,270 --> 02:13:31,679
put the score rights

3553
02:13:35,350 --> 02:13:33,280
okay

3554
02:13:37,270 --> 02:13:35,360
all right well fab thank you i i

3555
02:13:39,830 --> 02:13:37,280
appreciate it for clarifying that that

3556
02:13:41,350 --> 02:13:39,840
that's hard to know

3557
02:13:42,709 --> 02:13:41,360
okay good night and good luck to

3558
02:13:44,709 --> 02:13:42,719
everyone

3559
02:13:46,149 --> 02:13:44,719
all right take care fab

3560
02:13:47,669 --> 02:13:46,159
all right

3561
02:13:48,629 --> 02:13:47,679
okay let's see

3562
02:13:51,910 --> 02:13:48,639
so

3563
02:13:54,310 --> 02:13:51,920
that uh let's see if i can

3564
02:13:56,790 --> 02:13:54,320
call this person out and i'm sorry for

3565
02:13:58,950 --> 02:13:56,800
those on telegram you might hear a skype

3566
02:14:12,149 --> 02:13:58,960
call but at least it's not going to go

3567
02:14:17,270 --> 02:14:15,990
is this uh uh paulie's friend

3568
02:14:19,750 --> 02:14:17,280
oh hi

3569
02:14:20,870 --> 02:14:19,760
hi marley one quick second let me unmute

3570
02:14:23,270 --> 02:14:20,880
you here

3571
02:14:24,950 --> 02:14:23,280
go ahead can you can you say a few more

3572
02:14:26,709 --> 02:14:24,960
words

3573
02:14:27,750 --> 02:14:26,719
sure okay

3574
02:14:29,510 --> 02:14:27,760
i just

3575
02:14:31,270 --> 02:14:29,520
yeah all right good deal yeah i know

3576
02:14:32,790 --> 02:14:31,280
you're coming through you're coming

3577
02:14:33,990 --> 02:14:32,800
through clear and i think everyone else

3578
02:14:36,390 --> 02:14:34,000
can also

3579
02:14:38,229 --> 02:14:36,400
um hear you too let me unmute paulie

3580
02:14:43,270 --> 02:14:38,239
real quick paul you are muted as well

3581
02:14:48,629 --> 02:14:45,589
okay maybe he just clicked clicked it by

3582
02:14:50,069 --> 02:14:48,639
accident okay no no no this is uh i

3583
02:14:51,669 --> 02:14:50,079
don't want to say but this is marley's

3584
02:14:53,189 --> 02:14:51,679
first time listening in so she's

3585
02:14:55,189 --> 02:14:53,199
probably gonna feel the room but i've

3586
02:14:56,069 --> 02:14:55,199
known her for years and she always has

3587
02:15:00,550 --> 02:14:56,079
really

3588
02:15:02,950 --> 02:15:00,560
i guess paranormal experiences from her

3589
02:15:04,790 --> 02:15:02,960
time living on the desert and she just

3590
02:15:06,550 --> 02:15:04,800
happened to mention that she's got a

3591
02:15:08,390 --> 02:15:06,560
good story for me that happened this

3592
02:15:09,910 --> 02:15:08,400
weekend and i haven't heard it yet and i

3593
02:15:11,189 --> 02:15:09,920
was like you know what i have an

3594
02:15:12,950 --> 02:15:11,199
interesting story too maybe we could

3595
02:15:15,109 --> 02:15:12,960
just do it online

3596
02:15:16,550 --> 02:15:15,119
well i mean this works too this was

3597
02:15:18,149 --> 02:15:16,560
actually um

3598
02:15:19,910 --> 02:15:18,159
you said what was the name i'm sorry

3599
02:15:22,870 --> 02:15:19,920
again

3600
02:15:24,950 --> 02:15:22,880
marley marley yeah no this was uh

3601
02:15:25,910 --> 02:15:24,960
something i never really thought about

3602
02:15:28,229 --> 02:15:25,920
um

3603
02:15:30,950 --> 02:15:28,239
it was in a pinch when i tried to talk

3604
02:15:33,030 --> 02:15:30,960
to kiwani he couldn't get his camera to

3605
02:15:35,189 --> 02:15:33,040
work and couldn't get any of the

3606
02:15:37,030 --> 02:15:35,199
connection to work and so i was looking

3607
02:15:39,109 --> 02:15:37,040
at skype and i have you know skype

3608
02:15:41,030 --> 02:15:39,119
credit and i was like hold on a minute i

3609
02:15:43,350 --> 02:15:41,040
can call him and so that became my

3610
02:15:45,830 --> 02:15:43,360
backup option so i'm glad i get to use

3611
02:15:48,310 --> 02:15:45,840
it again on you too although you haven't

3612
02:15:50,229 --> 02:15:48,320
come through through telegram um at

3613
02:15:52,629 --> 02:15:50,239
least you can come through this way to

3614
02:15:55,270 --> 02:15:52,639
share your story so uh please just start

3615
02:15:58,069 --> 02:15:55,280
out however you like

3616
02:16:01,669 --> 02:15:58,079
okay i it's it's a great connection it's

3617
02:16:08,390 --> 02:16:05,589
so um i have this house in a really

3618
02:16:09,510 --> 02:16:08,400
rural part of new mexico

3619
02:16:11,510 --> 02:16:09,520
um

3620
02:16:12,390 --> 02:16:11,520
way out in the middle of nowhere there's

3621
02:16:14,870 --> 02:16:12,400
really

3622
02:16:18,390 --> 02:16:14,880
no neighbors for about

3623
02:16:19,270 --> 02:16:18,400
30 miles in any direction

3624
02:16:22,069 --> 02:16:19,280
um

3625
02:16:24,149 --> 02:16:22,079
it's about 60 miles to

3626
02:16:26,709 --> 02:16:24,159
a medium-sized town

3627
02:16:29,669 --> 02:16:26,719
and uh i like to go out there because

3628
02:16:33,270 --> 02:16:29,679
there's no wi-fi and there's no phone

3629
02:16:36,230 --> 02:16:33,280
and there's no distractions

3630
02:16:39,030 --> 02:16:36,240
so i was there this weekend

3631
02:16:41,509 --> 02:16:39,040
and i have a little pendant that hangs

3632
02:16:43,589 --> 02:16:41,519
in the window and when the sun comes up

3633
02:16:47,030 --> 02:16:43,599
over the hill in the morning it

3634
02:16:48,709 --> 02:16:47,040
it reflects refracts and makes little

3635
02:16:51,110 --> 02:16:48,719
uh rainbows

3636
02:16:53,110 --> 02:16:51,120
all over the room

3637
02:16:55,669 --> 02:16:53,120
so it did that and

3638
02:16:57,349 --> 02:16:55,679
my partner and i were sitting there and

3639
02:16:59,030 --> 02:16:57,359
talking about how cool it would be to

3640
02:17:01,429 --> 02:16:59,040
have more of them

3641
02:17:05,349 --> 02:17:01,439
and he left to

3642
02:17:07,830 --> 02:17:05,359
go in the other room and make coffee and

3643
02:17:11,830 --> 02:17:07,840
the rainbows were all gone and this

3644
02:17:14,070 --> 02:17:11,840
little white orb appeared

3645
02:17:15,270 --> 02:17:14,080
first in front of me and then up against

3646
02:17:18,070 --> 02:17:15,280
the wall

3647
02:17:19,190 --> 02:17:18,080
was about the size of a golf ball and it

3648
02:17:23,750 --> 02:17:19,200
was

3649
02:17:26,950 --> 02:17:23,760
pulsating back and forth along the wall

3650
02:17:27,669 --> 02:17:26,960
for the same beat of my heart

3651
02:17:33,190 --> 02:17:27,679
or

3652
02:17:35,270 --> 02:17:33,200
a while and thought wow that's really

3653
02:17:36,389 --> 02:17:35,280
strange there's no breeze outside

3654
02:17:39,349 --> 02:17:36,399
there's

3655
02:17:40,790 --> 02:17:39,359
it wasn't refracted light it was its own

3656
02:17:43,349 --> 02:17:40,800
little glowing

3657
02:17:45,669 --> 02:17:43,359
white orb

3658
02:17:48,469 --> 02:17:45,679
and i'd put my hand up against the wall

3659
02:17:51,110 --> 02:17:48,479
and it would stop moving and just edge

3660
02:17:53,669 --> 02:17:51,120
towards my hand and then

3661
02:17:55,190 --> 02:17:53,679
it would stop right next to my pinky

3662
02:17:58,150 --> 02:17:55,200
finger

3663
02:17:59,990 --> 02:17:58,160
and then if i took my hand away it would

3664
02:18:01,270 --> 02:18:00,000
start

3665
02:18:03,270 --> 02:18:01,280
um

3666
02:18:06,230 --> 02:18:03,280
just going back and forth against the

3667
02:18:08,790 --> 02:18:06,240
wall again i played with it for about i

3668
02:18:12,230 --> 02:18:08,800
don't know a good 10 minutes trying to

3669
02:18:14,389 --> 02:18:12,240
figure out what it was or what it meant

3670
02:18:16,070 --> 02:18:14,399
or who it was

3671
02:18:19,110 --> 02:18:16,080
um

3672
02:18:21,030 --> 02:18:19,120
i never did figure it out and i finally

3673
02:18:24,709 --> 02:18:21,040
uh my partner showed up again i said you

3674
02:18:26,629 --> 02:18:24,719
gotta see this this is so cool and he's

3675
02:18:28,950 --> 02:18:26,639
very scientifically

3676
02:18:30,709 --> 02:18:28,960
rationally minded and

3677
02:18:32,389 --> 02:18:30,719
said there's got to be an explanation

3678
02:18:34,549 --> 02:18:32,399
and i said you figure it out then

3679
02:18:36,790 --> 02:18:34,559
because it's not

3680
02:18:39,030 --> 02:18:36,800
it's not coming through anything in the

3681
02:18:42,230 --> 02:18:39,040
window and uh

3682
02:18:44,549 --> 02:18:42,240
he stood in front of it and it it

3683
02:18:45,509 --> 02:18:44,559
it was against his chest completely

3684
02:18:46,549 --> 02:18:45,519
still

3685
02:18:49,270 --> 02:18:46,559
and

3686
02:18:50,709 --> 02:18:49,280
glowing so brightly but then when he

3687
02:18:54,469 --> 02:18:50,719
moved away

3688
02:18:56,469 --> 02:18:54,479
it went back to the wall and just raced

3689
02:18:58,629 --> 02:18:56,479
up and down against the wall

3690
02:19:01,910 --> 02:18:58,639
it was very cool i have no idea what it

3691
02:19:05,270 --> 02:19:03,429
wow so

3692
02:19:07,509 --> 02:19:05,280
was this a one and only experience you

3693
02:19:08,870 --> 02:19:07,519
ever had

3694
02:19:12,549 --> 02:19:08,880
no not

3695
02:19:16,870 --> 02:19:12,559
not there and not uh

3696
02:19:18,629 --> 02:19:16,880
with orbs i was driving back there once

3697
02:19:21,990 --> 02:19:18,639
um

3698
02:19:24,870 --> 02:19:22,000
on a road that there's hardly any ever

3699
02:19:26,629 --> 02:19:24,880
any cars on and the rio grande gorge

3700
02:19:29,910 --> 02:19:26,639
which is

3701
02:19:31,589 --> 02:19:29,920
a really deep gorge uh in new mexico

3702
02:19:32,389 --> 02:19:31,599
um

3703
02:19:34,309 --> 02:19:32,399
is

3704
02:19:35,190 --> 02:19:34,319
i don't know maybe 15 miles from the

3705
02:19:37,910 --> 02:19:35,200
house

3706
02:19:39,990 --> 02:19:37,920
um i was driving back and it was getting

3707
02:19:41,190 --> 02:19:40,000
dark and i could see these two white

3708
02:19:44,549 --> 02:19:41,200
glowing

3709
02:19:46,389 --> 02:19:44,559
objects about the size of headlights

3710
02:19:48,389 --> 02:19:46,399
and they were bouncing along together

3711
02:19:51,830 --> 02:19:48,399
and i thought oh somebody's driving out

3712
02:19:54,790 --> 02:19:53,750
that's a weird place to be driving

3713
02:19:56,790 --> 02:19:54,800
because

3714
02:19:58,870 --> 02:19:56,800
it's really rocky

3715
02:20:03,110 --> 02:19:58,880
and the lights look like they were going

3716
02:20:04,950 --> 02:20:03,120
way too fast for the road conditions um

3717
02:20:06,790 --> 02:20:04,960
but they stayed parallel and they

3718
02:20:08,790 --> 02:20:06,800
bounced along

3719
02:20:11,030 --> 02:20:08,800
and i thought there's no road out there

3720
02:20:13,830 --> 02:20:11,040
there's no way anybody's out there

3721
02:20:16,389 --> 02:20:13,840
driving and there's a curve in the road

3722
02:20:18,550 --> 02:20:16,399
when i turned on to the

3723
02:20:21,110 --> 02:20:18,560
made the curve

3724
02:20:23,910 --> 02:20:21,120
the lights zoomed up and there was one

3725
02:20:28,070 --> 02:20:23,920
on each side of my car

3726
02:20:31,030 --> 02:20:28,080
just in front of the rear view mirrors

3727
02:20:33,349 --> 02:20:31,040
so it wasn't reflected light from a car

3728
02:20:34,710 --> 02:20:33,359
behind me there were no cars behind me

3729
02:20:36,230 --> 02:20:34,720
there were no cars in front of me there

3730
02:20:37,750 --> 02:20:36,240
were no cars

3731
02:20:39,750 --> 02:20:37,760
um

3732
02:20:40,550 --> 02:20:39,760
and they they just paralleled the car

3733
02:20:43,349 --> 02:20:40,560
for

3734
02:20:46,389 --> 02:20:43,359
maybe five miles and i was trying to

3735
02:20:47,349 --> 02:20:46,399
make up all these excuses in my head

3736
02:20:49,510 --> 02:20:47,359
um

3737
02:20:51,030 --> 02:20:49,520
it's got to be somebody's headlight from

3738
02:20:54,389 --> 02:20:51,040
somewhere or

3739
02:20:55,990 --> 02:20:54,399
high beams bouncing off of something

3740
02:20:58,150 --> 02:20:56,000
finally a car

3741
02:21:01,510 --> 02:20:58,160
started coming towards the opposite

3742
02:21:03,270 --> 02:21:01,520
direction and they both swooped in front

3743
02:21:05,349 --> 02:21:03,280
of my car and between me and the other

3744
02:21:07,590 --> 02:21:05,359
car went off into the

3745
02:21:08,870 --> 02:21:07,600
mason i never saw them again

3746
02:21:10,070 --> 02:21:08,880
but

3747
02:21:11,030 --> 02:21:10,080
um

3748
02:21:14,070 --> 02:21:11,040
yeah

3749
02:21:16,070 --> 02:21:14,080
so it was it was really a trippy

3750
02:21:18,150 --> 02:21:16,080
experience

3751
02:21:20,790 --> 02:21:18,160
well yeah thanks for sharing that so i

3752
02:21:23,110 --> 02:21:20,800
mean but uh for you it's always been

3753
02:21:25,510 --> 02:21:23,120
um observing them but beyond the

3754
02:21:26,710 --> 02:21:25,520
observation you haven't really got any

3755
02:21:30,389 --> 02:21:26,720
kind of gathered any deeper

3756
02:21:34,230 --> 02:21:31,270
um

3757
02:21:35,830 --> 02:21:34,240
no not really they seem friendly but i

3758
02:21:37,110 --> 02:21:35,840
mean that's all right just wondering

3759
02:21:39,030 --> 02:21:37,120
because some people you know the only

3760
02:21:41,349 --> 02:21:39,040
reason why i ask because you know

3761
02:21:43,510 --> 02:21:41,359
usually certain certain things like that

3762
02:21:46,550 --> 02:21:43,520
are accompanied with like you know quite

3763
02:21:49,670 --> 02:21:46,560
a quite a you know different dimensional

3764
02:21:50,469 --> 02:21:49,680
experience so that's why i was asking

3765
02:21:52,870 --> 02:21:50,479
well

3766
02:21:55,349 --> 02:21:52,880
new mexico kind of really lives up to

3767
02:21:56,710 --> 02:21:55,359
its name of the land of enchantment

3768
02:21:59,110 --> 02:21:56,720
so um

3769
02:22:01,270 --> 02:21:59,120
i've had a lot of experiences

3770
02:22:03,750 --> 02:22:01,280
there that were not necessarily

3771
02:22:05,270 --> 02:22:03,760
paranormal but they weren't definitely

3772
02:22:08,309 --> 02:22:05,280
weren't of

3773
02:22:10,150 --> 02:22:08,319
what we would consider normal

3774
02:22:14,710 --> 02:22:10,160
right right um

3775
02:22:19,830 --> 02:22:17,270
was that the area where you used to live

3776
02:22:21,590 --> 02:22:19,840
where you had your neighbors having

3777
02:22:22,630 --> 02:22:21,600
cattle mutilations remember you told me

3778
02:22:24,630 --> 02:22:22,640
about

3779
02:22:28,230 --> 02:22:24,640
yeah yeah

3780
02:22:30,469 --> 02:22:28,240
same area about 20 miles away

3781
02:22:33,750 --> 02:22:30,479
yeah so um

3782
02:22:35,590 --> 02:22:33,760
we had a neighbor who ran cattle in the

3783
02:22:38,389 --> 02:22:35,600
forest we had a forest service in

3784
02:22:39,510 --> 02:22:38,399
holding so we lived in a log cabin in

3785
02:22:42,389 --> 02:22:39,520
the forest

3786
02:22:44,630 --> 02:22:42,399
um he ran his cows about

3787
02:22:47,750 --> 02:22:44,640
five miles from us

3788
02:22:50,630 --> 02:22:47,760
but he also ran them out on the mesa and

3789
02:22:53,590 --> 02:22:50,640
he went to pick him up to bring him home

3790
02:22:56,950 --> 02:22:53,600
for winter and

3791
02:23:00,790 --> 02:22:56,960
he had about nine dead cows all

3792
02:23:03,590 --> 02:23:00,800
with their udders and ears

3793
02:23:05,670 --> 02:23:03,600
uh missing and he said their tails were

3794
02:23:08,389 --> 02:23:05,680
burnt

3795
02:23:11,670 --> 02:23:10,150
that's so that's a lot usually i've only

3796
02:23:14,389 --> 02:23:11,680
ever heard the one

3797
02:23:16,389 --> 02:23:14,399
cow mutilation but not

3798
02:23:19,110 --> 02:23:16,399
you said nine in one night

3799
02:23:20,630 --> 02:23:19,120
nine i think i said i i see that was in

3800
02:23:22,790 --> 02:23:20,640
the 80s so

3801
02:23:26,070 --> 02:23:22,800
i seem to remember it was way more than

3802
02:23:29,910 --> 02:23:26,080
one i think it was nine

3803
02:23:34,230 --> 02:23:32,469
nobody really talked about it and he

3804
02:23:35,030 --> 02:23:34,240
didn't really want to talk about it he

3805
02:23:36,710 --> 02:23:35,040
was

3806
02:23:38,710 --> 02:23:36,720
an old branch who had been ranching

3807
02:23:39,010 --> 02:23:38,720
there his whole life he was in his 80s

3808
02:23:41,590 --> 02:23:39,020
then

3809
02:23:43,510 --> 02:23:41,600
[Music]

3810
02:23:45,429 --> 02:23:43,520
and he just said yeah i went to pick up

3811
02:23:47,270 --> 02:23:45,439
my cows and they were dead and

3812
02:23:49,910 --> 02:23:47,280
disfigured

3813
02:23:52,710 --> 02:23:49,920
you had um i talked to debbie zilgemeier

3814
02:23:55,830 --> 02:23:52,720
a while back and she's kind of um you

3815
02:23:57,990 --> 02:23:55,840
know she's a mufon investigator that's

3816
02:24:00,309 --> 02:23:58,000
her her and her bro

3817
02:24:02,230 --> 02:24:00,319
brother chuck zakowski i believe is his

3818
02:24:04,950 --> 02:24:02,240
name i think they even had a show on

3819
02:24:07,349 --> 02:24:04,960
history channel uh regarding you know

3820
02:24:08,710 --> 02:24:07,359
doing these kind of investigations and

3821
02:24:10,790 --> 02:24:08,720
so there's always you know when it comes

3822
02:24:13,429 --> 02:24:10,800
to that there's always these two camps

3823
02:24:15,590 --> 02:24:13,439
one is aliens did it the other one is uh

3824
02:24:17,910 --> 02:24:15,600
secret government groups did it

3825
02:24:21,270 --> 02:24:17,920
you know and so it's like

3826
02:24:23,190 --> 02:24:21,280
who do you who do you believe right

3827
02:24:25,270 --> 02:24:23,200
right um i

3828
02:24:27,030 --> 02:24:25,280
in that case i didn't believe secret

3829
02:24:28,550 --> 02:24:27,040
government groups because it's really

3830
02:24:33,990 --> 02:24:28,560
hard

3831
02:24:35,670 --> 02:24:34,000
obviously an intruder in that

3832
02:24:37,910 --> 02:24:35,680
neighborhood

3833
02:24:41,590 --> 02:24:37,920
you know it's just there it's too wide

3834
02:24:44,070 --> 02:24:41,600
open you can see for 50 or 60 miles and

3835
02:24:46,469 --> 02:24:44,080
everybody knows everybody

3836
02:24:47,910 --> 02:24:46,479
so i had to believe it was something

3837
02:24:49,590 --> 02:24:47,920
that wasn't

3838
02:24:51,349 --> 02:24:49,600
uh of this

3839
02:24:55,190 --> 02:24:51,359
realm

3840
02:25:00,469 --> 02:24:57,830
the way our cabin was built the guy who

3841
02:25:01,910 --> 02:25:00,479
built it he had a shooting lane that

3842
02:25:04,309 --> 02:25:01,920
went from

3843
02:25:05,349 --> 02:25:04,319
the bedroom of the cabin

3844
02:25:08,389 --> 02:25:05,359
um

3845
02:25:10,870 --> 02:25:08,399
a mile out to the road

3846
02:25:13,349 --> 02:25:10,880
and then you could see up

3847
02:25:14,230 --> 02:25:13,359
the hill onto the next hill one night we

3848
02:25:15,910 --> 02:25:14,240
were

3849
02:25:17,910 --> 02:25:15,920
standing there

3850
02:25:20,150 --> 02:25:17,920
talking it was

3851
02:25:21,830 --> 02:25:20,160
it was fall it wasn't winter there was

3852
02:25:22,870 --> 02:25:21,840
no snow on the ground

3853
02:25:24,870 --> 02:25:22,880
um

3854
02:25:26,070 --> 02:25:24,880
and we looked up and there were red

3855
02:25:27,110 --> 02:25:26,080
white and

3856
02:25:29,030 --> 02:25:27,120
blue

3857
02:25:31,830 --> 02:25:29,040
lights and it seemed like it was too

3858
02:25:33,110 --> 02:25:31,840
high for them to be on the road

3859
02:25:35,030 --> 02:25:33,120
um

3860
02:25:36,389 --> 02:25:35,040
we talked about it we decided it was

3861
02:25:37,429 --> 02:25:36,399
probably

3862
02:25:39,830 --> 02:25:37,439
um

3863
02:25:43,349 --> 02:25:39,840
a cop car or two that we're waiting for

3864
02:25:45,270 --> 02:25:43,359
some bikers to come across the pass

3865
02:25:47,270 --> 02:25:45,280
um

3866
02:25:50,469 --> 02:25:47,280
but we never heard anything we heard the

3867
02:25:52,150 --> 02:25:50,479
bikers go by an hour later and the next

3868
02:25:54,469 --> 02:25:52,160
day i i uh

3869
02:25:57,670 --> 02:25:54,479
saddled up my horse and went up onto

3870
02:25:59,910 --> 02:25:57,680
that ridge and then had to go get my

3871
02:26:02,150 --> 02:25:59,920
my ex and and tell him to come up and

3872
02:26:06,550 --> 02:26:02,160
take a look at this because there were

3873
02:26:07,990 --> 02:26:06,560
there were three burn marks about

3874
02:26:10,469 --> 02:26:08,000
they weren't three feet wide they were

3875
02:26:11,910 --> 02:26:10,479
maybe two and a half feet wide

3876
02:26:14,389 --> 02:26:11,920
um

3877
02:26:16,790 --> 02:26:14,399
in the grass and it was real obvious

3878
02:26:19,349 --> 02:26:16,800
that something big and hot had sat on

3879
02:26:24,710 --> 02:26:22,309
it was just that kind of place it still

3880
02:26:26,950 --> 02:26:24,720
is that kind of place right if you

3881
02:26:29,349 --> 02:26:26,960
wanted to see if you want to go see

3882
02:26:31,429 --> 02:26:29,359
things you can't explain um

3883
02:26:33,429 --> 02:26:31,439
go to new mexico

3884
02:26:35,510 --> 02:26:33,439
well you know it's very very cool and

3885
02:26:37,910 --> 02:26:35,520
interesting too that you've been around

3886
02:26:38,790 --> 02:26:37,920
those those experiences i'm wondering if

3887
02:26:41,590 --> 02:26:38,800
um

3888
02:26:44,550 --> 02:26:41,600
if you if you would be interested to

3889
02:26:46,870 --> 02:26:44,560
find a very dependable regressionist and

3890
02:26:48,870 --> 02:26:46,880
see if there's anything else more that

3891
02:26:51,190 --> 02:26:48,880
you remember than than what your memory

3892
02:26:53,910 --> 02:26:51,200
gives you now

3893
02:26:55,510 --> 02:26:53,920
yeah i'd be up into that

3894
02:26:57,910 --> 02:26:55,520
you know it's how do i look up a

3895
02:26:59,990 --> 02:26:57,920
reliable regressionist

3896
02:27:02,469 --> 02:27:00,000
right yeah no that's uh i would i

3897
02:27:04,630 --> 02:27:02,479
wouldn't know myself i would basically

3898
02:27:07,349 --> 02:27:04,640
have to contact all my other friends

3899
02:27:09,750 --> 02:27:07,359
that you know that have um when they

3900
02:27:11,750 --> 02:27:09,760
came out publicly like sherry wilde they

3901
02:27:13,190 --> 02:27:11,760
know of some regressionist uh certain

3902
02:27:15,429 --> 02:27:13,200
other people they know

3903
02:27:16,950 --> 02:27:15,439
of some of those that then it would be

3904
02:27:19,670 --> 02:27:16,960
something to

3905
02:27:21,910 --> 02:27:19,680
um to look into that way

3906
02:27:24,070 --> 02:27:21,920
i did one of those

3907
02:27:26,230 --> 02:27:24,080
a regression

3908
02:27:28,710 --> 02:27:26,240
yeah but i don't think it worked for me

3909
02:27:31,030 --> 02:27:28,720
i saw myself as an octopus and a past

3910
02:27:32,309 --> 02:27:31,040
life but i don't know what was yeah why

3911
02:27:33,510 --> 02:27:32,319
was it

3912
02:27:35,349 --> 02:27:33,520
yeah

3913
02:27:37,510 --> 02:27:35,359
well just the way you say it you said

3914
02:27:39,270 --> 02:27:37,520
something funny yesterday not yesterday

3915
02:27:41,110 --> 02:27:39,280
the last show too something about like

3916
02:27:42,870 --> 02:27:41,120
shadow people cracked me up what'd you

3917
02:27:45,429 --> 02:27:42,880
say like what did they do they just

3918
02:27:47,670 --> 02:27:45,439
stand around waiting for people

3919
02:27:49,190 --> 02:27:47,680
they got nothing better to do oh i have

3920
02:27:51,190 --> 02:27:49,200
another friend i'll have her call him

3921
02:27:52,150 --> 02:27:51,200
one time tell her about shadow stories

3922
02:27:56,150 --> 02:27:52,160
but uh

3923
02:27:57,910 --> 02:27:56,160
well what i didn't know much about um

3924
02:27:59,349 --> 02:27:57,920
some of the spiritual stuff and this is

3925
02:28:01,910 --> 02:27:59,359
before

3926
02:28:03,990 --> 02:28:01,920
i uh but i happen to do a group one so

3927
02:28:05,190 --> 02:28:04,000
it's like in a room with like 20 30

3928
02:28:10,870 --> 02:28:05,200
people

3929
02:28:12,870 --> 02:28:10,880
were saying when they came out of it so

3930
02:28:14,870 --> 02:28:12,880
there was a hypnotist and he did it as a

3931
02:28:17,030 --> 02:28:14,880
group and everybody had different

3932
02:28:18,870 --> 02:28:17,040
experiences some people shared like you

3933
02:28:21,510 --> 02:28:18,880
know and they had interesting stories

3934
02:28:22,950 --> 02:28:21,520
about past lives but um there was a

3935
02:28:25,190 --> 02:28:22,960
corner of the room

3936
02:28:26,950 --> 02:28:25,200
where several people said

3937
02:28:29,349 --> 02:28:26,960
i don't know why but my eyes were

3938
02:28:31,110 --> 02:28:29,359
fluttering my eyes were fluttering

3939
02:28:33,670 --> 02:28:31,120
uncontrollably

3940
02:28:34,710 --> 02:28:33,680
and i just i didn't think much of it

3941
02:28:35,670 --> 02:28:34,720
until

3942
02:28:37,510 --> 02:28:35,680
later

3943
02:28:39,510 --> 02:28:37,520
in life i started having these kind of

3944
02:28:42,469 --> 02:28:39,520
experiences and my eyes started floating

3945
02:28:44,389 --> 02:28:42,479
so i think that's the sign of an energy

3946
02:28:46,950 --> 02:28:44,399
being in the room maybe can't see it but

3947
02:28:49,270 --> 02:28:46,960
the energy

3948
02:28:51,429 --> 02:28:49,280
has an effect on your body and that's

3949
02:28:53,429 --> 02:28:51,439
why they experienced that

3950
02:28:55,030 --> 02:28:53,439
so i don't know maybe that meditation

3951
02:28:58,309 --> 02:28:55,040
group brought in

3952
02:29:00,070 --> 02:28:58,319
attracted certain things and uh but yeah

3953
02:29:01,990 --> 02:29:00,080
that was uh that was what i might take

3954
02:29:03,429 --> 02:29:02,000
away from that experience

3955
02:29:04,630 --> 02:29:03,439
right

3956
02:29:05,590 --> 02:29:04,640
yeah

3957
02:29:08,630 --> 02:29:05,600
okay

3958
02:29:10,150 --> 02:29:08,640
well uh thank you again for well i was

3959
02:29:13,270 --> 02:29:10,160
going to say for calling in i realized

3960
02:29:15,110 --> 02:29:13,280
oh i not called you

3961
02:29:17,349 --> 02:29:15,120
yeah thanks i appreciate you know you

3962
02:29:18,870 --> 02:29:17,359
sharing the story and and and not

3963
02:29:21,750 --> 02:29:18,880
minding you know because

3964
02:29:22,389 --> 02:29:21,760
for me it's it's hard to imagine you

3965
02:29:25,030 --> 02:29:22,399
know

3966
02:29:28,230 --> 02:29:25,040
but there's still people that are so uh

3967
02:29:29,990 --> 02:29:28,240
anxious and and very reserved to be open

3968
02:29:32,309 --> 02:29:30,000
about sharing these stories to me it's

3969
02:29:34,389 --> 02:29:32,319
just second nature but you know i can't

3970
02:29:37,990 --> 02:29:34,399
expect everyone else to be the same way

3971
02:29:40,950 --> 02:29:38,000
so i do appreciate you doing this today

3972
02:29:43,990 --> 02:29:40,960
no problem thank you for calling me um

3973
02:29:45,830 --> 02:29:44,000
i just figure it's just part of

3974
02:29:47,990 --> 02:29:45,840
an experience

3975
02:29:50,230 --> 02:29:48,000
i think a lot of people deny their

3976
02:29:51,750 --> 02:29:50,240
experiences because it makes them

3977
02:29:54,469 --> 02:29:51,760
uncomfortable but

3978
02:29:56,870 --> 02:29:54,479
to me it's just a frill

3979
02:29:59,030 --> 02:29:56,880
right right well you know it's like one

3980
02:30:00,790 --> 02:29:59,040
person sharing a story next person feels

3981
02:30:02,550 --> 02:30:00,800
more open to it the next one the next

3982
02:30:04,790 --> 02:30:02,560
one the next thing you know it becomes

3983
02:30:07,190 --> 02:30:04,800
normal and then you know

3984
02:30:08,389 --> 02:30:07,200
just you'll be another just boring old

3985
02:30:09,830 --> 02:30:08,399
person

3986
02:30:11,910 --> 02:30:09,840
because everyone else had this

3987
02:30:16,630 --> 02:30:11,920
experience and that's become the as they

3988
02:30:20,710 --> 02:30:18,950
well thank you very much no thank you i

3989
02:30:23,660 --> 02:30:20,720
appreciate it

3990
02:30:24,790 --> 02:30:23,670
okay all right bye-bye

3991
02:30:26,550 --> 02:30:24,800
[Music]

3992
02:30:29,590 --> 02:30:26,560
okay

3993
02:30:31,830 --> 02:30:29,600
so i'm glad we were able to do that um

3994
02:30:33,110 --> 02:30:31,840
yeah and for some of those i i just i

3995
02:30:34,710 --> 02:30:33,120
don't know why i didn't think about this

3996
02:30:35,750 --> 02:30:34,720
earlier for those that

3997
02:30:38,230 --> 02:30:35,760
that

3998
02:30:39,990 --> 02:30:38,240
you know telegram really makes it super

3999
02:30:42,870 --> 02:30:40,000
easy and simple for me especially if you

4000
02:30:43,750 --> 02:30:42,880
already have a phone number and so for

4001
02:30:45,670 --> 02:30:43,760
one

4002
02:30:48,630 --> 02:30:45,680
telegram i used to

4003
02:30:51,750 --> 02:30:48,640
post other things that i no i wouldn't

4004
02:30:54,070 --> 02:30:51,760
say i posted anything

4005
02:30:55,510 --> 02:30:54,080
too crazy out there that that i wouldn't

4006
02:30:58,389 --> 02:30:55,520
be able to post let's say like on

4007
02:31:00,710 --> 02:30:58,399
youtube anywhere else but as i mentioned

4008
02:31:03,590 --> 02:31:00,720
quite some time ago i'm trying to build

4009
02:31:05,190 --> 02:31:03,600
uh different platforms up and telegram

4010
02:31:07,030 --> 02:31:05,200
is definitely one of those because for

4011
02:31:08,950 --> 02:31:07,040
one it keeps me connected to all of you

4012
02:31:12,550 --> 02:31:08,960
watching and people that i can actually

4013
02:31:15,670 --> 02:31:12,560
have a conversation with a lot easier

4014
02:31:18,230 --> 02:31:15,680
that way instead of having to officially

4015
02:31:19,990 --> 02:31:18,240
set up an interview to be interviewed

4016
02:31:23,349 --> 02:31:20,000
and doing all this other stuff it was

4017
02:31:25,270 --> 02:31:23,359
just acts like a call-in and so um so

4018
02:31:27,030 --> 02:31:25,280
basically two purposes one

4019
02:31:29,030 --> 02:31:27,040
build up an alternate

4020
02:31:30,630 --> 02:31:29,040
uh platform and two

4021
02:31:32,790 --> 02:31:30,640
immediate access

4022
02:31:35,110 --> 02:31:32,800
for you guys to me and from me to you

4023
02:31:37,030 --> 02:31:35,120
guys so that way

4024
02:31:40,469 --> 02:31:37,040
we don't have to go in these long

4025
02:31:42,389 --> 02:31:40,479
roundabout channels to to

4026
02:31:44,230 --> 02:31:42,399
get to talk to each other just like

4027
02:31:45,429 --> 02:31:44,240
today you know i would have never

4028
02:31:48,070 --> 02:31:45,439
um

4029
02:31:49,510 --> 02:31:48,080
you know never you know thought to call

4030
02:31:51,030 --> 02:31:49,520
someone else because they really want to

4031
02:31:53,510 --> 02:31:51,040
share their story and then sharing their

4032
02:31:57,429 --> 02:31:53,520
story that's what it's about

4033
02:31:59,910 --> 02:31:57,439
so um let me i was thinking about

4034
02:32:01,590 --> 02:31:59,920
to get to yoyo to see what he has to say

4035
02:32:03,990 --> 02:32:01,600
and then

4036
02:32:07,190 --> 02:32:04,000
sorry to say it's not as long as last

4037
02:32:11,349 --> 02:32:07,200
time but i i have to go so let me get to

4038
02:32:14,309 --> 02:32:11,359
yoyo and see what he has to say and then

4039
02:32:16,710 --> 02:32:14,319
i'll finish up here and hopefully i'll

4040
02:32:19,830 --> 02:32:16,720
have more tomorrow on a new guest and

4041
02:32:22,389 --> 02:32:19,840
i'll create a create a stream for friday

4042
02:32:25,190 --> 02:32:22,399
but i'll keep you posted i'm not quite

4043
02:32:27,429 --> 02:32:25,200
sure yet who which one of these people

4044
02:32:28,950 --> 02:32:27,439
that put an invitation out to will get

4045
02:32:30,950 --> 02:32:28,960
back to me in time

4046
02:32:33,510 --> 02:32:30,960
so

4047
02:32:36,389 --> 02:32:33,520
let me see here

4048
02:32:38,469 --> 02:32:36,399
yo-yo you are unmuted on my end and mute

4049
02:32:40,309 --> 02:32:38,479
yourself on yours and should be able to

4050
02:32:41,830 --> 02:32:40,319
talk to me

4051
02:32:44,550 --> 02:32:41,840
yeah actually i had a question for the

4052
02:32:45,990 --> 02:32:44,560
lady but uh i can just ask it but um not

4053
02:32:49,270 --> 02:32:46,000
that it's significant but i was just

4054
02:32:50,870 --> 02:32:49,280
wondering like like how was she feeling

4055
02:32:52,790 --> 02:32:50,880
during the experience and like right

4056
02:32:54,070 --> 02:32:52,800
before it like what was like her frame

4057
02:32:56,150 --> 02:32:54,080
of mind or was there something

4058
02:32:58,550 --> 02:32:56,160
significant she was thinking about was

4059
02:33:00,070 --> 02:32:58,560
just a question you know but um

4060
02:33:01,590 --> 02:33:00,080
i mean if we can't get her back yeah

4061
02:33:04,230 --> 02:33:01,600
well that's a that's a good question

4062
02:33:06,550 --> 02:33:04,240
that maybe paulie if he's in contact

4063
02:33:09,190 --> 02:33:06,560
with her still right now he could ask

4064
02:33:10,870 --> 02:33:09,200
and then he'll con convey it if if that

4065
02:33:14,150 --> 02:33:10,880
would be the quickest that i can think

4066
02:33:16,070 --> 02:33:14,160
of right now while he's already online

4067
02:33:17,590 --> 02:33:16,080
um but yeah you've been doing good

4068
02:33:19,429 --> 02:33:17,600
otherwise it's been a while since i

4069
02:33:22,230 --> 02:33:19,439
talked to you

4070
02:33:23,830 --> 02:33:22,240
yeah it's been smokey and

4071
02:33:26,309 --> 02:33:23,840
my solar power can't work cause all the

4072
02:33:27,270 --> 02:33:26,319
smokes is blocking me but we're healthy

4073
02:33:29,750 --> 02:33:27,280
and

4074
02:33:31,190 --> 02:33:29,760
you know that's what counts you know for

4075
02:33:32,870 --> 02:33:31,200
sure all my friends

4076
02:33:35,990 --> 02:33:32,880
have been riots in south africa and

4077
02:33:42,070 --> 02:33:36,000
stuff but we got it pretty easy but uh

4078
02:34:00,950 --> 02:33:43,349
they can hear you now you're on

4079
02:34:07,110 --> 02:34:03,910
to make more rainbows

4080
02:34:09,830 --> 02:34:07,120
and refracted light but the actual

4081
02:34:12,950 --> 02:34:09,840
experience of being around those orbs

4082
02:34:15,510 --> 02:34:12,960
made me very

4083
02:34:18,630 --> 02:34:15,520
peaceful and happy

4084
02:34:23,030 --> 02:34:18,640
that's not always my demeanor but

4085
02:34:42,710 --> 02:34:25,910
put it that way or they were the effect

4086
02:34:42,720 --> 02:34:46,950
the next

4087
02:34:51,590 --> 02:34:49,830
all right so i think being like um

4088
02:34:53,030 --> 02:34:51,600
how do you say that not like mind busy

4089
02:34:54,870 --> 02:34:53,040
probably

4090
02:34:56,710 --> 02:34:54,880
let you open to have the experience

4091
02:34:58,469 --> 02:34:56,720
that's just my opinion just what pops

4092
02:35:14,630 --> 02:34:58,479
the mind but you know

4093
02:35:17,110 --> 02:35:15,510
right

4094
02:35:19,030 --> 02:35:17,120
okay okay thanks

4095
02:35:21,270 --> 02:35:19,040
yo yeah i hope you got your answer and

4096
02:35:27,030 --> 02:35:21,280
paulie thanks again for uh i guess

4097
02:35:32,790 --> 02:35:30,070
oh okay i guess he's offline now too

4098
02:35:35,510 --> 02:35:32,800
all right well um

4099
02:35:37,349 --> 02:35:35,520
let me see here just gotta do this part

4100
02:35:39,510 --> 02:35:37,359
here real quick

4101
02:35:41,270 --> 02:35:39,520
so yeah thank you all very much for for

4102
02:35:43,670 --> 02:35:41,280
tuning in today

4103
02:35:44,950 --> 02:35:43,680
um every wednesday at seven we usually

4104
02:35:47,030 --> 02:35:44,960
do this

4105
02:35:48,870 --> 02:35:47,040
it always goes in different directions

4106
02:35:51,990 --> 02:35:48,880
the the way you've seen it today might

4107
02:35:53,590 --> 02:35:52,000
not be next next wednesday at all

4108
02:35:55,270 --> 02:35:53,600
it might be going in different direction

4109
02:35:57,030 --> 02:35:55,280
different topics

4110
02:35:58,790 --> 02:35:57,040
maybe something more interesting to you

4111
02:35:59,670 --> 02:35:58,800
i don't know uh

4112
02:36:00,870 --> 02:35:59,680
how

4113
02:36:03,110 --> 02:36:00,880
um

4114
02:36:05,830 --> 02:36:03,120
how it's always perceived by by people

4115
02:36:08,309 --> 02:36:05,840
watching any of these because some love

4116
02:36:11,110 --> 02:36:08,319
it some are not that much into it so

4117
02:36:13,190 --> 02:36:11,120
either way it's it's never the same so i

4118
02:36:16,070 --> 02:36:13,200
hope you give it next week a chance as

4119
02:36:19,510 --> 02:36:16,080
well and um yeah i want to thank

4120
02:36:20,550 --> 02:36:19,520
everyone else that had uh had logged in

4121
02:36:33,670 --> 02:36:20,560
to

4122
02:36:36,389 --> 02:36:33,680
usually as you've noticed on wednesdays

4123
02:36:38,389 --> 02:36:36,399
if you manage to download telegram log

4124
02:36:40,389 --> 02:36:38,399
in join it

4125
02:36:42,230 --> 02:36:40,399
and share your story that way or maybe

4126
02:36:45,110 --> 02:36:42,240
interact that way like you've like

4127
02:36:47,510 --> 02:36:45,120
you've just seen it you get maybe more

4128
02:36:49,750 --> 02:36:47,520
from it as well but uh yeah definitely

4129
02:36:51,590 --> 02:36:49,760
not in discouraging people that want to

4130
02:36:54,389 --> 02:36:51,600
make a comment in the in the comment

4131
02:36:56,469 --> 02:36:54,399
sections it's more than welcome but um

4132
02:36:58,950 --> 02:36:56,479
it's more interactive that way for those

4133
02:37:01,429 --> 02:36:58,960
just sitting watching on youtube or just

4134
02:37:04,710 --> 02:37:01,439
watching this the video version of this

4135
02:37:07,349 --> 02:37:04,720
so at least having a conversation

4136
02:37:09,670 --> 02:37:07,359
by voice even if it's with someone or on

4137
02:37:10,469 --> 02:37:09,680
telegram it's a lot more entertaining to

4138
02:37:12,070 --> 02:37:10,479
watch

4139
02:37:15,190 --> 02:37:12,080
so

4140
02:37:19,270 --> 02:37:15,200
thank you all very much i appreciate you

4141
02:37:21,429 --> 02:37:19,280
logging in very much um again i will let

4142
02:37:22,790 --> 02:37:21,439
everyone know as soon as i can who i'm

4143
02:37:24,309 --> 02:37:22,800
going to have on friday it's not

4144
02:37:25,110 --> 02:37:24,319
determined yet

4145
02:37:25,830 --> 02:37:25,120
but

4146
02:37:29,030 --> 02:37:25,840
it

4147
02:37:31,270 --> 02:37:29,040
would be should be 7 p.m on fridays for

4148
02:37:33,190 --> 02:37:31,280
an actual interview with

4149
02:37:34,070 --> 02:37:33,200
with a guest over skype

4150
02:37:35,429 --> 02:37:34,080
and

4151
02:37:38,550 --> 02:37:35,439
then of course

4152
02:37:40,710 --> 02:37:38,560
next wednesday as always 7 pm

4153
02:37:42,309 --> 02:37:40,720
open lines so

4154
02:37:44,469 --> 02:37:42,319
have a good day

4155
02:37:47,349 --> 02:37:44,479
good night wherever you are thank you